I'm typing this with tear in my eyes,I am a failure I failed myself too many times and Ive lost count,I'll be 25 this year and I'm a total waste,how did I get here?

I swear I can't even answer that question myself I have never been addited to anything in my life,no drugs no gambling or any sort of thing that could put me put my life pinry...I left school 2020 since I couldn't met up financially few months ago I posted a trend on nairaland of how happy I was my late mom sis reached out to me from UK and asked to go back to school,luckily I was reinstated back by the school...

I stopped my factory work, I went back to school and started from 200level I was glad because I just want to get a degree....

I sold my phone and everything ( I sold all on nairaland)... because I had to complete registration,this my evil mom sis kept promising me she'll send me something and she never did and it's over 4months now.

I sleep in school classes I don't even have anything,I paid my school fee already with the things I sold very cheaply here on nairaland.
I attended Osun state university so my fee is arou 234k.

I already gave up on schooling but this evil woman pushed me and now I'm confused as I don't even have a phone I fall literally sick everytime...
I curse my mom sis any day I wake up because I wake with pain and fear...

I have literally lost my way I don't know what to do anymore I'm totally confused,I'm depressed I seriously need a miracle and food,I swear on my mom's grave I have not had anything to eat in 2days...

She won't reply me,I text on whatsapp with people's number cuz I don't have a phone again, once I introduce myself she'll just say I'll get back to you everytime,and that all and not even one as she sent me a dime...I explained everything to her that I sold my phone because I believed her...
Now I don't even know what to do as I have no one to run to....if you are in osogbo and you can help me with something to eat Ill be so glad.

Your advices will also go a long way,as I'm in a delima wether to back to lagos and continue my factory work or to finish this second semester.

Just leave her to God.

my brother you gaz hustle o, nobody get ya time for this world

You’re still blaming your mom sis
You will sleep in that class ooo
Save yourself OP
No Dey find pity

I feel you. Life is hard. Life is harder when you don't have foundational support. But you know the hardest part? Nobody cares! The earlier you accept this, the better for you. Yes, if you commit suicide today, the loss is on you.

While it's natural to feel enraged and downcast about life situation, the best way to get out of a sad place is "getting out", the process. There are students working around you. Infact, when sapa wanted to blind me , it ironically opened my mind that I discovered there are many students working around and I had a lot of jobs to pick from. Solar installation, photography, barbing, bet9ja attendant/cashier, oil palm production to mention but a few but I learned photography while working the oil palm factory on weekends. I even wrote projects for about 10 of my mates in final year. I nearly died. But then, money must be made.

Finish second semester. Get engaged. Manna don dey finish from heaven. You're in a state university, move close to the indigenous students that are working. They have the connects. The pay will go a long way. I'm talking from experience. If you want to keep whining, there are a lot of Nairaland empty pages to exhaust.

Freedomlurther:
I'm typing this with tear in my eyes,I am a failure I failed myself too many times and Ive lost count,I'll be 25 this year and I'm a total waste,how did I get here?

I swear I can't even answer that question myself I have never been addited to anything in my life,no drugs no gambling or any sort of thing that could put me put my life pinry...I left school 2020 since I couldn't met up financially few months ago I posted a trend on nairaland of how happy I was my late mom sis reached out to me from UK and asked to go back to school,luckily I was reinstated back by the school...

I stopped my factory work, I went back to school and started from 200level I was glad because I just want to get a degree....

I sold my phone and everything ( I sold all on nairaland)... because I had to complete registration,this my evil mom sis kept promising me she'll send me something and she never did and it's over 4months now.

I sleep in school classes I don't even have anything,I paid my school fee already with the things I sold very cheaply here on nairaland.
I attended Osun state university so my fee is arou 234k.

I already gave up on schooling but this evil woman pushed me and now I'm confused as I don't even have a phone I fall literally sick everytime...
I curse my mom sis any day I wake up because I wake with pain and fear...

I have literally lost my way I don't know what to do anymore I'm totally confused,I'm depressed I seriously need a miracle and food,I swear on my mom's grave I have not had anything to eat in 2days...

She won't reply me,I text on whatsapp with people's number cuz I don't have a phone again, once I introduce myself she'll just say I'll get back to you everytime,and that all and not even one as she sent me a dime...I explained everything to her that I sold my phone because I believed her...
Now I don't even know what to do as I have no one to run to....if you are in osogbo and you can help me with something to eat Ill be so glad.

Your advices will also go a long way,as I'm in a delima wether to back to lagos and continue my factory work or to finish this second semester.

Ok.

Epositive:
I feel you. Life is hard. Life is harder when you don't have foundational support. But you know the hardest part? Nobody cares! The earlier you accept this, the better for you. Yes, if you commit suicide today, the loss is on you.

While it's natural to feel enraged and downcast about life situation, the best way to get out of a sad place is "getting out", the process. There are students working around you. Infact, when sapa wanted to blind me , it ironically opened my mind that I discovered there are many students working around and I had a lot of jobs to pick from. Solar installation, photography, barbing, bet9ja attendant/cashier, oil palm production to mention but a few but I learned photography while working the oil palm factory on weekends. I even wrote projects for about 10 of my mates in final year. I nearly died. But then, money must be made.

Finish second semester. Get engaged. Manna don dey finish from heaven. You're in a state university, move close to the indigenous students that are working. They have the connects. The pay will go a long way. I'm talking from experience. If you want to keep whining, there are a lot of Nairaland empty pages to exhaust.

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Thanks boss

Epositive:
I feel you. Life is hard. Life is harder when you don't have foundational support. But you know the hardest part? Nobody cares! The earlier you accept this, the better for you. Yes, if you commit suicide today, the loss is on you.

While it's natural to feel enraged and downcast about life situation, the best way to get out of a sad place is "getting out", the process. There are students working around you. Infact, when sapa wanted to blind me , it ironically opened my mind that I discovered there are many students working around and I had a lot of jobs to pick from. Solar installation, photography, barbing, bet9ja attendant/cashier, oil palm production to mention but a few but I learned photography while working the oil palm factory on weekends. I even wrote projects for about 10 of my mates in final year. I nearly died. But then, money must be made.

Finish second semester. Get engaged. Manna don dey finish from heaven. You're in a state university, move close to the indigenous students that are working. They have the connects. The pay will go a long way. I'm talking from experience. If you want to keep whining, there are a lot of Nairaland empty pages to exhaust.

I love the last comment.
How far with the palm oil processing bro?
I did it in 2015 at Ozoro but shut down the company a year later.
Had a palm oil farm at Ogbemudia, Edo then too for harvesting the palm fruits

emmaodet:



I love the last comment.

it's the truth o.

How far with the palm oil processing bro?
I did it in 2015 at Ozoro but shut down the company a year later.
Had a palm oil farm at Ogbemudia, Edo then too for harvesting the palm fruits

it's a lucrative venture, though poorly managed. The manager who took me there resigned after a year because he couldn't get along with the uneducated laborers who have been there long before him. Some of them literally live on the farm. He was trying to reduce the "chuachua" and propose bigger ideas so it became issue. I was there for just a semester but I must say, farming enterprise requires a strong hand to manage. There are many people ready to run you down in the name of "na where man dey work, na there e dey chop".

Why are your farms no longer running?

Epositive:

it's a lucrative venture, though poorly managed. The manager who took me there resigned after a year because he couldn't get along with the uneducated laborers who have been there long before him. Some of them literally live on the farm. He was trying to reduce the "chuachua" and propose bigger ideas so it became issue. I was there for just a semester but I must say, farming enterprise requires a strong hand to manage. There are many people ready to run you down in the name of "na where man dey work, na there e dey chop".

Why are your farms no longer running?

At the bolded is really really true.

Why are your farms no longer running? - Many factors bro which are but not limited to -

- Nature of my job. I am not always around to monitor it so the people i delegated the jobs to always give lackadaisical attitude to the farm.
- Theft of seeds and chemicals
- High labour cost
And many more.

Freedomlurther:
I'm typing this with tear in my eyes,I am a failure I failed myself too many times and Ive lost count,I'll be 25 this year and I'm a total waste,how did I get here?

I swear I can't even answer that question myself I have never been addited to anything in my life,no drugs no gambling or any sort of thing that could put me put my life pinry...I left school 2020 since I couldn't met up financially few months ago I posted a trend on nairaland of how happy I was my late mom sis reached out to me from UK and asked to go back to school,luckily I was reinstated back by the school...

I stopped my factory work, I went back to school and started from 200level I was glad because I just want to get a degree....

I sold my phone and everything ( I sold all on nairaland)... because I had to complete registration,this my evil mom sis kept promising me she'll send me something and she never did and it's over 4months now.

I sleep in school classes I don't even have anything,I paid my school fee already with the things I sold very cheaply here on nairaland.
I attended Osun state university so my fee is arou 234k.

I already gave up on schooling but this evil woman pushed me and now I'm confused as I don't even have a phone I fall literally sick everytime...
I curse my mom sis any day I wake up because I wake with pain and fear...

I have literally lost my way I don't know what to do anymore I'm totally confused,I'm depressed I seriously need a miracle and food,I swear on my mom's grave I have not had anything to eat in 2days...

She won't reply me,I text on whatsapp with people's number cuz I don't have a phone again, once I introduce myself she'll just say I'll get back to you everytime,and that all and not even one as she sent me a dime...I explained everything to her that I sold my phone because I believed her...
Now I don't even know what to do as I have no one to run to....if you are in osogbo and you can help me with something to eat Ill be so glad.

Your advices will also go a long way,as I'm in a delima wether to back to lagos and continue my factory work or to finish this second semester.

Lie will kill this guy
This guy na scam don’t fall into his trap