@diva it was outburst like these that made us tell you to leave this guy or at least give yourself time to heal properly. But you refused. Truth is when there is an accumulation of past hurts not properly dealt with such an outburst is the result. I can't blame you for your reactions. Whatever you said was simply a reaction to past incidence.
As for me you need to apologise and let him know how sorry you are. Then hope he understands. Let him know why you truely reacted in that way. I know love can change anyone but you have to access yourself to know the limits of what you can take from a man. And once again if you can't forgive and totally let the past go, then leave now and save yourself further heart ache. Your heart is your most prized possesion. Stop gambling with it. Determine your mental capabilities and emotional strengths and let them guide you.
Have a wonderful day.

I am willing to forgive and let go of the past, maybe I just needed some more from him and then this. This is the first time such is happening. I am ashamed on the gravity of words but I guess the best I can do is apologise and pray. Hopefully I get to see him in person to have a heart to heart talk. Thanks a lot.