Good evening guys.This is will be lengthy but please bear with me
I think it's high time I share what I've been going through with you guys cause I don't know which way again.
I'm an introvert, I'm always shy this makes me feel so less and the worst part is that I'm scared of almost everything as well,this particular fear is drowning me.I don't know what to do again,I always try to read some motivational quote,they help me sometimes but it's never permanent.
I always try my best to be brave and confident but it only works for few minutes,hours, days it's never permanent.i don't know whether it's only me in this shoe but those who knows what real fear is will understand me, it's Soo hard for me to do things on my own,fear always grip me plus shyness,and what I've observed in me that cause this fear is THINKING.
I think too much, even when I don't want to think, those thought will just come to my head without control and I'll be just be thinking whatever and this is really affecting me psychologically. it's really affecting my live.i can't think straight.
I always feel less confident at home and work, when my peers are talking and gisting I'll find it very hard to join them, thinking of how to associate with them in my head.These people are not newly friends to me,yet I still find it very hard to feel free with them . It's always a bad experience for me infact it gets to a certain point when I'm shy and scared I'll be shaking and having a hot temperature as if I'm in war can you imagine
But, whenever this fear and shyness leaves me(when I'm trying to act bold it sometimes will)I feel like a normal person,I control things,I do whatever I want to do,THAT IS ALL I CRAVED FOR but it's never permanent.
I don't just know how I'm going to live my life on my own way. I'm tired of these things guys I don't know what to do again please help me.Anyhow. I'm scared as I'm typing this scared with no one or nothing pursuing you
I pray so much on this. It's been happening to me since I was small.i always think it will leave me when I grow older but now I'm 19 and it's just getting worse.It cause so much depression in me there was I time I thought of committing suicide cause I was totally fed up of everything. I'll just wake up every single day thinking of how to overcome fear while it grips me more.Being shy is normal but the scared part is what is killing me.Anybody with help pls just don't know where to face
Lalasticlala,dominique mynd44 pls help me push this to front page

Stay away from social media and spend time with people physically.
Social media have messed up too many people

I'm also waiting for the comments because I also experience part of this

ismail4sure:
I'm also waiting for the comments because I also experience part of this

I used to experience these plus nervousness and anxiety when i was your age but now ehn, things have changed. Situations changed me i must say. Things wil happen to you when you would need to man up and grow,its inevitable. I'd advise you to improve your looks and work for money. You will do great. The occasion opposite sex stares, positive gestures to your good look, positive review of your nice haircuts to as little comment to your nicely trimmed nails has a lot to do if you are going to build your confidence right from the scratch and could basically boost your psychological makeup. Lastly, have money. There is a confidence that comes with having funds loaded in your aza.