Episode 31

“Mummy!” Please give me this anointing!” I begged.

“Cris! Get on your feet now or I’ll leave you right now!” Susan warned me.

“Mummy! I’m ready to follow you out of this room. I’m ready to follow you with tears till I get what I need”.

“Cris! I am 47 old. I have served God for 31 years of my life. I got born again when I was sixteen years old. What you’re asking for is not possible.

You gave your life to Christ, but you have not been growing on grace because of your unstable and compromising lifestyle. Cris! You’re a spiritual toddler! God is so heavy. He’s not light. He said come unto me all ye that labour and are heavy laden and I will give you rest! Am I correct?” She asked.

“Yes!” I answered.

“But there’s another line we usually skip. Open to Matthew 11:28”.

I quickly opened to it and read.

“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest”.

“Now read the next verse!'” She instructed.

Verse 29. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

Verse 30. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light”.

“Can you see for yourself? You’re dropping the yoke of the devil, but you’re still going to carry something else! The only difference is that God’s yoke is easier to carry than that of the devil.

No man is empty in the realm of the spirit. If you refuse to serve God, you’re automatically signing an agreement to serve the devil. If you resist the Holy Spirit, you automatically yield to a demon. That’s how the realm of the spirit operates.

Cris, the more you grow up spiritually the more the anointing grows. The more you grow Spiritually, the more your ability to shoulder God’s burden grows. If I give you what I got out of 47 years of my life, it will kill immediately.

You don’t put a bag of cement on the head of a baby. That would be the end of the baby. That’s the same thing spiritually. Impartation is not something that we do carelessly.

Apostle Paul, a man of mysteries, told us that we should not lay hands suddenly on any man . That’s in first Timothy 5:22.

Cris, Samson lost his anointing when he fell on the laps of Delilah. But as his Spiritual hair grew, his anointing grew and came back again. Cris! You may have lost so much to the devil by sin and compromise. But if you can take your spiritual growth process with all seriousness, you will arise again.

What I’m carrying is not something I got in one day. Some of the levels of power I’m operating with were gotten by years of consecration and prayers. Consistent and unbreakable quiet time, coupled with fasting. It’s not something you get in one day.

Please, understand why you cannot be granted this request and pick up your new assignment!”

“What’s my new assignment?” I asked.

“Grow in grace!”

“I’ll do that, but I have one more request. Promise me you would do it!”

“What is it?” She asked.

“No, promise me first!” I said.

She chuckled.

“Try not to catch me with words. Believe me when I say this, I already knew you were going to ask me that question? I had known with the way you had been acting ever since we met”, she said smiling.

I was surprised by this woman. She could read my mind. She could see what I was thinking. God what kind of woman is this.

“Cris! I attended a class in the realm of the spirit where I read the human manuscript for one year. I know everything about every kind of human being here on earth. It’s a class that I took a whole year to complete. Twelve midnight everyday. I never missed a single day for one year.

You want to carry power and you’re skipping quiet time. Ordinary quiet time. We’ve not talked about marathon fasting yet. We have not talked about chain prayers where you pray for 24 hours, 48 hours or 72 hours.

Some people skip these things and rush out because of the small residue of anointing they carry. But they don’t last. They crash and become a disgrace to the body of Christ. That’s why we have so many slain ministers of God out there. You’re wondering if they were called by God. Of course they are. But someone rushed and did impartation on them.

Soon as anointing starts sharking them. They rush out and start making noise and Satan, the battle strategist would be laughing. One bullet from the pit of hell and the man goes down, just one bullet.

If you look at the true generals of the faith. They have received so many bullets on their bodies, but they are still moving. They are still standing. That’s why Apostle Paul, that man is so full of mysteries. He said in Galatians 6:17. From henceforth let no man trouble me: for I bear in my body the marks of the Lord Jesus.

So Cris! I don’t want you to rush out there and Satan shoots one bullet and finish you. Stay on the secret place and build your spiritual stamina. Don’t be in a rush to carry anointing. Be in a rush to attend your spiritual classes every single day. Don’t miss it Cris! Your quiet time is like a ticket to all you have been asking God for.

Spend time with him. Know him the more. Get intimate with him. Call him your sweetheart and lover. He’s building you in the secret, unknown to you. He’s equipping you with weapons of war. When he wants to test your level of power, he’ll send you to fight one small battle for him. You’ll come back smiling, but he’ll tell you the class continues.

So don’t miss your spiritual appointment. Keep staying with God in the presence. Know him more and more. He’s not done with you. Waiting on God is not delay. Never! You’ll carry anointing sis! But don’t rush!”

I sighed. This general in the faith was so full of wisdom. Her words flow with so much revelation.

“Mummy I wanted you to….”

“Be your mentor!” She interrupted.

My eyes widened with surprise.

“Susan! You need to know who a mentor is and who I am to you. In the realm of the spirit, I have a name. I’m not your mentor and I can never be!

Open to 1 Corinthians 4:15. You’ll see my name there! That’s who I am to you”.

I quickly rushed and picked up my Bible. I opened it and read aloud.

“For though ye have ten thousand instructors in Christ, yet have ye not many fathers: for in Christ Jesus I have begotten you through the gospel”.

“That’s my name. I am your instructor, not your mentor. Your mentor is the one who birthed you spiritually. As long as you have told this woman to mentor you and she accepted, it cannot be changed. You don’t have two mentors. Only one spiritual parent is allowed. All the others are nothing but spiritual instructors.

So follow Mrs Juliet Thompson. She’s your mother in the realm of the spirit. You cannot change it nomatter how you try.

It’s like a child. When the child is born, she stays with the mother, sucks the fluid that flows out of her mother’s spirit and body. Till the child grows up. Then a time comes when the mother needs the assistance of others to help the child grow.

So she takes the child to the school. In the school there are so many teachers. They are only instructors. That’s where you met me. Now this is what you’re doing. You went to school, met a teacher you’re so fund of and asked her to be your mother. You love this teacher so much and really want her to be your mother. But even if she agrees or not, does that make her your mother?”

“No! I answered.

“Susan is seriously a well of mysteries. 31 years of consistent bible study. Me wey start yesterday, after struggling to drop boyfriend, wan carry the double portion of wetin she carry. I get mind sha!” I said within me.

“So it can’t be changed. She’s transferred her dimension of God into you by spiritual birth. The more you grow up, the more you’ll look like her Spiritually. Cris! The way your mentor breaks mysteries out of the bible, you’ll carry the same abilities. That’s Spiritual parenting.

If your father is a footballer, I’m talking about physically now. You’re most likely to be good in football. Ask Cristiano Ronaldo. Am I correct?”

“Yes!” I answered, smiling.

“That’s exactly what is going on here. The mother needs these instructors to help her child grow properly. So she releases the child into their care. Encourage the child to follow the instructions she is given by her teachers.

That’s why as a mentor, you must fight against jealousy. Yes! You must share in your child’s excitement as she enjoys the ministration of other men of God. It doesn’t mean they are being snatched away from you. It only means your spiritual toddler is being taught by her school teachers and she’s doing well.

Pastors are always doing this. They keep shouting at their members. They use words like,’what are you looking for in that church that we don’t have here?’ There are times your spiritual children would have to attend other denominations to help them solve a certain challenge. That’s not a cause for jealousy.

You don’t have it all. As a member of winners, there are times you need to listen to pastor Kumuyi’s teaching, to help you grow in holiness. As a member of Deeper life, there are times you listen to Pastor Chris’ teaching. As a member of Christ Embassy, there are times you need to listen to pastor Adeboye’s teaching.

Don’t say only my mentor, only my church. God brought you those messages to help you grow. All the body cannot be the hand. Deeper life has the word, Redeemed are good in worship, Watchman are good in holiness. Mountain of fire are known for warfare prayers.
Each have their own specialty to help you grow as a balanced Christian.

Don’t place restrictions on yourself. You need balanced diet to grow Spiritually. God provided all these platforms and ministries to help you achieve this.

So, the fact that you’re being mentored by Mrs Juliet doesn’t mean you must not listen to what other preachers out there have to say. And the fact that you were blessed by the ministration of someone that isn’t your mentor doesn’t change that person into your mentor. And please be careful not to do so no matter how badly you want it. Learn from that person and go your way. Your spiritual parent remains your spiritual parent. Parents are the only personalities you cannot change here on earth. Even when they’re are dead, you still refer to them as parents”.

To be continued…..

There’s no empty man spiritually. If you resist the Holy Spirit, you’re yielding to the Devil. If you resist the Devil, you’re automatically yielding yourself to God. There’s no middle man in the realm of the spirit.

So what side are you?

Brethren! Please cry to God to lead you to the person that would birth you spiritually.

I know very well that my life would never have been what it is today, if not for my mentor.

I remembered how I would sleep at his house. Wash plates for him, wash his clothes, sweep his house. I didn’t know I was tapping from the measure of grace and anointing he carries.

We would sit down one on one and he would teach me alot of mysteries from the bible.

It’s true when they say that the child is never different from the father. Something about your father must be transferred to you.

Episode 32

Susan walked out of the room and shut the door. I remained on my knees staring at the door.

“What a treasure she is to you! What an embodiment of grace! What a great vessel! A warrior in the realm of the spirit! A discerner of mysteries! Wow! I’m so amazed by all she had said!”

“CRIS! DON’T BE CARRIED AWAY BY HER PERSONALITY! THERE’S AN INSTRUCTION SHE GAVE YOU. CAN YOU REMEMBER WHAT WAS THAT INSTRUCTION?”

“I…… Wait a minute! What was the instruction?” I asked.

I quickly stood up and made to run out of the room to ask Mummy Susan.

“WAIT!” Came the gentle command.

I paused in my tracks.

“SIT!”

I returned to the bed and sat down.

“YOU DIDN’T ASK ME TO REMIND YOU!” Came the gentle whisper.

“I’m sorry!” I apologized.

“HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN THAT SCRIPTURE THAT SAYS THAT THE HOLY SPIRIT WILL BRING ALL THINGS TO YOU YOUR REMEMBRANCE?”

“Oh! I’m sorry Sweet Daddy!” I replied.

“PLEASE CALL ME THAT NAME AGAIN!”

I started giggling.

“Won’t someone come in and see me laughing? What would they say! Cris don mad again!” I said inwardly.

“YES! NA BETA MADNESS!”

“Yes ooooo!”

“CALL ME THAT NAME AGAIN!”

“Sweet Daddy!” I said, smiling shyly.

“CRIS! I’M BLUSHING!”

I burst into laughter and threw myself on the bed. Wow! I never knew quiet time would be this exciting. It’s almost like we shouldn’t end this conversation.

“So what was the assignment? I asked smiling.

“GROW IN GRACE!”

“Wow!” I exclaimed and snapped my fingers.

“Thank you so much!”

“ADD THE LAST WORDS”.

“The last words? I don’t understand!”

“AFTER THANK YOU, YOU’RE SUPPOSED TO ADD MY PET NAME!”

I burst into another round of laughter.

“Daddy, stop acting like a baby!” I said laughing.

“COMPLETE YOUR SENTENCE! I’M WAITING!”

“Thank you, sweet Daddy!”

“YOU’RE WELCOME! MY BABY GIRL!”

I was just smiling uncontrollably.

“Dad!”

“YES DEAR!”

“I want to ask you a question?”

“GO AHEAD!”

“You know the kind of person I’ve been all these while. I’ve willingly disobeyed you. I proved to be stubborn. I was so adamant to your instructions. I chosed to go my way. I was so terrible!

Lord! I slept with Chris! I dishonored you with my body, which is your temple. I allowed him sleep with me, even when I knew as your daughter, it was wrong. I insulted Maggie and used my wealth to give are a big slap on the face.

“CRIS! WHERE ARE YOU HEADING WITH ALL THESE?”

“What I want to ask is, why would you want to make friends with me? Do you think you can trust an unfaithful servant like me? Don’t you think it’s easy for me to run away from you? Considering how often I’ve done that?”

“WHY ARE YOU AFRAID?”

“I don’t want this relationship to end. But I have a feeling, I’ll always fall back to my vomit. I’m so inconsistent in my walk with you and that’s what I’ll always be. Always starting afresh with God everyday. I don’t want to lose you ever again. But! I’m used to losing you and I just can’t help it!”

“BABY GIRL! HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN THAT SONG BY JOSH BATES?”

Immediately, the song came afresh to my heart.

“Time after time
You’ve been left behind
Like the sun when it’s started to fade.
Time after time,
You’ve been forgotten.
Like a picture that’s faded with age
Time after time,
You ran after me,
When I was still running away.

You never give up on me,
No you never give up on me.
Though I’m weak you are strong,
You told me I still belong.
No you never,
Never give up on me”.

“CRIS! I DON’T KNOW WHAT YOUR DEFINITION OF LOVE IS! BUT LOVE IS A CHOICE AND WHEN ITS A CHOICE IT MEANS YOU CHOSE WHO TO LOVE. THE ANGELS WERE THERE. THE 24 ELDERS, SO HOLY AND SINLESS, WERE THERE. BUT I CHOSED TO LOVE HUMANS. AND WHEN I MAKE A CHOICE, I DON’T BACK OUT.

I NEVER BACK OUT. I HAVE LOVED YOU WITH AN EVERLASTING LOVE. CRIS! I DON’T CARE TO KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE DONE IN THE PAST. I DON’T CARE TO KNOW WHAT SINS YOU HAVE COMMITTED WITH YOUR EX BOYFRIEND.

I HAVE CHOSEN TO LOVE YOU JUST AS YOU ARE. YOU ARE NOT PERFECT. YOU ARE FULL OF MISTAKES. YOU ARE STILL STRUGGLING IN YOUR WALK WITH GOD.

THIS IS THE IMPERFECT GIRL I HAVE CHOSEN TO LOVE. I CANNOT CHANGE MY MIND ABOUT IT. I DON’T NEED YOUR GOOD RECORDS. I DON’T NEED YOUR VIRGINITY TO DETERMINE MY LOVE FOR YOU. I DON’T EVEN NEED YOUR PERFECTION. I HAVE CHOSEN TO LOVE YOU AND NOTHING IS GOING TO CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU!”

I bowed my head as I just couldn’t hold back those tears anymore. I went down on my knees and leaned on my hands.

Why would God still go after me? Why would he use all these vessels for me? Mrs Thompson, Mrs Oluwagbade, My sister Sharona, pastor Kunle, my father-in-law and even my unregenerate uncle to win me back.

“Lord! Please! Tell me what you want from me! I’ll give it to you!” I said admist tears.

“GIVE ME YOUR HEART! THE HEART IS THE CENTER OF EVERYTHING. IF I CAN HAVE YOUR HEART, I HAVE EVERYTHING IN YOUR LIFE. THAT’S THE KEY TO TOTAL SURRENDER! CRIS, I NEED YOU HEART”.

Immediately, a scripture I once read popped in my head.

“1John 4:10. Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins”,

I stood up and raised my hands in the air.

“Sweet Daddy! Here’s the girl who broke your heart into several pieces. Here’s the girl who sinned and sinned and doesn’t deserve a second chance. Here’s the girl who deliberately disobeyed you. Here’s the girl who ran away from you countless times.

If you still want me, then take me! I don’t know what you saw in me that made you think something good can come out of me. But if you can love me this much, then I’m ready to love you in return”.

I felt goose bumps on my skin. It was as if someone entered the room and was invisibly present with me. I opened my eyes and looked around.

“STOP LOOKING AROUND! YOU KNOW ITS ME! Came the gentle whisper.

I smiled as I could physically sense God’s presence in the room. I was so overwhelmed with joy that my tears dropped uncontrollably.

“Daddy! I love you! I’m not going to say it with words anymore. Lord! Let everything that I do, prove my love for you. Let my actions speak to the world that Cris is madly in love with her new boyfriend”.

“I HAVE ACCEPTED YOUR GIFT! BELIEVE ME! ITS THE GREATEST GIFT OF ALL. CRIS! I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO TEACH YOU, BUT WE’LL TALK LATER”.

“Daddy! You said you wanted me to read two scriptures in the book of songs of Solomon chapter 2. I’m yet to read the second”.

“I KNOW, WE WOULD CONTINUE THIS CLASS LATER. WE’LL MEET DURING YOUR QUIET TIME TOMORROW MORNING AND CONTINUE THIS CLASS. WE TOOK LONGER THAN SCHEDULED”.

I looked at the clock on the wall. It was 7am. Wow! I had spent 4 hours with God. This was the first time I was staying this long with God.

“BESIDES, MUMMY SUSAN IS GOING BACK THIS MORNING. SHE WOULD SOON BE HERE TO GET HER BELONGINGS”.

“Daddy please let her stay!” I said pleading.

“BABY GIRL! SHE HAS TO RETURN TO HER DUTY POST!”

“Please na! You know I still need her!”

“NO! YOU NEED ME! DON’T MAKE AN IDOL OUT OF HER. I BROUGHT HER TO YOU, NOW IT’S TIME SHE RETURNS”.

“You’re not a sweet Daddy again oooo! Leave me alone!” I sulked playfully.

I could hear daddy laughing within me. Unconsciously, I found myself smiling. Was this what it was like to have God as your bestie? I was going to remain in this relationship for the rest of my life. Nothing would ever seperate me from this God.

I was still standing when the door opened. My mentor and Mummy Susan entered.

“Good morning ma!” I knelt down to greet the two women.

“Good morning!” My mentor replied, while Susan responded with a smiled.

“Mrs Oluwagbade is going back this morning ooo! So better start missing her ooo!” My mentor announced.

“Aah! Mummy please don’t go yet now! You know I still want you around me!” I said.

The two women started laughing.

“I have to go back! I’ve been around for the past one week at a youth camp my son and I attended. I was also invited to minister at the program. So when the program ended, I decided to use the opportunity to see your mother”, Susan replied.

“Please stay for me, just one more day!” I pleaded.

“You’ll have to tell my Bobo to allow me!” She said and chuckled.

“You mean God?” I asked.

“No! I’m talking about my handsome Bobo. Sweet George!” She replied.

I was more confused.

“Who is her handsome Bobo?” I asked within me.

“Cris! Her husband!” My mentor came to the rescue.

“Oh! Then give put him on call, let me talk to him”, I said and the two women laughed.

“Cris, I was supposed to go back yesterday. I had to beg and beg and even promise to buy him alot of things, before he agreed with me. So I don’t know where to start from this morning!”

Soon, her phone which was in her hand, started ringing.

“It’s my Bobo!” She announced, smiling sheepishly.

“Hello sweet!” She said as soon as she answered the call.

I watched her as she was so full of smiles. A pang of jealousy struck my heart.

“DON’T WORRY MY BABY GIRL! I’LL GIVE YOU THE BEST HUSBAND IN THE WORLD. I’LL DO ANYTHING FOR YOU! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!”

I Smiled and looked towards the roof as though he was there.

“Thanks Dad!”

“CALL MY NAME IN FULL!”

“Oh sorry! Thanks sweet Daddy!”

“YOU’RE WELCOME MY PRETTY EBONY!”

I smiled and clasped my hands together.

“Sweet Daddy!”

“YES BABY GIRL!”

“I have something to tell! Something very important!” I said within me.

“GO ON! I’M LISTENING!”

“I love you!” I replied and burst into laughter.

The two women paused and turned to look at me.

I quickly stopped laughing as soon as I realized I had made a fool of myself.

“And who told you to stop laughing? Continue jare!” Susan said, holding the phone away from her ears.

“She don enter honeymoon! Holy Ghost honeymoon. It’s to be laughing at intervals that would be your experience henceforth!” My mentor said.

“Really?” I asked grinning.

“Please don’t stop! Continue with the love conversation”, Susan said and walked out of the room.

“Happy married life Christiana!” My mentor said and gave me a hug.

“Married? I don’t understand”, I replied.

“You don get new husband na! He’s going to tease you, laugh with you, teach you the word of God, give you comfort, keep you company and be with you in everything you do”.

“Wow!” I grinned shyly.

She lowered her voice into a whisper.

“Even when you enter the bathroom. He’ll still be right there with you!”

I burst into laughter and she joined me.

“Cris! I’m so happy for you. This is what the Holy Spirit came to do a long time ago. This was what Adam and Eve lost in the garden of Eden. That’s what Jesus restored on the cross. Please enjoy yourself!” She said and left the room in a jiffy.

I looked around and said within me.

“Daddy, please take it easy with me ooo. I don’t want everyone to start thinking I’m crazy!”

A scripture popped up in my head.

“Song of Solomon 1:2. Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth: for thy love is better than wine”.

Immediately, I started laughing again.

To be continued……

Susan is going back today! 😭😭😭😭

Please, someone should go and tell George to allow her stay. George is taking our Susan away from us.
That Bobo that cannot propose. 😁😁😁😁

Anyway Sha! She’s his wife. She has to submit to him.🤧🤧

Is anyone on spiritual honeymoon like Cris? 🖐️🖐️🖐️

What I’m writing down is not just a story. It’s my personal experience I’m sharing.

That practical in Episode 28 is not meant to be read for entertainment.

Do it! Engage that inner voice in a conversation and ascend into the realm of intimacy.

Jesus sweet die! ♥️♥️♥️

Episode 33

I arrived at the gate of my house and clicked on the car horn. My gateman opened and I quickly drove in. As soon as I was into the garage, I came out and locked the door. I was in a hurry to enter my room and get some rest.

There were six cars in my garage, but I noticed a seventh one. I shrugged as I knew I would get the answers soon enough.

There were two garage in my estate. One for my visitors, while the other one was my personal garage. That’s where my six cars were parked.

Don’t shout ooo! Six cars sounds alarming. Like what am I doing with six cars. In my lifetime, I’ve only bought one car. The rest were purchased by my parents. I hope you’re okay with that explanation?

I walked to the door of my house and opened it.

“Young CEO!” My friends squealed and started making noise.

It’s been a while since I saw them. I had stopped attending parties with them a long time ago. What were they doing in my house?

I saw a cake at the center of the sitting room. The cake was made in the he shape of a car. A blue car, just like the blue highlander I saw in my garage.

Recognition dawned on me. Maggie had purchased the car I asked her to and was here to celebrate with me.

My friends call me Young CEO. That’s what my Facebook account is named after. I became the CEO of my father’s company at the age of 23. When I noticed how my uncle was manipulating alot of things to favour himself, I had to rise up.

I took over the affairs and everything. I knew my rights very well and won the case. As long as I was the true owner, I had right to possess what was mine. He had no choice than to handover.

That made me misbehave on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter and all the social media platforms I belonged. I changed the name of my account from Pretty Cris to Young CEO. I began to post motivational quotes and short videos on Instagram on how to be successful in life.

I had alot of followers, who read my contents. I usually called myself the Young CEO. Always telling the world of how I stood up against my domineering uncle at such a tender age and saved my family. My sister Sharon, was 14 years old by that time. I always saw her as a kid, someone who had no reasonable advice to offer. I moved with men with mattered. Men that were marveled by my achievements.

They gave me all the advice me all the advice, business tips, success quotes and advertisement strategy. That was how I brought my father’s company to where it is today. My uncle was almost wrecking it. Thank God I stood up for the family. He would have made a fortune for himself and left us with nothing.

I studied economics in school and graduated at the age of 21. I did my masters and PhD while running my father’s company. Yeah! I’m a hard-working girl.

This morning, I had logged in on Facebook and posted these words. “Young CEO is in love with Jesus”. I was yet to see how my friends would react.

I looked around my sitting room. There were over 10 of them present. Glasses were set with acholic drinks and wine. The sight of beer on my table disgusted me. I managed to calm myself and force a smile.

“CEO! You have made this a reality. Today we are here to celebrate my new car!” Maggie said and start to tear open the wine wrapping.

“Maggie please wait!” I shouted.

“Lord! What do I do? I can’t have them drinking alcohol in my house?” I asked within me.

“TAKE THEM TO THE GARAGE!” Came the instruction.

“Let’s go take a look at the car!” I said grinning.

‘Yay!” They yelled and made alot of noise as we all moved to the garage.

The old me enjoyed being around them and all the noise. But now, all I felt was nothing but irritation. I didn’t like the kind of noise they made and their personalities. I guess I was more attracted to christians than I was to the old gang.

“Wow!” This ride looks so beautiful!” I exclaimed.

“Yeah! We always go for the best!” Jessy, one of the ladies present said.

“That’s wonderful!” I replied.

We took photographs together. I was only enduring everything. Within me, I was asking God to help me with the grace to be bold when the time came to send them out of my house with their achohol.

“Ladies! Let’s go inside and party!” Nnena, one of the girls said and their girly squeals filled the air.

They ran into the house enthusiastically.

“Daddy! Please help me to be bold!” I prayed within me.

“DON’T BE AFRAID! I HAVE NOT GIVEN YOU A SPIRIT OF FEAR!”

I took in a deep and walked calmly. I opened the door and couldn’t resist the anger that took hold of me.

They had turned on a disco music and started dancing to the rhythm. I hated the sound of it so much that I felt like smashing the electronic device into pieces.

“Stop that music! I shouted.

The looked at me still moving their bodies to the sound of the music.

“I said stop the music!” I screamed.

Immediately, Nnena turned down the volume.

“Please! I’ma Christian! You can’t play disco in my house. Please take all these acholic drinks out of my house!” I said and there was a brief moment of silence.

Suddenly, as if they planned it, they burst into laughter. Some threw themselves on the couch and laughed dramatically.

“What a joke!” One of them said.

“I can’t believe it!”

“Cris would send us out of her house! Wonders shall never end”.

“By the way, I heard she broke up with her boyfriend because he was a child of the Devil!” Nnenna said.

I was shocked by that. How did she get that information. I turned and gave her a stern look. Her eyes were equally burning with anger, just as mine.

“That’s how you would also send us out of your house because we are children of the devil!” She added.

“No!” I’m not sending you out of my house. All I want is you host this party somewhere else. I can’t have those erotic songs and acholic drinks here in my house. So try and understand my point!”

“Cris! You don dey mad Sha!” Jessy said as she stood up and took her bag.

“I beg your pardon!” I replied, anger welled in me.

“BABY GIRL! DON’T LET ANGER CONTROL YOU!”

Those words were enough to melt everything that sprang up in me. I heaved a sigh of relief and smiled.

“Thank you Jesus!” I whispered.

“Cris! I can’t believe you! This Jesus stuff and church is turning you into a stupid girl. Very soon, you’ll go and pick a madman somewhere and marry him because he’s a Christian!” Kofo, one of the girls said.

“That’s how she told me to greet her gateman the other day. Because I refused to greet him, she got mad at me”, Maggie said.

“Chai! Cris! You’re unbelievable!”

“Gateman for that matter!”

“I wonder ooo!”

“That’s why I cannot be a Christian! God forbid! Christianity would turn you to mumu!” Maggie said.

“Cris! Greeting gateman!”

“She said he’s a Christian brother”.

“Cris! Broke up with her boyfriend”.

“She said because he’s not a Christian fool like her”.

“Thank God the guy did not born again because of love for her. Thank God the guy maintained his stand as a wise man. This Christianity dey turn person to mumu!”

“Cris used to be a smart girl na! Now, she’s more worse than when she was a mad girl eating from the dustbin on the streets”.

These words pierced me like arrows. But my boyfriend was right beside me, comforting me.

Matthew 5:10. Blessedly are they which are persecuted for righteousness’ sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Verse 11 Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.

Verse 12. Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.

“Daddy! Why can’t I allow them do what they want to do. I can go upstairs and not be a part of it”, I asked inwardly.

Then a scripture I once read came to my heart.

Romans 1:29. They are filled with all kinds of wickedness, evil, greed, and vice; they are full of jealousy, murder, fighting, deceit, and malice.

Verse 30. They gossip and speak evil of one another; they are hateful to God, insolent, proud, and boastful; they think of more ways to do evil; they disobey their parents;

Verse 31. They have no conscience; they do not keep their promises, and they show no kindness or pity for others.

Verse 32. They know that God’s law says that people who live in this way deserve death. Yet, not only do they continue to do these very things, but they even approve of others who do them.

The last verse struck me. Those who approve them. If I allowed them to smoke and drink on my house, I was approving their evil practices. They could do what they want, but bringing it into my house was not what God wanted.

Hmmm! Standing for Jesus admist hurting the people you care about was really difficult.

“Sweet Daddy! I’m doing this for you”, I said within and took a step forward.

“Can you all move these drinks out of my house?” I said with a tone of finality.

“Guys! Have any of you seen her post this morning!” Nnenna announced.

They all burst into laughter.

“Yes I did!”

“Why not?”

“That’s how alot of girls behave. When they don’t have any man to marry them again, they get married to Jesus!”

“Can you all please get out of my house?” I shouted.

“Babe, abeg make we dey go ooo before Young CEO starts bossing us around!” Kofo said.

One after the other, they packed their stuffs and walked out. Soon the cake and everything was out.

I stood at the door and took all the hiss and muttered curses without replying any.

As soon as they were all out of the door. I closed it and bolted it.

“Thank you Jesus!” I whispered and smiled.

To be continued…….

Have you been in this kind of situation Cris found herself?

A situation where standing for Jesus would hurt your friends and pleasing your friends would hurt God.

Matthew 10:37. He that loveth father or mother more than me is not worthy of me: and he that loveth son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me.

There’s always a point where we would have to chose between God and our loved ones.

When that time comes, may you be faithful to your true love in Jesus name. Amen.

Episode 34

The air-conditioning soothed my skin so much that I smiled occasionally. I covered myself with the duvet and rolled severally.

I never knew sleep can be this sweet. Wow! I didn’t want to wake up at all. I was awake on the bed, but I was just wondering when I would fall asleep. I really enjoyed my sleep tonight. It was awesome, I just don’t want to get up. My eyes were heavy but the only thing, I didn’t know how I woke up. Anyway, I was only waiting for the next round of sleep to begin.

“In the morning.
Early in the morning.
In the morning,
I will rise and praise the Lord!”

My quiet time alarm rang.

Ha! Just when I was enjoying my sleep. Why na? I don’t think I can do quiet time today ooo. Today is holiday! I’m too tired to do anything.

Immediately, my phone started ringing again, but it wasn’t my quiet time alarm. I had a phone call.

“GET UP AND PICK YOUR CALL!” Came the gentle whisper.

“Daddy! I’m so tired! Let me sleep for like fifteen minutes more, just to regain my strength”.

“WHEN DID FIFTEEN MINUTES SLEEP HELP TO REGAIN STRENGTH?”

“Daddy please na!

“HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN WHAT MUMMY SUSAN TAUGHT YOU ABOUT TIREDNESS? THIS IS THE WORK OF THE DEVIL. WHY ARE YOU JOINING HANDS WITH THE DEVIL TO DESTROY YOUR SPIRITUAL GROWTH?”

“Daddy! I’m sorry! I don’t know what is wrong with me. I know the truth, at least you taught me. But, I don’t know why I don’t do what I am taught.

“JOHN 13:17. IF YE KNOW THESE THINGS, HAPPY ARE YE IF YE DO THEM”.

I sat up on the bed.

“CRIS! SATAN IS NOT AFRAID OF ALL THE THINGS YOU HAVE BEEN TAUGHT. HE’S STILL POWERFUL AS LONG AS HE CAN STOP YOU FROM PRACTICING WHAT YOU WERE TAUGHT.

YOU WERE SO HAPPY YOU HAD BEEN TAUGHT SO MANY THINGS. YOU SMILED AND GASPED AS MYSTERIES WERE REVEALED TO YOU. BUT THE DEVIL WAS BUSY STRATEGISING HOW TO KEEP YOU FROM DOING THOSE THINGS YOU WERE TAUGHT.

THAT’S WHY A LOT OF CHRISTIANS HEAR THE TRUTH, KNOW THE TRUTH, BUT DON’T OBEY THE TRUTH. THEY STILL LOVE DEFEATED LIVES AND CONTINUE IN THEIR LIFE OF ‘ I WISH FOR A RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD! I WISH TO KNOW GOD MORE!’

EVERYTHING HAS BEEN REVEALED TO THEM, BUT WHEN ITS TIME TO OBEY, THEY SEE THEMSELVES UNWILLING TO RESIST THE DEVIL AND DISCIPLINE THEIR FLESH. THEY PREFER THEIR COMFORT TO THE PAIN OF DISCIPLINE. SO ALL THEY CAN DO IS, I WISH. THEY NEVER GET UP AND DO THE NEEDFUL.

THEY HEAR THE WORD OF GOD AND DANCE AS THEY HEAR IT. BUT THEY NEVER DO WHAT THEY WERE TAUGHT.

WHILE YOU WERE BUSY RECEIVING MESSAGES ON HOW TO GROW IN GRACE. SATAN WAS BUSY ORGANIZING DEMONS AND GIVING THEM INSTRUCTIONS ON HOW TO KEEP YOU A BABY IN GRACE. SO THEY MADE THE AIR CONDITIONING SO SWEET TONIGHT. THEY MADE THE MATTRESS SO SOFT AND COZY. THEY MADE YOUR SLEEP SO ENCHANTING AND MAGICAL. THEY MADE IT LOOK EXTRA ORDINARY.

SO THAT WHEN IT WAS TIME TO WAKE UP AND SPEND TIME WITH GOD, YOU WOULD PREFER TO SLEEP. YOU WOULD FEEL AS IF YOU HAVE NEVER SLEPT IN YOUR ENTIRE LIFE. SLEEP WOULD BECOME SO BEAUTIFUL AND ENTICING. IT’S ALL AN ORCHESTRATION FROM THE PIT OF HELL TO STOP YOU FROM BUILDING YOUR SPIRITUAL LIFE.

THEY CAME THROUGH TIREDNESS, BUT SUSAN EXPOSED IT TO YOU. NOW THEY HAVE COME UP WITH A NEW STRATEGY TO MAKE YOU SLEEP WHEN YOU OUGHT TO PRAY. SATAN DOESN’T ACCEPT DEFEAT. HE STILL BELIEVES HE CAN WIN EVEN WHEN ITS OBVIOUS HE HAS LOST.

BUT YOU ARE COOPERATING WITH HIM. YOU’RE LETTING HIM WIN THE BATTLE. YOU’RE GIVING HIM THE UPPER HAND”.

I threw myself from the bed and dropped on my knees.

“Daddy I’m sorry!” I said and released my tears.

“I’m sorry for disappointing you. I sorry for joining hands with the Devil to destroy my spiritual growth. You have given me so much Lord, and you’re expecting so much from me. Please Lord, help me to stop being nonchalant.

Please help me to give my spiritual life and growth serious attention”, I prayed.

“CRIS! WHY IS IT THAT WE CHRISTIANS TAKE EVERYTHING SERIOUS EXCEPT OUR SPIRITUAL LIFE? WE HAVE TIME TO GO TO WORK, TIME FOR COOKING MEALS, TIME FOR SOCIAL MEDIA AND TIME TO SLEEP. WHY IS IT THAT ITS ONLY WHEN IT IS TIME FOR PRAYERS THAT THEY SUDDENLY FEEL THEY WANT TO SLEEP?

WHY IS IT THAT ONCE IT’S TIME FOR BIBLE STUDY, WE HAVE A PERFECT EXCUSE TO GIVE? WHY IS IT THAT YOU CAN BE ON FACEBOOK FOR 3 HOURS, BUT THE MOMENT YOU OPEN YOUR BIBLE FOR FIVE MINUTES, YOU START DOZING? WHY?

WHY IS IT THAT ONLY WHEN IT’S TIME FOR SPIRITUALITY THAT WE DON’T HAVE TIME ANYMORE? WHY?”

“I’m so sorry daddy! I would never do this again. I’ll never prefer my bed to the time I’m supposed to spend with you”,

“CRIS! DO YOU THINK THIS IS ORDINARY? DON’T THINK SATAN IS STUPID. DON’T THINK HE’LL CROSS HIS LEGS AND WATCH YOU RISE INTO A KINGDOM TERRORIST.

CHAT ON FACEBOOK HE’S NOT BOTHERED. WATCH LORD OF THE RING TILL TOMORROW MORNING, HE’S TOO BUSY TO HAVE YOUR TIME. BUT THE MOMENT YOU KNEEL DOWN TO PRAY, HA! YOU MAKE HIM SO SCARED.

CRIS! SATAN IS SCARED WHEN HE SEES BELIEVERS PRAYING CONSISTENTLY. HE KNOWS THAT A PRAYING CHRISTIAN IS THE MOST POWERFUL CHRISTIAN. A CHRISTIAN THAT KEEPS HIS OR HER QUIET TIME CONSISTENTLY IS GRADUALLY TURNING INTO A TERROR TO THE KINGDOM OF DARKNESS.

BUT OUR BIGGEST PROBLEM AS CHRISTIANS IS OUR IGNORANCE. AND THIS IS THE BIGGEST ADVANTAGE OF THE DEVIL. YOU DON’T KNOW HE’S SCARED. YOU THINK IT’S BEAUTY SLEEP? SATAN IS TOO SMART TO REVEAL TO YOU THAT HE’S SCARED. HIS STRENGTH IS IN YOUR IGNORANCE. THAT’S WHY HE DOESN’T WANT YOU READING YOUR BIBLE. HE BRINGS SLEEP TO YOUR EYES AND ENTICES YOU TO CLOSE YOUR BIBLE AND SLEEP.

YOU OUT OF IGNORANCE, CONCLUDE YOU’RE TIRED AND FALL FOR HIS DECEPTION. THAT’S WHY THE BIBLE SAYS. HE THAT LOVES HIS LIFE WOULD LOSE IT. IF YOU LOVE YOUR FLESH TOO MUCH. YOU WANT TO PAMPER IT. YOU WANT IT TO BE COMFORTABLE. YOU DON’T WANT TO STARVE IT WITH FASTING. YOU DON’T WANT TO DENY IT SLEEP IN OTHER TO GROW SPIRITUALLY. THEN YOUR SPIRITUAL LIFE WILL BE LOST.

BUT IF YOU LOSE THE LIFE AND COMFORT OF THE FLESH FOR THE SAKE OF GROWING IN GRACE, YOU’LL SAVE YOUR SPIRITUAL LIFE.

SO STOP PARTNERING WITH THE DEVIL TO DESTROY YOUR SPIRITUAL LIFE. START PARTNERING WITH GOD AND BUILD YOUR INTIMACY WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT. LET NOTHING BREAK YOUR CONSISTENCY WITH GOD!”

I wept aloud and laid prostrate on the floor.

My phone began to ring again

“PICK THE CALL!” Came the instruction.

I crawled towards the bed and took the phone. It was my mentor calling.

“Hello ma!” I said with a choked up voice.

“Cris! I only called to be sure you were not sleeping when you ought to be with God. My mentor once shared a story with me that I felt strongly in my spirit to share with you”, she said.

“Yes ma!” I replied.

“She said many years ago, her mother announced to the house that 5am everyday was family devotion and prayer time. They agreed and every time it was 5am, they always came together and prayed.

This continued for two years. They never missed a single day. Once it was 5am, someone in the house would wake up and wake the entire family.

After two years, they started coming up with excuses. One thing led to the the other and that was how the 5am prayers died. Soon, 5am family prayers became history. Even when someone in the family was awake by that time, there was no more 5am prayers.

But God showed her family mercy. One day, she told me her mother woke up some minutes after five. She walked into the sitting room, where the 5am prayers usually held and almost died of fright”.

I sat up on the floor. I was curious to hear the whole story. What happened to my mentor’s mentor?

“Mummy! What did she see?” I asked.

“Seven tall Angels. Their heads were touching the roof of the house. They were so bright and armed with sword in their hands. Mummy thought she was dreaming, so she closed her eyes several times and opened it but she knew it wasn’t when one of the angels beckoned on her to come.

Trembling, she approached.

“Where are the people who said they would be praying by 5am everyday?” That was the question the Angel asked.

“Sir?” She asked.

“I said, where are the people who said they would be praying by 5am everyday? We have been assigned to take their prayers to God. For the past 3 years, were have been coming here whenever the prayers started.

But for a year now, we have been coming and met no one here. So I’m asking you, where are they!”

She quickly ran into the house like a mad woman. She dragged her husband and my mentor out of bed to the sitting room. But when they got there, the angels were all gone.

That day was family revival meeting. They almost prayed till 6pm in the evening. Nobody went to school or to work or even remembered food. They kept begging God for mercy, spoke in tongues for hours. It was an experience that taught my mentor a big lesson. They prayed until the Holy Ghost fell upon my mentor and she began to prophesy, ‘Thus saith the Lord! I have heard your prayers!’

That was when they were able to calm down and rest. They prayed and cried that day.

Cris! I believe you understand what this story means. You can’t have an appointment with the president of Nigeria by 3am and when it’s time, you’re still in bed. You should be present before the time. But God will be the one to send his angels to wake you up. He’ll touch your bladder and force you to use the restroom just to drag you out of that bed. But what do we end up doing?

We climb the bed again and go back to sleep. We look down on the fact that the president of presidents out of his busy schedule had your time, but you took him for granted. How many years would it take you to have an appointment with Buhari, President of Nigeria?

But here’s someone greater than Buhari. Yet we take this opportunity he gave to us, for granted.

Cris! It’s up to you! You have known the truth. Are you going to throw it away? Or wake up and pursue your destiny.

David said in Psalms 132:3 Surely I will not come into the tabernacle of my house, nor go up into my bed;

Verse 4. I will not give sleep to mine eyes, or slumber to mine eyelids,

Verse 5. Until I find out a place for the LORD, an habitation for the mighty God of Jacob.

While David told himself, no sleeping, we believers are rolling under duvets. No wonder darkness is taking over the land.

Cris! Herbalists are in the thick forest by twelve midnight, performing rituals. They are busy acquiring powers to do more evil. What are we believers doing?”

They don’t miss their appointment with the Devil, because Satan will punish them severely if they do. But we have a loving God who would send his angels to wake us for our appointment with him. And all we do is to insult his grace upon our lives”.

I can’t remember how that phone conversation ended, because I got carried away, blasting in tongues.

To be continued…….

Brethren, Satan is not ready to believe that he has lost the battle.

Despite the truth you have been receiving in this story, he’s ready to ensure you don’t apply it to your life.

All you keep saying is, “I wish! I wish! I wish!”

Rise up and discipline yourself! If you love the comfort of your flesh, you would lose your spiritual life. But if you lose the comfort of your flesh, you’ll save your spiritual life.

So chose for yourself. Please take your spiritual life serious. Enough of taking the grace of God for granted.

Episode 35

I was still praying in the spirit when the voice came loudly.

“PICK UP YOUR BIBLE”.

I was sweating already. My room was air conditioned, but I had sweat pouring all over me. I stood up and staggered a little.

“EASY GIRL!”

“Thanks Dad!” I smiled.

“YOU’RE WELCOME, MY PRETTY EBONY!”

I grinned and took my Bible from my bed and sat down.

“WHERE’S YOUR QUIET TIME JOTTER?”

“Jotter?”

“YES! SOMETHING THAT YOU WOULD USE TO WRITE DOWN WHAT I WANT TO TEACH YOU”, Came the response.

“I don’t understand sir!”

“I HAVE TWO TOPICS FOR YOU THIS MORNING. FIRST, I WANT TO ANSWER A QUESTION YOU ASKED ME THEN WE’LL CONTINUE WITH THE BOOK OF THE SONGS OF SOLOMON. GET A BOOK TO WRITE DOWN WHAT I’M ABOUT TO TEACH.

YOU CANNOT RELY ON MEMORY ALONE. WHATEVER YOU WRITE DOWN STAYS WITH YOU FOREVER. THESE TEACHINGS ARE SO PRECIOUS. YOU CANNOT ALLOW THEM SLIP AWAY”.

I stood up and went in search of something to write with. I found a birthday jotter one of my friends gave to all that attended her party.

I sat down, pen in hand, ready to write.

“CRIS! THAT JOTTER IS A JOKE. I’LL PERMIT THAT FOR TODAY. MAKE SURE YOU GET A BIG JOTTER SOMETHING THAT WON’T GET EXHAUSTED QUICKLY. SOMETHING LARGE AND CLASSIC. IT’S A BOOK FOR YOU PERSONAL QUIET TIME. IT MUST NOT FOLLOW YOU TO CHURCH.

IT’S YOUR PERSONAL QUIET TIME JOTTER AND CHURCH SERVICE JOTTER. IS THAT CLEAR?

“Yes sir!”

“EVERYTHING YOU ARE WRITING HERE, YOU WOULD TRANSFER LATER WHEN YOU GET THE NEW BOOK. IS THAT OKAY?”

“Yes sir!”

“ALRIGHT, LET’S BEGIN. OPEN TO THE BOOK OF ROMANS CHAPTER 3!”

I opened it and began to read.

“Romans 3:1. What advantage then hath the Jew? or what profit is there of circumcision?

Verse 2. Much every way: chiefly, because that unto them were committed the oracles of God.

Verse 3. For what if some did not believe? shall their unbelief make the faith of God without effect?

Verse 4. God forbid: yea, let God be true, but every man a liar; as it is written, That thou mightest be justified in thy sayings, and mightest overcome when thou art judged.

Verse 5. But if our unrighteousness commend the righteousness of God, what shall we say? Is God unrighteous who taketh vengeance? (I speak as a man)

Verse 6. God forbid: for then how shall God judge the world?

Verse 7. For if the truth of God hath more abounded through my lie unto his glory; why yet am I also judged as a sinner?

Verse 8. And not rather, (as we be slanderously reported, and as some affirm that we say,) Let us do evil, that good may come? whose damnation is just.

Verse 9. What then? are we better than they? No, in no wise: for we have before proved both Jews and Gentiles, that they are all under sin;

Verse 10. As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one:

Verse 11. There is none that understandeth, there is none that seeketh after God.

Verse 12. They are all gone out of the way, they are together become unprofitable; there is none that doeth good, no, not one”.

I paused and looked at the words again.

“Daddy! I don’t understand what I’m reading oooo!”

“ACTUALLY, I ONLY WANTED YOU TO READ A FEW VERSES AND MEDITATE ON THEM”, Came the gentle response.

“What verse sir!”

“START FROM VERSE 20!”

“Verse 20. Therefore by the deeds of the law there shall no flesh be justified in his sight: for by the law is the knowledge of sin.

Verse 21. But now the righteousness of God with the law is manifested, being witnessed by the law and the prophets;

Verse 22. Even the righteousness of God which is by faith of Jesus Christ unto all and upon all them that believe: for there is no difference:

Verse 23. For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;

Verse 24. Being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus:

Verse 25. Whom God hath set forth to be a propitiation through faith in his blood, to declare his righteousness for the remission of sins that are past, through the forbearance of God;

Verse 26. To declare, I say, at this time his righteousness: that he might be just, and the justifier of him which believeth in Jesus.

Verse 27. Where is boasting then? It is excluded. By what law? of works? Nay: but by the law of faith.

Verse 28. Therefore we conclude that a man is justified by faith without the deeds of the law.

Verse 29. Is he the God of the Jews only? is he not also of the Gentiles? Yes, of the Gentiles also:

Verse 30. Seeing it is one God, which shall justify the circumcision by faith, and uncircumcision through faith.

Verse 31. Do we then make void the law through faith? God forbid: yea, we establish the law”.

I took my eyes off the bible and looked up as if God was hanging there.

“I don’t understand ooo! Why is Bible study something else today? I don’t understand what I’m reading!”

“CALM DOWN DEAR! LET’S TAKE IT PROGRESSIVELY.

NOW IF YOU LOOK AT EVERYTHING YOU HAVE JUST READ, YOU’LL DISCOVER THAT THE ENTIRE PASSAGE IS TELLING US THAT THE LAW CANNOT SAVE ANYONE. KEEPING THE LAW CANNOT SAVE ANYONE. KEEPING THE LAW WILL NOT SAVE YOU!”

I was more confused. What kind of bible study is this!

“CALM DOWN DEAR! STOP THE WORRY. I’M EXPLAINING IT. DON’T BE IMPATIENT”.

“Okay sir!”

“NOW, ALL THESE IS TO ANSWER A QUESTION YOU ONCE ASKED”.

“What question?”

Immediately, it came afresh into my mind.

“What I want to ask is, why would you want to make friends with me? Do you think you can trust an unfaithful servant like me? Don’t you think it’s easy for me to run away from you? Considering how often I’ve done that?”

“I don’t want this relationship to end. But I have a feeling, I’ll always fall back to my vomit. I’m so inconsistent in my walk with you and that’s what I’ll always be. Always starting afresh with God everyday. I don’t want to lose you ever again. But! I’m used to losing you and I just can’t help it!”

I sighed and looked at the passage again.

“Lord it’s so true. Despite all I’ve been taught. I still can’t help it. I almost failed you this morning. I was given an instruction to always keep my quiet time, but! Wait a second! Are you telling me that the law of keeping and maintaining my quiet time cannot save me? Are you telling me that all the rules I was given to keep cannot save me?”

“EXACTLY!”

“Oh my goodness! So what is the key? What’s going to save me? What’s going to keep me consistent and going? It’s the truth ooo. Despite all the wisdom I have been taught, I still notice how darkness is winning this battle. I almost lost to the devil today if not for mercy. God, what is the way out? All the laws I was given to help me grow in grace and instructions cannot save me. So what’s going to save me?”

“LOOK AT THAT SCRIPTURE VERY WELL AND YOU’LL FIND THE ANSWER. WHAT I’M TEACHING YOU IS TO RELY ON THE RIGHT SOURCE OF STRENGTH.

WHAT EXACTLY IS THE SCRIPTURE SAYING? THEREFORE WE CONCLUDE THAT A MAN IS JUSTIFIED BY FAITH WITHOUT THE DEEDS OF THE LAW, THAT’S VERSE 28.

THE POWER THAT WILL SAVE YOU IS NOT IN YOUR WORKS OF THE LAW OF KEEPING YOUR QUIET TIME. IT’S IN THE FAITH THAT YOU HAVE IN GOD TO KEEP YOU CONSISTENT.

I WANT YOU TO GET THIS CORRECTLY BECAUSE ONE THING IS CERTAIN. YOU’LL ONE DAY BE TEMPTED TO BRAG THAT YOUR DISCIPLINED LIFESTYLE OF ALWAYS SHOWING UP IN THE SECRET PLACE TO BE WITH GOD. YOUR CONSISTENCY IN YOUR PRAYERS AND BIBLE STUDY IS WHAT IS KEEPING YOU.

NO, IT IS THE GRACE OF GOD THAT IS AT WORK IN YOU. AND THAT GRACE IS A PRODUCT OF FAITH. IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOUR WORKS. YOUR WORK OF DISCIPLINING YOURSELF TO ALWAYS BE IN THE PLACE OF PRAYERS.

THE WORKS OF TAKING YOUR PRAYERS AND BIBLE STUDY SERIOUSLY, IS NOT WHAT WILL SAVE YOU, BUT THE GRACE THAT COMES THROUGH FAITH. SO YOU DIDN’T WORK TO EARN THIS GRACE, BUT IT WAS FREELY GIVEN TO YOU. BECAUSE, SOMEONE WHO WORKED FOR YOU, YOU’RE INDEBTED TO THAT PERSON.

BUT THE PERSON WHO DIDN’T WORK AND WAS GIVEN A REWARD FOR FREE, OBTAINED IT THROUGH GRACE. THAT’S HOW OT OPERATES.

SO I WANT YOU TO UNDERSTAND THAT GOD WILL KEEP YOU AND GIVE YOU THE POWER TO BE CONSISTENT”.

I opened the jotter and started writing.

“ACTUALLY, THE LAW CANNOT SAVE MAN. THE LAW ONLY TELLS MAN WHAT HE OUGHT TO DO AND NOT DO. THE LAW ONLY HAS INFORMATION. IT DOESN’T HAVE POWER.

THE LAW MAKES US FEEL GUILTY WHEN GOD SPEAKS TO US AND WE MAKE UP OUR MIND TO OBEY. BUT WE MISS THE POINT. THE LAW CANNOT SAVE US. THE LAW ONLY INFORMS. SO AFTER WE HEAR THAT GOD WANTS US TO KEEP OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM, WE WEEP.

GOD I’M SORRY! LORD I WON’T MISS QUIET TIME AGAIN! GOD! I’LL DO EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO OBSERVE MY QUIET TIME AS FROM TODAY. GOD I WILL TAKE MY SPIRITUAL LIFE SERIOUSLY FROM NOW HENCEFORTH. WOW! SO MANY PROMISES, BUT DO YOU NOTICE SOMETHING?”

“No, sir!”

“THOSE PROMISES NEVER LAST. THEY JUST DON’T LAST. THE SAME PERSON YOU THOUGHT WOULD BE THE BEST PRAYER WARRIOR AFTER HEARING THE TRUTH, IS STILL STRUGGLING LIKE SOMEONE WHO NEVER HEARD ABOUT THE TRUTH IN THE FIRST PLACE. WHY? THE LAW! IT CANNOT SAVE!

IT CAN ONLY MAKE YOU CRY. IT CAN ONLY MAKE YOU OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND PROMISE GOD HEAVEN AND EARTH. BUT THE WILL POWER OF MAN WOULD SOON FAIL AND THE MAN IS DOWN AGAIN. ALL THE LAW DOES IS TO MAKE YOU EXERCISE YOUR WILL POWER.

HOW LONG DOES WILL POWER LAST? EACH PEOPLE ARE DIFFERENT. SOME PEOPLE’S WILL POWER CAN LAST UP TO A MONTH. SOME A WEEK, OTHERS LOSE THEIR WILL POWER THAT SAME DAY.

IMMEDIATELY, THEY ARE BACK INTO THEIR INDISCIPLINED SPIRITUAL LIFESTYLE. THEY KEEP ASKING GOD FOR CONSISTENCY. BUT THE CONSISTENCY THEY ARE CRYING FOR IS JUST WITHIN THEIR REACH. THE RIGHTEOUSNESS OF GOD THROUGH FAITH. NOT OF WORKS LEST ANY MAN SHOULD BRAG THAT I PRAY FOR 2 HOURS EVERYDAY, THAT’S WHY I’M CONSISTENT.

I’M A VERY DISCIPLINED MAN. I DISCIPLINE MY FLESH VERY WELL, THAT’S WHY I’M STANDING. HA HA HA! YOU THAT SLEEP ANYHOW, YOU ARE SPIRITUALLY LAZY. HOW WILL YOU GROW? OH LAZY CHRISTIAN! I STUDY MY BIBLE FOR 2 HOURS. I FAST 6 TO 6 TWICE IN A WEEK. THAT’S WHY IM STANDING! THAT’S WHY IM CONSISTENT.

NO!

BUT THAT CHRISTIAN WHO WOULD BELIEVE THAT GOD CAN AND DOESN’T WAVER IN FAITH. THAT’S THE CHRISTIAN THAT HAS THE KEYS TO A CONSISTENT SPIRITUAL LIFE”.

To be continued…….

Please keep praying for me oooo. Don’t relent.

How many of you have a personal quiet time jotter?

Not church jotter!

Please get one. It’s very important.

The class continues this afternoon. Get ready to learn THE SECRETS TO A CONSISTENT SPIRITUAL LIFE

Those of you begging God for consistency! He’s just about to answer your prayers.

Grab your pen and jotter as we learn together.

Epidode 36

“SO YOUR WORKS DO NOT SAVE YOU, BUT THE GRACE OF GOD THROUGH YOUR FAITH. YOUR WORKS ARE COMPLETELY USELESS AND HAVE NO SAVING POWER. THE LAW COULD NOT EMPOWER MAN TO KEEP THEM BUT MADE MAN A SLAVE TO SIN. IT ONLY INFORMED MAN”.

“Daddy, I need to understand something. There’s this teaching about grace that confuses me. One way or another, we all believe that no man can keep the law. Pray everyday, read bible everyday. Flee immorality, forgive those that wronged you. Those laws are too difficult to keep. So, if the law cannot save, do we still need it? Do not fornicate, do not steal. Since we are under grace, what do we need the law for?” I asked.

“EXACTLY WHAT I WAS ABOUT TO ADDRESS. NOW READ CHAPTER 3 VERSE 8”.

I quickly opened it and read out.

“Romans 3:8 And not rather, (as we be slanderously reported, and as some affirm that we say,) Let us do evil, that good may come? whose damnation is just”.

Hmmmmm. This is it.

“EXACTLY CRIS! THE LAW CANNOT SAVE US, SO WHAT DO WE DO? WE DEPEND ON GRACE THROUGH FAITH. BUT THERE’S SOMETHING A LOT OF PEOPLE ARE MISSING ON THE MESSAGE OF GRACE.

THE LAW WAS THERE AND HAD ALWAYS BEEN THERE. THE PEOPLE OF OLD KEPT STRUGGLING WITH FALLING AND RISING. YES! THE OLD TESTAMENT IS FULL OF THE FALLING AND RISING OF GOD’S PEOPLE FROM SIN TO REPENTANCE. THE LAW COULD NOT GIVE GRACE, IT ONLY REMINDED THEM OF THEIR SINS.

BUT JESUS CAME WITH GRACE. BUT WHAT WAS THE MISSION OF GRACE?

CRIS, WRITE IT AS A SUB TOPIC. WHAT IS THE MISSION OF GRACE?”

“Yes sir! I said as I wrote and underlined it.

“GRACE ACTUALLY CAME TO HELP YOU KEEP THE LAW.
CRIS OPEN TO MATTHEW CHAPTER 5 AND READ FROM VERSE 17 TO 19”.

I was surprised. What was in that scripture? I don’t think I have an idea of what is written there. I opened it and smiled. God is so awesome.

“Think not that I am come to destroy the law, or the prophets: I am not come to destroy, but to fulfil.

Verse 18. For verily I say unto you, Till heaven and earth pass, one jot or one tittle shall in no wise pass from the law, till all be fulfilled.

Verse 19. Whosoever therefore shall break one of these least commandments, and shall teach men so, he shall be called the least in the kingdom of heaven: but whosoever shall do and teach them, the same shall be called great in the kingdom of heaven”.

“Wow! Grace actually came through Jesus to help us keep the law. In the old testament especially the book of Judges, men kept rising and falling. The people would suffer under the hands of the enemies and repent. God would pity them and raise a Judge to deliver them. After the death of the new Judge, they fall back into their sins.

After a while, another enemy comes and enslaves them, they suffer and suffer again. Soon, they repent and cry to God for deliverance. God would raise a Judge and rescue them. After the death of the Judge, they fall back into sin.

They cannot keep the law God gave them. They can only keep it to the extent of their will power. And once a Judge dies, they lose their will power completely. So this circle continued till Jesus came.

Jesus actually came to help us through grace to keep the law. Am I correct?”

“THAT’S MY BABY GIRL!”

I smiled.

“A LOT OF PEOPLE HAVE MISINTERPRETED THIS SCRIPTURE AND USED IT AS AN EXCUSE TO COMMIT SIN. NO MORE LAW! WE ARE UNDER GRACE. YOU CAN MISS YOUR QUIET TIME AND PERSONAL BIBLE STUDY. DON’T WORRY, GRACE IS THERE. THERE’S NO NEED TO BE UNDER THE LAW. SO WE HAVE FREEDOM IN CHRIST. ABSOLUTE FREEDOM TO DO WHATEVER WE WANT. ALL WE HAVE TO DO IS TO ENJOY GRACE TO THE FULLEST.

DO WHATEVER YOU WANT. THE BLOOD OF CHRIST IS THERE AS BATHROOM WATER. JUST BATH CLEAN AFTER YOU FINISH COMMITING YOUR SINS. THE GRACE OF GOD IS THERE FOR YOU TO STOP OBEYING THE LAW. THROW AWAY THOSE LAWS. DO WHATEVER YOU WANT. GRACE COVER YOU”.

“Exactly Daddy!” I said and snapped my fingers.

“YES! WHAT IS THE MISSION OF GRACE?”

“To help us keep and fulfil the law. Without grace, the law cannot be kept”, I answered.

“SO WHO BROUGHT IN THAT DEMONIC DOCTRINE? BECAUSE THE LAW, THOU SHALT NOT COMMIT ADULTERY CANNOT BE KEPT, WE SHOULD START COMMITING ADULTERY?”

BECAUSE THE LAW CANNOT KEEP US CONSISTENT IN OUR QUIET TIME, SO NO MORE QUIET TIME, RIGHT?

“No!” I answered.

“SO WHAT EXACTLY IS THE MISSION OF GRACE?”

“Daddy, I know that you said shall we continue in sin so that grace may abound? And the answer is God forbid. But you’re getting me confused. You said the law cannot save us, the law only informs us, the law only condemns us and the more we try to keep it the more we keep rising and falling.

My question is, why do we still have the law? At least we should throw it away since it doesn’t have anything to offer us? It cannot save, it cannot deliver, it’s completely useless. So what do we need those laws for?

I’m not saying we should start fornicating ooo! I’m just trying to be reasonable. What is the mission of the law? I mean, what good things are there to gain from the law? All I’ve been hearing is the law would not save me. I would never be able to keep the law, yet the law is still there. What is it doing there? Why can’t we read only the new testament and abandon the laws of Moses?”

“BEAUTIFUL QUESTION! MY PRETTY EBONY HAS A LEARNING BRAIN!” Came the gentle response.

I smiled and tightened my grip on my pen, ready to write.

“NOW I’M GOING TO TEACH YOU WITH SOMETHING YOU CAN RELATE WITH. IMAGINE YOU’RE A POOR BEAUTIFUL LADY. YOU CANNOT AFFORD 3 SQUARE MEALS A DAY. YOU SUFFER OF STARVATION, LACK OF SHELTER, LACK OF GOOD CLOTHING AND MOCKERY FROM THE RICH GUYS AROUND.

THEN ONE DAY, YOU MET THIS HANDSOME PRINCE OF PEACE, WHO CAME WITH A MARRIAGE PROPOSAL. YOU ACCEPTED HIS RING AND GOT MARRIED TO HIM. THREE MONTHS LATER, YOU DROVE INTO YOUR FORMER COMPOUND IN YOUR EXPENSIVE CAR. YOUR LOOKS, SO BREATH TAKING AND ATTRACTIVE.

EVERYONE GATHERED AROUND YOU TO ASK, WHO MADE YOU LIKE THIS? WHAT IS SUPPOSED TO BE YOUR ANSWER?”

“I would tell them it was my husband’s wealth that made me what I am. In order words, grace. My husband’s wealth symbolizes grace”.

“YOU’RE A SMART BABY GIRL CRIS! YOU’RE REALLY LEARNING FAST!”

I smiled and continued writing.

“THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT I’M TRYING TO TEACH HUMANITY. IMAGINE THE WIFE TELLING THE ENTIRE CONGREGATION THAT SHE WAS SO HARD WORKING OR I KEPT MYSELF FROM SLEEPING AROUND WITH MEN, THAT WAS WHY THE HUSBAND NOTICED HER AND FELL IN LOVE WITH HER. WOULD THAT BE THE RIGHT ANSWER TO GIVE?”

“No! That would be telling a lie”, I answered.

“GOOD, SO I’M OPENING YOUR EYES TO THE FACT THAT IT IS THE HUSBAND THAT IS RESPONSIBLE FOR WHAT HAPPENED. HE IS RESPONSIBLE FOR THE CHANGE THAT HAPPENED IN HER LIFE. IT’S NOT GOOD TO PRAISE SOMEONE FOR SOMETHING THAT HE OR SHE NEVER DID. MY GLORY, I WILL SHARE WITH NO MAN.

SO, TELLING YOU THAT IT WAS GRACE THAT KEEPS YOU, IS ONLY CALLING YOUR ATTENTION TO THE FACT THAT YOU NEED TO STOP THANKING THE WRONG PERSON. STOP PRAISING YOUR WORKS OF THE LAW AND START PRAISING GOD FOR THE GRACE HE GAVE YOU”.

“Wow! Thank you Jesus!”

“HOLD ON! DON’T WORRY, YOU’LL PRAISE ME, BUT I NEED TO EXPLAIN SOMETHING RIGHT NOW. SINCE THE LADY REALIZES THAT IT WAS NOT HER HARD WORK THAT MADE THE PRINCE FALL IN LOVE WITH HER. IT WAS NOTHING SHE DID BUT, HE DECIDED TO CHOSE AND LOVE HER. IF SHE THEN SAYS. WOW! SO I DON’T HAVE TO WORK HARD ANYMORE OR KEEP MYSELF PURE FROM IMMORALITY. SHE STARTS DOING WHATEVER SHE LIKES, SLEEPING WITH ANY MAN SHE LUSTS AFTER, ALL BECAUSE HER WORKS DOES NOT DETERMINE HER HUSBAND’S LOVE FOR HER. WHAT WOULD YOU CALL THAT?”

“Taking the grace of God for granted!”

“EXACTLY! THAT’S WHAT A LOT OF PEOPLE DON’T UNDERSTAND. SINCE OUR WORKS DO NOT SAVE US, THEN LET’S THROW IT AWAY AND JUMP INTO THE MUD OF PRAYERLESSNESS. INTO THE MUD OF FORNICATION. INTO THE MUD OF SIN. NO!

MAN WAS ALWAYS RISING AND FALLING, STRUGGLING TO KEEP THE LAW. THEN GOD SAW HIS STATE OF HOPELESSNESS AND BROUGHT GRACE TO EMPOWER HIM TO KEEP THE LAW. GRACE ACTUALLY CAME TO HELP US CONSISTENT IN OUR WALK WITH GOD.

NOW CAN I TELL YOU SOMETHING?”

“Please go ahead Sweet Daddy!”

“OKAY! NOW OPEN TO GENESIS CHAPTER 6 AND READ VERSE 8”.

I quickly opened it and read.

“But Noah found grace in the eyes of the LORD”, I paused and looked up.

“THE EARTH WAS COMPLETELY CORRUPT. EVERYONE WAS BUSY WALLOWING IN SIN AND INIQUITY. GOD WAS SO ANGRY THAT HE WANTED TO WIPE OFF THE ENTIRE HUMAN RACE. BUT WHAT KEPT NOAH FROM PERISHING WITH THE WORLD?

“Grace!”

“WAS IT THOU SHALT NOT KILL?”

“Grace!”

“WAS IT HIS CONSISTENT QUIET TIME AND FELLOWSHIP WITH GOD?”

“No, it’s grace!”

“COME ON! NOAH WAS SUCH A GOOD MAN! AT LEAST HIS GOODNESS WAS WHAT KEPT HIM?”

“No Daddy! It’s grace!”

“NOW, SUPPOSING NOAH REALIZES THAT IT WAS NOT HIS OBEDIENCE TO THE LAW AND HIS QUIET TIME THAT KEPT HIM, BUT THE GRACE OF GOD. AND HE’S LIKE WOW! SO I’VE BEEN WASTING MY TIME. NO MORE QUIET TIME! NO MORE FELLOWSHIP WITH GOD! I’M FREE FROM THE LAW! I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT. ITS NOT THE LAW THAT HAS BEEN KEEPING ME! ITS GRACE! SO LET ME GO AND KILL THOSE MEN THAT INSULTED ME IN THE MARKET THE OTHER DAY. LET ME GO AND DRINK ACHOHOL WITH MY OLD FRIENDS. LET ME VISIT THE BROTHELS AND HAVE FUN.

WOULDN’T HE HAVE PERISHED WITH THAT EVIL GENERATION?”

“Yes, he would”, I answered, nodding in affirmation.

“SO WHAT’S THE BALANCE? IT’S COMPLETELY SIMPLE. THERE’S NO CONFUSION ABOUT IT. IT’S GRACE THAT KEEPS YOU, ALWAYS ACKNOWLEDGE THAT. NEVER LOOK AT YOUR WORKS AND START PRAISING YOURSELF FOR KEEPING THE LAW.

TWO, GRACE CAME TO HELP YOU KEEP THE LAW. SO WHENEVER OBEDIENCE TO GOD LOOKS SO DIFFICULT, CRY OUT FOR GRACE. GRACE ACTUALLY CAME TO HELP YOU SERVE GOD BETTER AND STOP STRUGGLING WITH YOUR WILL POWER.

THIRDLY, KEEP THE LAW! IF TRULY ITS GOD YOU DEPEND ON, THEN YOU WON’T MISS YOUR QUIET TIME. YOU WOULD ALWAYS WANT TO OBEY WHATEVER HE TELLS YOU. BUT AS YOU KEEP THE LAW, DON’T LET IT GET INTO YOUR HEAD AND YOU SHIFT FROM LOOKING UNTO JESUS, TO LOOKING UNTO MY WORKS.

THAT’S THE PERFECT BALANCE. JESUS SAID THAT HE CAME TO FULFIL THE LAW, NOT TO WIPE IT AWAY. KEEP IT, BUT PROTECT YOUR MIND FROM THAT PRIDE, THAT I AM THE ONE WHO KEPT MYSELF. DON’T LET IT GET INTO YOUR HEAD THAT YOU HAVE BEEN THE ONE OBEYING GOD, RATHER, HIS GRACE KEPT YOU.

AND DON’T SAY IT’S HIS GRACE, THEN YOU ABANDON YOUR QUIET TIME AND START SLEEPING. IT’S GRACE THAT KEEPS ME NOT ALL THESE QUIET TIME OR ANYTHING. GOD! I WANT TO SLEEP TODAY. LET YOUR GRACE COVER ME! NO!

GRACE ONLY HELPS YOU TO DO YOUR QUIET TIME BETTER AND CONSISTENTLY, NOT CANCEL IT. THAT’S THE BALANCE”.

“Wow! Thanks alot Daddy!”

“CALL MY NAME IN FULL!”

“Sorry sir! Thanks alot my Sweet, delicious, sweeter than honey Daddy!”

“WOW! I’M SO EXCITED DARLING! ANYWAY, WE HAVE TO STOP HERE! YOU WOULD BE LATE FOR WORK!”

“Stop what? Which work? I’m not going anywhere oooo! You said you had two things to teach me. One had just been completed, the other one is in the book of the Songs of Solomon. Come and continue”.

“WE HAVE TO START TOMORROW!”

“Daddy! I’m not going anywhere oooo! Is it not my company?” I can chose to go and not go”.

“I KNOW, BUT I WANT YOU TO GO! DON’T BE MORE SPIRITUAL THAN ME!”

I grinned and went down on my knees, thanking him for the revelation of his word.

To be continued…….

Brethren, that’s the balance.

Alot of people have turned the grace of God to lasciviousness (Lustful desires)

They have taken it to mean something entirely different. The Grace of God came to help us do what the law could not do, because of the weakness of the flesh.

Please keep stoning me with your prayers. The way the inspiration is flowing these days is an absolute miracle. At times, most of what I type as an episode was never planned. It just came as I started typing with my phone.

Don’t stop praying for me.

How many of you have been in studying your bible and God would be the one telling you,

“E don do! No go late for work!”

Episode 37

“Madam thank you so much for granting me this opportunity. You don’t know how much this means to me!” Miss Harmony said.

“Please don’t mention!” I said.

Harmony worked as a sales representative for my company. She was a professional in her work. I always acknowledged her efforts and commended her.

Last year, she sent me a resignation letter by the hand of a colleague. I was angry at the abrupt disappearance and called her several times, but she never picked my calls. I was mad and decided never to set my eyes on her.

No wonder Sweet Daddy needed me at work today. She came back pleading with me if I could employ her again.

The old me wouldn’t have set eyes on her. But thank God, I’m now a changed girl. Yeah! Isn’t that beautiful?

I decided to employ her as an assistant to the present sales rep.

“You can start working immediately, or do prefer to begin next week? This month ends on Friday, today’s Tuesday”.

“I prefer to start working right now. Anything to take me out of my depression!” She said and turned to leave.

“Depression!”

That word got my attention. Was she suffering from a broken relationship or something bigger? Was it a financial challenge?

“CRIS! I NEED THAT SOUL!” Came the gentle whisper.

“Harmony, please wait!” I said.

She turned and stared at me. I could see a little bit of sadness in her expression. She was really playing her hide and seek very well. But, I was too smart to be fooled.

“Can we talk?” I asked.

“Ma! I’m sorry to take your time! I’m truly sorry to have said something about my personal life”, she said, her eyes moist with tears.

“Please take a seat! Let’s talk!”

She sat down and looked at me. She was looking gloomy right now.

“What happened to you?” I asked.

“Ma! My boyfriend is so evil! I was working so hard over here and assisted him in the university with all my life savings and income. I laboured for him. What did I not do for him?

I spent everything I had on him. All he could do to tell me thank you is to dump me for another girl. Telling me he doesn’t love me anymore. Telling me that I wasn’t good for him. He got a job after his service and is making millions. Now, I’m the girl that isn’t good enough for him. He cheated me so badly!”

She started crying.

“Took my money and my virginity with him. I satisfied him in bed and financially. I had to abort two babies for him during our 4 years relationship. I thought I was paying the price for a future with him. No, I was only pouring water into a basket. He went away with everything I had.

I’m sorry I had to quit my job. I was so depressed that nothing mattered to me anymore. I just couldn’t think straight. But when poverty and hunger came and dealt mercilessly with me. I had to humble myself and come back here to beg for mercy. Because I couldn’t find a new job anymore.

If I could lay my hands on Kay boy. I would deal with him mercilessly. He has seriously finished my life and my entire generation. I was so depressed for days. I tried everything I could to get me out of depression. But nothing worked. Maybe it’s because I was idle. Perhaps a job would help solve my depression!”

She said and took the tissue paper I stretched out to her and wiped her tears.

“Hmmm! Sweet Daddy, what do I tell her?”

“OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND I WILL FILL IT!”

I bowed my head and whispered a few words of prayers. I looked up and met her staring at me.

I was shocked because I had seen that look in her eyes before. It was a look of someone expecting something from me. I had seen that look before. But what made me surprised was I remembered where I had seen it.

It was in that dream I had. That dream where alot of ladies crowded me asking me to give them the bread. Oh my goodness! She had those expectant eyes from the dream.

“GO AHEAD AND FEED HER?” Came the gentle whisper.

I was startled. Was this my dream getting fulfilled before my eyes? Was I walking into my divine purpose here on earth?

“Ma! What do you have to say to me! Please!” Harmony said.

I almost thought they were my thoughts.

“Did you say something?” I asked.

“Yes! I asked if you had something to tell me! Something to calm my hungry soul!”

“Oh my God! Somebody, please tell me I’m dreaming. Does this girl know what she was saying?” I said within me.

She was speaking, but I saw God speaking through her.

“Harmony, are you a Christian?” I asked.

“Yes!”

“How and when?”

” I was born again 5 years ago. I got born again in a revival program titled, THE STAR THAT MUST ARISE. I was pricked in my heart that I was that star and I was wasting God’s precious time. I wept to the altar that day and surrendered to Jesus”.

“My God! The star that must arise! Harmony, what happened to you? How did you get here? Five years ago and this star is yet to arise, who is wasting your time?” I asked

She started crying again. My eyes got blurred with tears. I felt her pain so much.

“Ma! I’m sorry! I was once on fire for God! I was once a spiritual giant. A day never passed without me preaching to a soul. I could pray for hours everyday. I never missed my Bible study for a single day.

It was Kay boy that quenched everything about God in me. I herd God clearly when he told me he wasn’t in approval of the relationship. I knew and saw all the warning, but I was desperate to have a boyfriend. I needed someone in my life to give me love and affection. My parents were never there for me. Kay boy was the only one who cared about me. He made me feel special. He made me feel what it truely meant to be loved by a man.

I struggled and struggled with God, until he let me be. I knew he withdrew from me, because all the warning stopped coming. All the messages stopped coming. Instead of running to back to God, I ran ahead to grab all the pleasures sin had to offer. I decided to taste what having carnal knowledge of a man looked like. The pleasures of giving your body to a man. I tried achohol and hard drugs. I was running from one pleasure to another.

Everything sin offered me could not last. They only made me happy for just a little moment. After which depression would return.

I knew I had missed it. But I just don’t know how to find my way home. I just don’t know how. I’ve confessed to God countless times, still, I always fall back into my vomit and become worse”.

She covered her face with her palms and wept. I stood up and wrapped my hands around her.

“Harmony, Psalms 16:4 says. Their sorrows shall be multiplied that hasten after another god: their drink offerings of blood will I not offer, nor take up their names into my lips.

Deliberately walking away from God is signing up to live in sorrow. No man would ever walk away from God and live a prosperous life. Harmony! It’s a law that cannot be broken.

As humans, we are free moral agents. But every action and decision we make have consequences.

Luke 12:47 And that servant, which knew his lord’s will, and prepared not himself, neither did according to his will, shall be beaten with many stripes.

Verse 48. But he that knew not, and did commit things worthy of stripes, shall be beaten with few stripes. For unto whomsoever much is given, of him shall be much required: and to whom men have committed much, of him they will ask the more.

In this kingdom, ignorance is not an excuse because we have our conscience to rebuke us when we’re doing something wrong. So when you know this is what God wants, and you chose to do other wise. You’re preparing yourself for God’s wrath and he’ll fight against whatever you do.

To be more direct, the bible made us to understand in
Ecclesiastes 2:26. God gives wisdom, knowledge, and happiness to those who please him, but he makes sinners work, earning and saving, so that what they get can be given to those who please him. It is all useless. It is like chasing the wind.

You laboured on Kay boy with hope that you’re investing in your future. You didn’t know you were labouring for another woman to enjoy. Because it is God that gives the power to labour and also to enjoy whatever you laboured for.

Anything you do outside God’s will for your life, is futile, useless and a complete waste of time”, I said and she held my hands like I was an answer to her prayers.

“So what can I do? I’ve been trying to come back to God but I don’t know how. I just don’t know why it’s so difficult for me? Please show me the way!”

I remembered what Sharon taught me about the bread of life and the living water. I decided to share it with her.

“Harmony! You’re like that woman at the well searching for happiness. She was so thirsty for satisfaction, just as the devil made you believe that a boyfriend would solve it. That’s how he decieved the woman into 5 relationships. Five husbands, yet she left them all and started cohabitating with a new guy. She just needed something that none of these men could give her.

Untill she met the master. She drank of the living water and her soul experienced joy unspeakable. Satan told you a job would get you out of your depression, but he’s only wasting your time. Only the Lord Jesus can satisfy your hungry soul.

Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden and I will give you rest. Harmony, confess to Jesus and make up your mind to follow him with all of your heart. He’s willing to accept you. He said he has no pleasure in the death of a sinner. He has seriously missed you. Come back home daughter! Come home! Into the loving arms of Jesus.

It’s been long you felt those arms hugging you. It’s been long you communed with the Holy Spirit and enjoyed intimacy”.

I was still talking, when she broke into tears and went down on her knees.

“Thank you Jesus!” I whispered.

“CRIS EVER SINCE YOU BECAME A CHRISTIAN, HAVE YOU EVER PREACHED THE GOSPEL TO ANYONE?” Came the gentle voice.

I opened my mouth and scanned through my memories for an answer. 60 seconds passed and I was unable to provide one.

“I’m sorry Sweet Daddy! I didn’t realize I had never preached or talked about Jesus with anyone in my life. I’m so sorry! I have hidden my Lord and was so ashamed of telling the whole world I’m in love with Jesus. Please forgive me!” I prayed in whispers.

“SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE ABANDONED THE CALL TO SHARE JESUS WITH THE PEOPLE AROUND THEM. NOT NECESSARILY GOING TO THE STREETS TO SHOUT WITH MEGAPHONES, BUT EVANGELISM IN YOUR OWN LITTLE CORNER. CRIS! YOU’RE THE CEO OF THIS COMPANY. YOU ARE IN A POSITION OF INFLUENCE. I WANT YOU TO USE THAT INFLUENCE AS AN ADVANTAGE FOR MY KINGDOM TO SPREAD IN THIS COMPANY”.

I went down on my knees too. Harmony was still talking to God at a spot, while I knelt down and raised my hands in the air.

“Daddy! I once told you I am yours and all that I possess. If you want my influence, it is yours. Do with your baby girl as you please!”

To be continued……

Cris is doing it ooo! 😊😊😊
Let’s give her a high five 🖐️

Why do you think you are in that bank, that school, that company, that shop?

Just to make money right? Why do you think Jesus left you alive here on earth? To make alot of money or what?

In the olden days, when a father is about to leave this world on his death bed, all his children would gather around him to hear his last words to them.

So also, when Jesus was about leaving the earth, he gathered all his children and gave them his last words.

Go into all the worlds and preach the gospel.

The university is a world. Your bank is a world. Your Company is a world. Your hospital is a world.You are there to represent Jesus and win souls for him.

It’s not untill you carry megaphone and start screaming repent on the streets. Start in your own little corner.

Episode 38

I entered my sitting room and dropped my bag on the sofa. I landed heavily on the sofa and stretched. I yawned aloud, forgetting to put my hand over my mouth.

Evelyn, my house help approached.

“Welcome Cris!” She bent her knees slightly in greeting.

“Thanks!” I said in a faint voice, bending over to unbuckle my heels.

“You must be really tired”, she remarked.

“Yes I am! Work is getting strenuous everyday. I wish man could survive without food. The world would have been an easier place to live in”.

“True!” She chuckled.

“Yes ooooo! Everything we do. The running around, the writing of paper work, slide, board meeting, typing is all because we need something in our stomach”.

“You are absolutely correct!” She concurred.

“CRIS! USE THE OPPORTUNITY!” Came the gentle whisper.

I smiled as I understood the coded language and sat up.

“But is it possible?” I asked.

“Possible for what?”

“For man to survive without food. Like no more food. Let’s live without food”.

“That means grave dey hungry us na!” She said and we both burst into laughter.

“You’re a funny girl”, I remarked.

She grinned, exposing her gap teeth.

“So what makes you think you can survive without God?” I asked.

She looked around to be sure if the question was directed at her. She looked back at me and pointed to herself for confirmation.

“Yes, you”, I affirmed.

“Ma, I go to church ooo. You know I do. I can’t do without God. He’s the only one that keeps me going”.

“Evelyn, do you know God?” I asked in a serious tone.

“Yes I do!”

“How?”

“I don’t understand?”

I adjusted my position on the sofa and beckoned on her to join me. She sat down, staring at me in awe.

“You said you know God. I asked how did you get to know him. At least, you have a track record in your memory about how you met me. You still remember how our first meeting together was and how we became friends.

So tell me about how you got to know God?”

She opened her mouth but nothing came out. I guess she was thinking of something to say.

“Well, I was born in a God fearing family. I was taken to church when I was a little girl. I’ve always been a Christian since I was little”, she said and I sighed.

“Did you ever ask Jesus to come into your heart?” I asked.

“Yes! In children church!” She answered.

“Daddy, she’s saved. There’s nothing more to say!” I said within me.

“CRIS, MATTHEW 7 VERSE 21”, Came the gentle response.

I reached for my bag and brought out my phone. I opened the bible app and typed the chapter. As soon as it opened, I scrolled to the verse and handed her my phone.

“Read it”, I said.

She took it and read aloud.

“Verse 21. Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven.

Verse 22. Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works?

Verse 23. And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity”.

She lowered the phone and bowed her head.

“Evelyn, you claim you know God! But does God know you? Are you a worker of iniquity? Do you still do things that God doesn’t like? He sees everything you do sis. Every secret thing. Those bitterness in your heart. Those people who you have locked up and refused to forgive.

He sees what you do with your reproductive organ in the secret. He sees everything you do. The people you insult in your heart. The lies you have spoken with those lips. Yet, you claim you know God”,

I saw her eyes getting moist with tears. Especially when I mentioned masturbation. She looked at me with shock in her eyes.

“You claim you know God, but can I ask you a question. If you die right now, are you sure you’ll find yourself in the loving arms of Jesus?”

She started crying. She bent over and covered her face with her palms.

“Evelyn, I’m not here to condemn you. I’m not better than you. But I’m here to introduce you to the man that helped me. The man who rescued me from the powers that held me bound.

Like I said earlier. Man cannot survive without food. That’s the same way, you and I cannot survive without God. We need God in our lives everyday the same way we need our food. We cannot do without eating. That’s how we cannot do without an intimate relationship with God. A relationship where God knows you and you know him. The man that claims he knows God and still lives in sin is a liar. He has not known God”.

I was still talking when she looked at me and asked.

“How can I know God?”

I smiled and took her hand.

“It starts with a confession of your faith in God. I know you once did that in children church. But today, you’re rededicating your life back to God.

Secondly, if you want to get to know me better what do you do? You spend time with me. You chat with me. You call me often, laugh with me, eat with me hang out me always.

That’s the same thing with knowing God. You spend time with him everyday. You study his word. You talk to him through prayers everyday. In no time, you’ll begin to witness a transformation.

Knowing God is what we were all created for. You cannot know God in a church alone. You must create time to spend with him daily. That’s how you become a true Christian. Because as you spend time with him, a transfer happens in the spirit realm.

Just like Moses spent 40 days in God’s presence and came back with the God life. He didn’t know his face was shining like that of God. Everyone saw him and ran away thinking it was God that entered the camp.

It’s the same thing. If you’re always around me, you’re bound to be influenced by my lifestyle. Just as they say, evil communication corrupts good manners. Good communication transforms bad manners. Communication with God to be precise, because only God is good.

So a Christian who has no intimate personal relationship with God, will never have the nature, attributes, character or fruits of the Holy Spirit in him. All you’ll have is head knowledge, no experience.

You said if we decide to live without food, we would all end up in the grave. That’s exactly the truth. If we try to live on earth without an intimate relationship with God, we would all end up in the grave of sin and iniquity. We would end up in the grave of telling lies, in the grave of stealing, in the grave of masturbation, in the grave of bitterness and unforgiveness.

Without an intimate relationship with God, sin becomes stronger and powerful. Sin becomes ourselves lifestyle. Just as you need food every single day, you need God everyday to survive.

Evelyn, it’s time to go back to the heavenly father in spirit and in truth. Are you willing?” I asked.

She nodded her head and clutched my hands tightly.

“My mum called me and asked me to read the same thing today. I refused to read it. I was surprised when you opened the same passage and gave it to me to read. This was nothing but God stretching out his hand of mercy towards me.

I’ve been a church girl, but I know I don’t truly know God. I may claim I know him, but I deny him through my actions. I want this relationship you’re talking about. I hear you praying in the night and I feel this is what God wants me to do. But I don’t know how to get it. Please help me calm my hungry soul!” She said and went on her knees.

Her last words pricked my heart. I only smiled because I knew someone was pressing buttons spiritually.

I led her into saying the sinner’s prayers and instructed her on how to begin her relationship with God. I told her what quiet time was and what it was all about. I also made arrangement to pray with her in the morning everyday.

When we were done I dismissed her and went upstairs to rest.

I had a shower and changed into my house wears and laid on the bed.

“MY PRETTY EBONY! ” Came the gentle whisper.

I smiled.

“Daddy! Today has been so wonderful, two souls were won”, I said within me.

“YES, AND I’M SO PROUD OF MY BABY GIRL!”

“Daddy stop jare! I even have a question for you”.

“GO ON!” I’M LISTENING”.

“Daddy, Harmony is not different from me. She took the same path I took and paid heavily for it. Mine was completely worse than hers. But there’s a difference. You let her be. You allowed her to go her way and explore all kinds of sinful practices.

But in my case, you kept going after me and didn’t stop sending me the signals. Why was my case different from hers?”

“THAT’S A GOOD QUESTION!NOW THE ONLY THING THAT MADE YOUR CASE DIFFERENT FROM THAT OF HARMONY WAS WHAT I CALL INTERCESSION! DO YOU REMEMBER WHAT PSALM 115 VERSE 16 SAYS?”

“Yes!” I replied.

“GO ON MY PRETTY EBONY!”

“Psalms 115:16. The heaven, even the heavens, are the LORD’s: but the earth hath he given to the children of men”, I recited.

“EXACTLY. THE EARTH HAS BEEN GIVEN TO MEN. YOU ARE THE ONE TO PRAYERFULLY DECIDE WHAT YOU WANT AND WHAT YOU DON’T WANT. SO A PRAYERLESS CHRISTIAN IS UNKNOWN TO HIM, ALLOWS SATAN TO DECIDE ON HIS BEHALF. WHEN YOU DON’T PRAY, THINGS HAPPEN TO YOU. BUT WHEN YOU PRAY, YOU NAKE THINGS HAPPEN. YOU COMMAND THINGS TO HAPPEN. YOU REJECT WHAT YOU DON’T WANT AND ASK FOE WHAT YOU WANT.

SO WHEN YOU DON’T PRAY FOR THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARE PRECIOUS TO YOU, DON’T COMPLAIN WHEN YOU SEE SATAN MAKING A MESS OF THEM. IT WAS YOU THAT FAILED TO INTERCEDE FOR THEM”.

“So how does intercession make me any different from Harmony?” I asked.

“HARMONY’S MUM FAILED ME. WHEN HARMONY STARTED GOING ASTRAY, INSTEAD OF HER TO FIGHT ON HER KNEES, SHE WAS BUSY FIGHTING WITH HER FISTS. SHE FOUGHT AGAINST HARMONY WITH HER WORDS AND HER ACTIONS. SHE DOESN’T KNOW THAT ITS THE SPIRIT THAT CONTROLS THE PHYSICAL. SHE THOUGHT HER WORDS COULD CHANGE THE GIRL, BUT MERE WORDS WITHOUT THE BACKING OF INTERCESSORY PRAYERS ARE USELESS.

WHEN HARMONY GOT WORSE, INSTEAD OF PRAYING, SHE ALLOWED BITTERNESS INTO HER HEART AND IT AFFECTED HER PRAYER LIFE. SHE WAS ANGRY WITH HER DAUGHTER, THINKING HER DAUGHTER WAS ACTING ON HER OWN VOLITION.

CRIS, BALAK INVITED BALAAM TO CURSE THE CHILDREN OF ISRAEL AND WHILE BALAAM TRIED AND TRIED AND IT WASN’T WORKING, HE SAID SOMETHING. SOMETHING THAT WE CHRISTIANS DO NOT PAY ATTENTION TO.

“HE SAID, THERE IS BO ENCHANTMENT AGAINST ISRAEL! CRIS WHAT DO YOU UNDERSTAND BY THE WORD ENCHANTMENT?”

I sat up and went in search of my bag. I had purchased the new bible study jotter. I brought it out and wrote as a topic, “spiritual enchantment”.

“Daddy, I’m ready! Teach me more!” I said.

To be continued……

Cris has won two souls in one day. Her passion for God no be here ooo!

So the class continues tomorrow. SPIRITUAL ENCHANTMENT

Hmmmmm! Hope your pen and jotter are ready?

We are going to learn a powerful topic on intercession that would give you burden to pray for souls and those dear to you.

Satan is really destroying alot of people through ignorance.

Get ready!

And remember to pray for me that the heavens grant me more inspiration.

Episode 39

“Enchantment can be defined as an act of overpowering someone through the use of magic or spells or incantations or sorcery. Putting someone under a spell, incantation, fascination, charming”,

“GOOD! YOU HAVE ANSWERED WELL. WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED IN THAT SCRIPTURE DESCRIBES THE TWO FOLD DEMONIC STRATEGY OF ATTACK”.

“Daddy! I’m lost! First, you were talking about Spiritual Enchantment. You have not finished telling me what it is!”

“CALM DOWN DEAR! EVERYTHING I’M SAYING WILL EXPLAIN SPIRITUAL ENCHANTMENT. JUST KEEP WRITING”.

“Okay!”

“FIRST, THE FALSE PROPHET WAS INVITED TO CURSE GOD’S PEOPLE. HE TRIED AND TRIED AND ENDED UP BLESSING THEM. WHY?

BECAUSE THE PEOPLE WERE STANDING IN ALIGNMENT WITH GOD. THEY WERE IN THEIR RIGHT STANDING WITH GOD. THEIR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD WAS STILL INTACT. THAT’S WHY THE CURSES COULDN’T WORK.

WHEN BALAAM KNEW HE WAS LOSING THE BATTLE, HE SWITCHED FORMATION. HE OPTED FOR PLAN B. WHICH IS THE TWO FOLD DEMONIC STRATEGY OF ATTACK.

THE FIRST IS SPIRITUAL ENCHANTMENT. IT’S BRINGING A CHRISTIAN UNDER A DEMONIC SPELL”.

“Daddy! I thought spells only existed in movies?”

“MOST OF THOSE MOVIES ARE MORE SPIRITUAL THAN MERE ENTERTAINMENT. SPELLS EXISTS AND THEY ARE STILL IN USE TODAY.

THE SECOND STRATEGY OF ATTACK IS WHAT I CALL, DEMONIC PROJECTION”.

“Hmmm! Demonic Projection. What does that mean?” I asked.

“IT’S PUTTING THEIR AGENTS AT STRATEGIC PLACES WHERE YOU ARE BOUND TO MEET EACH OTHER”.

“Wow!”

“IF YOU ARE FAMILIAR WITH THE STORY OF BALAAM, YOU WOULD COME ACROSS THAT PART OF THE STORY. WHEN BALAAM SAW HE COULD NOT CURSE GOD’S PEOPLE, HE GAVE THE KING AN ADVICE.

THIS WAS TO SEND THE MOST BEAUTIFUL MOABITE GIRLS INTO THE CAMP OF ISRAEL AND LURE GOD’S PEOPLE INTO IDOL WORSHIPPING. OPEN TO NUMBERS 25:1. READ FROM VERSE ONE TO NINE”.

I quickly opened to the passage and read.

“Verse 1. And Israel abode in Shittim, and the people began to commit whoredom with the daughters of Moab.

Verse 2. And they called the people unto the sacrifices of their gods: and the people did eat, and bowed down to their gods.

Verse 3. And Israel joined himself unto Baalpeor: and the anger of the LORD was kindled against Israel.

Verse 4. And the LORD said unto Moses, Take all the heads of the people, and hang them up before the LORD against the sun, that the fierce anger of the LORD may be turned away from Israel.

Verse 5. And Moses said unto the judges of Israel, Slay ye every one his men that were joined unto Baalpeor.

Verse 6. And, behold, one of the children of Israel came and brought unto his brethren a Midianitish woman in the sight of Moses, and in the sight of all the congregation of the children of Israel, who were weeping before the door of the tabernacle of the congregation.

Verse 7. And when Phinehas, the son of Eleazar, the son of Aaron the priest, saw it, he rose up from among the congregation, and took a javelin in his hand;

Verse 8. And he went after the man of Israel into the tent, and thrust both of them through, the man of Israel, and the woman through her belly. So the plague was stayed from the children of Israel.

Verse 9. And those that died in the plague were twenty and four thousand”.

I sighed deeply.

“Wow! So Balaam ended up destroying twenty four thousand Israelites. This man was wicked. All because of money, fame and power. This is wickedness!” I said frowning.

“THE DEVIL SENDS PARTICULAR PEOPLE INTO YOUR LIFE, WHO PRETEND TO BE FRIENDS BUT ARE ON A MISSION FROM HELL. THAT’S WHAT MOAB DID TO ISRAEL, JUST TO DESTROY THEM. THEY SENT SLAY QUEENS INTO THE CAMP OF ISRAEL AND ENDED UP BRINGING FORNICATION INTO THE CAMP ALONG WITH IDOLATRY.

SOON, GOD HIMSELF HAD TO DESTROY HIS OWN PEOPLE. THAT’S HOW STRATEGIC SATAN IS!” BUT WE CHRISTIANS ARE SAFE AS LONG AS WE OBEY WHATEVER GOD TELLS US TO DO.

“Yes sir!”

“WELL THAT’S FOR THE PLAN B. WHAT WE REALLY WANT TO TALK ABOUT IS, SPIRITUAL ENCHANTMENT.

“Okay sir!”

“SPIRITUAL ENCHANTMENT ARE UTTERANCES MADE ON A CHRISTIAN TO MANIPULATE HIM INTO BEHAVING IN A WAY THAT HE HIMSELF CANNOT EXPLAIN WHY HE BEHAVES THAT WAY.

HAVE YOU HEARD PEOPLE SAY, I DON’T KNOW HOW I ENDED UP DOING IT. I CAN’T EXPLAIN HOW IT HAPPENED. ALL I KNOW IS THAT I FOUND MYSELF UNABLE TO STOP. EVEN WHEN EVERYONE WAS WARNING ME, I JUST COULDN’T STOP.

HAVE YOU HEARD SOMEONE SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT?”

“Yes!” I answered.

“EXACTLY!”

“But Daddy!”

“YES!”

“As Christians, Demonic spells are not supposed to work on a child of God. Am I correct?”

“YES YOU ARE. INFACT THAT WAS WHY BALAAM TRIED AND TRIED BUT COULD NOT CURSE GOD’S PEOPLE. DEMONIC SPELLS AND ENCHANTMENT CANNOT WORK ON A CHRISTIAN WHO IS IN RIGHT STANDING WITH GOD.

OPEN TO ECCLESIASTES CHAPTER 8, VERSE 5. READ THE FIRST PART OF IT”.

I opened to the passage and read.

“Whoso keepeth the commandment shall feel no evil thing…..”, I read.

“OPEN TO CHAPTER TEN OF ECCLESIASTES AND READ THE SECOND PART OF VERSE 8”.

“……whoso breaketh an hedge, a serpent shall bite him”.

“AS A CHRISTIAN YOU ARE UNTOUCHABLE TO THE POWERS OF DARKNESS AS LONG AS THE ENEMY CANNOT FIND THEIR PROPERTY WITH YOU. WHEN WE SIN, WE HAVE TO REPENT IMMEDIATELY. SIN OPENS ALOT OF ACCESS DOORS FOR DEMONS TO CAUSE HAVOC.

WHEN A BELIEVER LIVES IN SIN, HE’S AN EASY PREY FOR THE DEVIL. SATAN CAN EASILY PUT A CHAIN AROUND HIS NECK AND ENSLAVE HIM TO SINFUL HABITS. THESE ARE THE KINDS OF CHRISTIANS SPELLS WORK ON.

SO SPIRITUAL ENCHANTMENT IS LIKE WHEN A CHRISTIAN IS BEWITCHED. WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS? WHY DO YOU BEHAVE LIKE THIS? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?

HE CANNOT EXPLAIN. HE ONLY FINDS HIMSELF DOING IT. THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENS TO OUR LOVED ONES WE REFUSE TO INTERCEDE FOR. OPEN TO GALATIANS CHAPTER THREE, VERSE ONE”.

I opened my Bible and read. I was seriously enjoying the class. I forgot I was supposed to be in bed.

“Galatians 3:1 O foolish Galatians, who hath bewitched you, that ye should not obey the truth, before whose eyes Jesus Christ hath been evidently set forth, crucified among you?”

“CAN YOU SEE FOR YOURSELF?”

“Wow! That’s awesome!” I remarked.

“PAUL WAS ABLE TO DISCERN THAT WHAT WAS HAPPENING TO THESE GALATIANS WAS BEYOND ORDINARY. THESE PEOPLE WERE ONCE FERVENT CHRISTIANS BEFORE. THEY WERE ON FIRE FOR JESUS. SUDDENLY, THEY STARTED MISBEHAVING. THEY STOPPED GOING TO CHURCH. THEY STOPPED EVANGELISM. THEY STOPPED PRAYING. EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM CHANGED.

THEY STARTED CHASING WOMEN AROUND LIKE UNBELIEVERS. THE GIRLS STARTED FOLLOWING BOYS AROUND. EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM CHANGED.

AND YOU KNOW THE USUAL ATTITUDE OF CHRISTIANS. THEY GET ANGRY WITH THESE KIND OF PEOPLE.

“That’s completely true. These kind of Christians are usually frustrating. If you try to preach to them. You become their enemy. If you try to invite them to church, they give alot of flimsy excuses. They can insult you in such a way that a sound believer will start nursing bitterness towards them.

“UNKNOWING TO YOU THAT THEY ARE UNDER SPIRITUAL ENCHANTMENT!”

“Wow! This is a great revelation!”

“INDEED! SO INSTEAD OF PRAYING FOR THEM, WHAT’S THE POPULAR SLANG MOST BELIEVERS USE?”

“Why should I pray for that boy? He’s not serious with his life. If he likes let him continue sleeping around with anything in skirt, it is none of my business. God knows I have warned him. I have done my best.

I can’t waste my prayers in a boy who is so stubborn. I have other things to pray for. He’s an unserious fellow. I don’t hate him. Infact I have forgiven him all the insults he threw at me, but I can’t be wasting my time praying for someone that is not willing to change”.

“EXACTLY CRIS! YOU’RE SO SMART! THAT’S WHAT ALOT OF BELIEVERS DO! AND SATAN WOULD BE AT HIS CORNER ENJOYING THE SHOW!”

“Aah Jesus! My people perish for lack of understanding! Oh Jesus! This is too much! No wonder you said in your word. Love your enemies. Pray for those who persecute you.

We don’t have physical enemies. Those people Satan paints as our enemies are only victims of his demonic spells.

“YES! BECAUSE THAT SAME PAUL WHO WAS SO NOTORIOUS FOR PERSECUTING CHRISTIANS, IF INTERCEDED FOR, CAN BECOME A MIGHTY APOSTLE TOMORROW!”

“Wow! Satan is such a deciever. Just look at how many of us are fooled by the attitude of our Christian brothers and sisters. We start getting angry with them because of their lifestyles, when we should be angry with the Devil and fight on our knees for our loved ones.

We try to talk to them, but our words cannot do anything because a man under a spell has no choice but to follow the bidding of the enchanter”.

“EXACTLY CRIS!”

“Oh Jesus! So this was where Harmony’s mum failed you. She talked and talked to her daughter, thinking words could change her. Sometimes, she yelled at her daughter and quarrelled with her, but to no avail. And when it was time to pray, she allowed bitterness towards her daughter stop her from standing in the gap”.

“YES!”

“So, what about my mentor? Didn’t I also insult her? I called her a crazy woman. I lied to her several times. How did she end up standing in the gap for me?”

“CRIS! YOU OWE THAT WOMAN ALOT. AT FIRST SHE WAS BITTER TOWARDS YOU. IT WAS A STRUGGLE. BUT HER HUSBAND’S PRAYERS CAME TO ME. I HAD TO GO AFTER HER AND TEACH HER ALOT ABOUT FORGIVENESS AND INTERCESSION.

SHE NEVER WANTED TO PRAY FOR YOU AGAIN. BUT I KEPT TALKING TO HER, UNTILL SHE FINALLY AGREED. SHE STOOD IN THE GAP AND BEGAN TO CAST HER SPELLS AS WELL. IT WAS HER PRAYERS THAT MADE CHRIS SO STUPID TO REVEAL HIS SECRET AGENDA TO YOU. IT WAS HER PRAYERS THAT PROVOKED YOUR FATHER-IN-LAW TO DISCOURAGE YOU FROM MARRYING HIS SON.

IT WAS ALL INTERCESSION. THE MOST POWERFUL WAY TO CONTROL THE PHYSICAL REALM IS TO BEND THOSE KNEES IN PRAYERS. YOUR PRAYERS WOULD CONTROL PEOPLE LIKE ROBOTS. HOW YOU ENDED UP OPENING UP TO HER, YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND. SHE HAD BEEN PRAYING THAT YOU DO SO LONG AGO.

SHE HAD ALSO BEEN PRAYING THAT YOU WOULD FULFIL YOUR DESTINY. YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE SO STUBBORN. YOU WANTED TO HAVE YOUR OWN WILL. YOU WANTED TO MARRY CHRIS WHETHER GOD LIKED IT OR NOT. OYA GO AND MARRY NA!”

I burst into laughter.

“Daddy don’t push me oh! I will marry Chris oh! You don’t know what I’m capable of doing!”

“GO AHEAD AND MARRY! YOU HAVE MY BLESSING!”

I laughed so hard that my stomach tightened.

“CRIS AFTER ALL YOUR STRUGGLE. YOUR RISING AND FALLING. HERE YOU ARE! IN THE PRESENCE OF GOD. LEARNING AND GROWING IN GRACE EVERYDAY. GRADUALLY WALKING INTO YOUR CALLING AND PURPOSE IN LIFE. SOMETHING THAT LOOKED SO IMPOSSIBLE TO YOU. BUT THE PRAYERS OF ONE WOMAN MADE ALL THIS POSSIBLE”.

I bowed my head and exhaled.

“Lord! This is too much! I can’t believe you did all these for me!”

To be continued…….

Brethren, who is that person next to you going astray?

You have talked and talked, preached and preached, yet nothing is happening.

Stop the preaching, get down on your knees and fight that god of this world who had blinded their eyes.

When you collect their eyes from him in the realm of the spirit, that’s when you’ll speak to them and their eyes would be opened.

Stop getting angry with them. Fight for them! They are not enemies, but Satan’s victims.

Lord! Give us burden for souls. Keep us on our knees praying that men be drawn to your light.

Rescue the backsliden. Cause us to groan in prayers for the souls sinking in the mirey clay of sin.

Let our prayers ascend into the heavens. Let the wife not relent in praying for her husband. Let the friend never stop praying for her friend and let the mother continue asking God to change the heart of her stubborn son.

Give us more intercessors in Jesus name.

I believe God has spoken to you in this episode. This is a call to a rescue mission. Have you been guilty of this?

Turn from such lifestyle and start saving your loved ones. God is still a life changer. He can turn the worst person today into a mighty Apostle Paul tomorrow.

Episode 40

I laid on my bed, but my eyes were open. I was only waiting for the sound of my quiet time alarm. I kept smiling at intervals. Truth be told, I was on honeymoon.

I kept meditating on all the teaching I had received recently. I was so grateful to God for setting me free through his word.

“So when are you getting married?” Came the question.

I sighed.

I don’t think I’ll be able to find a God fearing man. Even when I find such a man, how do I make him fall in love with me. Recently, I met a new guy. He was son of a general overseer. We met some months ago and exchanged contacts. His name was Harry Balogun.

He told me he liked my personality. He said he loved God fearing women who were also successful in business. I got to meet him yesterday at a meeting I attended.

He was all smiles and welcoming. During the meeting, we both caught ourselves staring at each other. As soon as the meeting was over, we had to say hi to each other.

He called me yesterday evening even after we spoke alot at the meeting. We didn’t speak about anything too important, but I’m a lady for crying out loud. I know when a guy is not straight forward.

He’s a Christian and the son of a well known man of God. I believe we are good together.

Only for Daddy to say

“DON’T TRY ME OH! WHO TOLD YOU THAT ANY MAN CAN BE YOUR HUSBAND? I KNOW HE’S A CHRISTIAN AND A TRUE BELIEVER, BUT HE’S NOT MY WILL FOR YOU. SO DON’T TRY ANYTHING FUNNY!”

So who was my husband?

“THAT’S NOT A TOPIC TO ADDRESS. THAT SHOULD BE SO FAR FROM YOUR MIND RIGHT NOW. CRIS YOU ARE SERIOUSLY GROWING IN GRACE AND WHEN GROWING, THERE ARE THINGS THAT ARE NOT NEEDED IN YOUR LIFE”.

“I don’t understand!”

“HMMMMM!” BABY GIRL, LISTEN TO ME. JUST DO WHAT I SAID AND STOP TRYING TO GIVE IN TO THE DESIRES OF THE FLESH. I’LL ADDRESS YOUR QUESTIONS IN TOMORROW’S APPOINTMENT!”

Soon my quiet time alarm rang and I got up immediately. I switched it off and laid in the bed again.

“CRIS! WHAT HAPPENED? ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO BE IN BED?” Came the gentle whisper.

“I’m sorry! I just need to stretch my back a little!” I replied.

I knew I was not supposed to return to bed, but I don’t just know what was wrong with me. I just kept telling myself I would get up soon. Fifteen minutes passed and I wasn’t ready to get up yet. Just a little more sleep, I’ll soon be up.

“WHAT ABOUT THOSE THINGS YOU WERE TAUGHT ABOUT TIREDNESS AND SATAN’S SCHEMES AGAINST YOUR SPIRITUAL LIFE?”

“Don’t worry daddy! I’ll be fine! I won’t miss my quiet time. Just let me rest a little, please!”

Daddy went mute and my peace left me. What was wrong with me. Cris, please get up and stop this nonsense. Oh my God! What is the meaning of all these?

I was feeling an inner struggle within me. My spirit and my flesh warred to fulfill their desires. I knew I was losing the battle. With all the knowledge I had, Satan was about to tell me he was smarter. With all the revelations, I was still as helpless as someone who was ignorant of the devices of the Devil.

When I noticed all these, I said within me.

“Lord, please show me mercy! Don’t allow me enemies triumph over me! Daddy please help me. I know I have been taught. But I don’t know what is wrong with me!”

Then a scripture came.

“Romans 9:16. So then it is not of him that willeth, nor of him that runneth, but of God that sheweth mercy”.

Then I began to ask for mercy within me.

“God, I’m trapped in my flesh. Please pull me. Show me mercy!”

Another scripture came.

“Romans 10:13. For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved”.

“Lord save me!” I prayed within me.

Soon, I became pressed. I tried to ignore it but it kept getting stronger and difficult to hold. I didn’t want to get up, but the need to empty my bladder was forcing me.

When it became unbearable, I got up from the bed and entered the restroom to relieve myself. As soon as I was through, I returned to the room and laid down to rest a little bit.

Immediately I laid down, my bladders became full again. I don’t understand. I had just finished urinating. Could this be diabetes? I wasn’t that sugar consuming person. Why the sudden excessive urination?

I decided to ignore it and continue with my rest. I noticed my Daddy was silent. It got me worried, but I just wanted to get enough rest first. I would solve that matter later. Let me attend to my body.

Soon, the pain was so unbearable. I climbed down from the bed and entered the restroom. As soon as I was done, I returned to the room and was climbing the bed again.

‘IF YOU TRY ME THIS MORNING! I’LL DEAL WITH YOU!” I heard within me.

I paused and looked around for a while.

“SO YOU DIDN’T UNDERSTAND IT WAS ME DRAGGING YOU ALL THESE WHILE ABI? YOU ARE WAITING FOR ME TO COME AND TURN YOUR MATTRESS UPSIDE DOWN BEFORE YOU UNDERSTAND!”

It was the first time he was using an angry tone on me. How did I know he was angry? I can’t explain, but I just knew daddy was annoyed with me. He wasn’t talking like he usually did.

So he was the one filling my bladder all these while? All I could think about was diabetes. Cris! You need flogging.

I went down on my knees and began to ask him to forgive me.

“Daddy! I’m so sorry! I can’t believe I was this stupid!”

“CRIS, TO WHOM MUCH IS GIVEN, MUCH IS REQUIRED. I GAVE YOU SO MUCH, I NEVER EXPECTED THIS FROM YOU!”

“I’m sorry Dad! I won’t do this ever again. I’m so sorry!” I prayed.

Soon, I switched into tongues. I Kept praying and praying untill I felt peace within me. But I was still feeling the heat of his annoyance.

“REMEMBER I TOLD YOU I WAS GOING TO CONTINUE YOUR CLASS ON THE SONGS OF SOLOMON?”

“Yes sir!”

“NOW OPEN TO CHAPTER TWO AND READ VERSE FIFTEEN!”

I quickly opened it and read.

“Take us the foxes, the little foxes, that spoil the vines: for our vines have tender grapes”.

I exhaled and nodded my head.

“Little foxes!”

“IN THOSE DAYS WHEN FOXES INVADED VINEYARDS, THEY WOULD DIG A HOLE OUTSIDE THE WALLS OF THE VINEYARD. THE HOLE WOULD LEAD STRAIGHT INTO THE VINEYARD. THEN THEY WOULD EAT TO THEIR SATISFACTION AND LEAVE THE FARM THROUGH THE HOLE THEY DUG”.

“Wow!”

“THE MAN PRAYED TO GOD TO TAKE AWAY THE LITTLE FOXES THAT SPOILED THE GRAPES, BECAUSE HE HAD TENDER GRAPES. GRAPES THAT WERE STILL GERMINATING AND THESE FOXES WERE NOT READY TO WAIT FOR THESE GRAPES TO MATURE. THEY JUST DON’T WANT TO SEE ANY GRAPES IN THAT FARM.

THAT’S YOUR SPIRITUAL LIFE CRIS! YOU’RE STILL GROWING AND THE GRAPES OF YOUR SPIRITUAL LIFE ARE STILL BUDDING. BUT THE FOXES, THE DEMONS, ARE NOT READY TO STAND BY AND WATCH YOU GROW. THEY ARE SERIOUSLY DIGGING A WHOLE INTO YOUR SPIRITUAL LIFE TO EAT UP EVERYTHING THAT HAD GROWN OVER TIME.

THAT’S WHAT THEY BROUGHT THIS YOUNG MAN HARRY TO DO IN YOUR LIFE. LISTEN TO ME. A CHRISTIAN LIFE THAT IS STILL GROWING CANNOT GO INTO A RELATIONSHIP.

STOP TRYING TO WASTE YOUR TIME. EMOTIONS ARE VERY POWERFUL, ONCE YOU START HAVING FEELINGS FOR THAT YOUNG MAN, IT’S GOING TO AFFECT YOUR SPIRITUAL LIFE. THIS IS NOT THE TIME TO GO INTO A RELATIONSHIP.

CRIS, I NEED YOU TO FOCUS. WHAT’S THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO YOU RIGHT NOW? THAT’S WHAT YOU’RE DOING NOW. YOUR SPIRITUAL LIFE! THAT’S THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN THE WORLD TO YOU. BUILD IT, TREASURE IT, DON’T TRADE IT FOR ANYTHING.

BELIEVE ME, WHEN YOU’RE READY FOR A RELATIONSHIP, I WOULD PERSONALLY BRING YOUR MAN FOR YOU. DON’T WASTE THIS PERIOD OF PREPARATION. BECAUSE IF YOU DON’T PREPARE, GOD’S PROMISES WOULD MEET YOU UNPREPARED.

SO DELAY IS ACTUALLY MERCY. I PROMISED THE ISRAELITES THE LAND OF CANAAN. BUT THEY WERE NEVER PREPARED FOR IT. THAT’S WHY THEY WERE THE WORST SET OF ISRAELITES YOU EVER SAW IN THE BIBLE. THEY DIDN’T PREPARE THEMSELVES BY KNOWING GOD.

THEY DIDN’T KNOW GOD PERSONALLY. THEY WERE JUST FOLLOWING THE LEADERSHIP OF MOSES. IN THE JOURNEY OF CHRISTIANITY, THERE ALWAYS COMES A TIME WHEN YOUR PERSONAL FAITH IN GOD WOULD BE TRIED. THAT WAS WHAT HAPPENED. THE GIANTS AND THE IMPOSSIBLITIES IN THE LAND OF CANAAN WERE ONLY A TEST OF THEIR FAITH IN MY ABILITY TO PROTECT AND KEEP MY WORD.

ONLY TWO MEN TOOK OUT THEIR TIME TO BUILD THEIR SPIRITUAL LIVES, JOSHUA AND CALEB. AND WHEN EVERYONE SANK, THEIR KNOWLEDGE OF GOD AND THE LEVEL TO WHICH THEY HAD BUILT THEIR SPIRITUAL LIVES PAID BACK. THEY STOOD FIRMLY BECAUSE WHILE, ALL THE ISRAELITES SAW THEMSELVES AS GRASSHOPPERS IN THE EYES OF THOSE GIANTS. CALEB SAW THEM AS BREAD.

THAT’S WHY I HAD NO CHOICE THAN TO TAKE THEM BACK TO THE RED SEA, TO START THE JOURNEY AFRESH. THOSE 40 YEARS, WERE 40 YEARS OF TRAINING FOR THE NEXT GENERATION. THEY WERE 40 YEARS OF BUILDING THEIR SPIRITUAL LIVES FOR THEIR MISSION IN THE PROMISED LAND. TO WIPE AWAY ALL THOSE IDOL WORSHIPPING NATIONS FROM THE LAND.

SO I WAS TRAINING THEM FOR THE TASK AHEAD. TEACHING THEM HOW TO FIGHT AND KILL AN OPPONENT IN THE BATTLE FIELD. THOSE 40 YEARS MADE THOSE ISRAELITES WARRIORS UNDEFEATABLE.

SO DELAY IS MERCY. IMAGINE IF DAVID DID NOT USE HIS PERIOD OF INTIMACY WITH GOD TO MASTER HOW TO SHOOT HIS CATERPULT WITHOUT MISSING, WOULD HE HAVE BEEN ABLE TO SHOOT GOLIATH DOWN ON THAT FAITHFUL DAY?”

“No!” I answered.

“YOUR PERIOD OF WAITING ON GOD, BUILDING YOUR SPIRITUAL LIFE, SINGLEHOOD MUST NOT BE WASTED. GOD IS PREPARING YOU FOR SOMETHING AHEAD OF YOU. SOMETHING BIG AND GLORIOUS. BUT YOU MUST MEET YOUR DESTINY AS A PREPARED MAN. NOT HALF DONE OR UNDER PREPARED. BECAUSE IF YOU DO, YOU WOULD HAVE TO GO BACK AND START ALL-OVER FROM THE RED SEA.

“Daddy! What are these foxes?”

“ANYTHING DRAINING YOUR SPIRITUAL LIFE IS A FOX. RELATIONSHIP AT THE WRONG TIME WITH THE WRONG PERSON, SLEEP, MOVIES AND ENTERTAINMENT, EXCUSES, PROCASTINATION, INCONSISTENCY IN YOUR QUIET TIME, FEAR, WORRY AND LOT’S MORE.

IDENTIFY THOSE THINGS THAT USUALLY DRAIN YOUR SPIRITUAL LIFE. THEY ARE THE FOXES EATING THE FRUITS OF THE HOLY SPIRIT GERMINATING IN YOUR SPIRITUAL LIFE. PRAY AGAINST THEM AND NULLIFY THEIR POWER AND GRIP OVER YOUR LIFE”.

I went down on my knees and began to blast in tongues.

“Lord take away the foxes! Everything in me that is eating up my spiritual fruits! Everything in me eating up the fruits of the Holy Spirit in me, be crushed in the name of Jesus.

Lord I come against the powers of darkness digging a hole, trying to break into my spiritual life, to steal from me, to kill what you have brought back to life and to destroy my destiny. Be destroyed in the name of Jesus.

Satan you are a failure. You are not going to succeed in my life. You will never celebrate in triumph over Christiana Kolapo in the name of Jesus!”

To be continued……

Can you all join Cris in praying these prayers?”

Episode 41

“Cynthia, please help me go through those documents!” I told my secretary.

“Okay ma!” She said and began to open the documents.

I turned to my laptop on the table and continued typing the letter to one of our reputable customers.

My office phone rang and I picked it up. My receptionist said Harmony was here to see me. What could be the reason?

“Please send her in!” I replied and dropped the telephone. Soon, the door opened and she walked in.

“Good morning sister! How are you and how was your night?” I asked.

“It was awesome! Thank you ma!”

I smiled, “You’re welcome”.

She turned to say hi to Cynthia, when I went further to ask.

“So how was your quiet time?”

She looked at me with shock written on her face.

“My quiet time?” She asked as though she didn’t hear me.

“Yes! How was it?”

“Hmmmmm! It’s a long story ma!”

I looked up at her. My face gave the look of I need your explanation.

She looked at me and exhaled.

“It’s a long story ma. Something we can’t say in brief,” she replied.

I wanted to tell her to meet me later, but my lips paused as I attempted saying that. I noticed these things happened to me perpetually. Maybe, I want to go somewhere or something. As soon as I got up to move, my legs would pause in their tracks.

When I stopped, that’s when I would hear within me that I should not go. Sometimes I would want to say something, then I would notice the same thing happening. When I would listen to the inner voice, that’s when I would hear that daddy doesn’t want me to say that.

So I understood and smiled.

“I have time!” I said, closing the laptop screen.

She looked at me, a bit shocked by my actions. I nodded looked at the chair in front of me and she got the message. While my secretary was busy with the documents, I started the conversation with Harmony.

“So tell me, what’s the challenge?” I asked quietly, trying to get the conversation in low tones, because I was not ready to dismiss my secretary. But Harmony didn’t coperate with me. She spoke to the hearing of everyone in the room.

“Ma! I do pray ooo. Thanks for all you taught me about prayer and how to discipline the body. I really appreciate. But the struggle is too much. Today, I’m praying, tomorrow is something different. I’ll get up and pray, but as I’m praying, all I feel is tiredness.

I struggle and struggle and when I cannot continue, I go back to sleep. By the time I wake up, it’s already dawn. I would feel so guilty that day and moody throughout the day. I don’t know why it’s like that. I tried and tried, but I always see myself struggling.

Ma! Sometimes I would wake up ooo. But to get up from the bed Ehn! Wahala! I will just tell myself that maybe a little sleep would help me regain my strength and sleep a little. By the time I wake up, it’s too late. I’m not happy with the turn out of all these. I want a consistent relationship with God. But I don’t know why it’s so difficult to have.

Ma! Please can you help me?” She asked.

“Me too!” My secretary said.

We both turned to her direction.

“I’m tired of struggling. Today, I’m strong, tomorrow I’m skipping quiet time. Today I’ll pray very well, tomorrow, I’ll be struggling with sleep.

There’s a question I used to ask. Can’t God give us the power to pray and keep our quiet time? Why must he allow us to continue struggling? I pray to him to give me grace to pray and it’s as if he’s happy watching me struggle. At least, when I cry to God for grace to pray when I’m struggling, I expect something to happen. But I keep struggling and feel so tired and weak.

I’ll have no other choice than to rest a little so I don’t collapse. I just want to be free from all these.

I’m sorry for interrupting, but I believe this discussion started because of me. What can I do?” She asked.

I exhaled.

“Daddy oya ooo!” I said within me.

“YOU KNOW HOW TO DO IT?”

“I don’t know anything oooo!”

“I MEAN, YOU KNOW HOW TO ACCESS ME WHEN YOU NEED TO SPEAK MY WORD!”

“No sir!”

“IT’S SIMPLE! OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND I WILL FILL IT! FOR IT IS NOT YOU THAT SPEAKS, BUT THE SPIRIT OF YOUR FATHER SPEAKING THROUGH YOU!”

I exhaled and began.

“Let’s look at the Holy scriptures. Open to Judges 16. Let’s read from verse 26.

I brought out my phone and opened it. They did the same and I read aloud.

“Samson said to the young man who was acting as his guide, “Put me where I can touch the pillars that hold up the temple so I can rest against them.”

Verse 27. The building was packed with men and women, including all the Philistine tyrants. And there were at least 3,000 in the stands watching Samson’s performance.

Verse 28. And Samson cried out to God: Master, God! Oh, please, look on me again, Oh, please, give strength yet once more. God! With one avenging blow let me be avenged On the Philistines for my two eyes!

Verse 29. Then Samson reached out to the two central pillars that held up the building and pushed against them, one with his right arm, the other with his left.

Verse 30. Saying, “Let me die with the Philistines,” Samson pushed hard with all his might. The building crashed on the tyrants and all the people in it. He killed more people in his death than he had killed in his life”.

I looked at them and their faces said it all. How does what we just read have anything to do with the questions they asked?

I smiled.

“Sisters, I want you to know something about building your relationship with God. Building your spiritual life is first discipline. Truth be told, God helps to pray. Strength from nowhere comes through the spirit within you. He is a quickening spirit. The spirit of life and grace. He empowers your physical body to do what he wants you to do. But can I ask you a question?”

They nodded on affirmation.

“If I send money to you through transfer into your account, would that money automatically appear in your palms?”

“No!” They chorused.

“That’s exactly what discipline is all about. God has done everything for you. Everything you need to be who you ought to be in Christ Jesus is loaded in the person of the Holy Spirit. The moment you received the Holy Spirit when you gave your life to Christ, you had everything. The grace that has no impossiblities attached to it, was released into your life.

But his grace doesn’t come to you if you don’t go for it. Just as you would need to get up and appear before the ATM machine or POS center and withdraw what your heavenly father has sent into your account.

God has sent you the grace to observe your quiet time. The grace to be consistent in prayers and bible study. But he’s not going to tap you and drag you out of your house to the ATM machine. You’ll have to do that for yourself. That’s where discipline comes in.

I know you want a kind of magic powers. Something that you don’t need to go through the pain of discipline. You get up and start the prayers and energy flows like magic. But that’s not how it works.

Now look at Samson. Let’s read the last verse again.

Judges 16:30. Saying, “Let me die with the Philistines,” Samson pushed hard with all his might. The building crashed on the tyrants and all the people in it. He killed more people in his death than he had killed in his life.

He pushed how?” I asked.

“Hard”, they answered in unison.

“Some translations said, he pushed with everything in him. Am I correct?”

They nodded in affirmation.

“Who brought the house down? Was it Samson or God?”

“It was God!”

“Why was God able to bring the house down?”

“Because Samson pushed the pillars with all the strength he had in him”, Harmony answered.

“Hebrews 10:38. Now the just shall live by faith: but if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him.

Samson pushed with all his strength, then God’s grace took over from where his strength ended. Those who give up at the slightest difficulty. Those who back out would never see God’s grace in the place of prayer.

Now let me tell you a mystery. When you’re praying and your flesh is getting weak. Don’t listen to it. When you kneel down to pray or stand on your feet and all your body aches so badly, that’s not the time to quit. You try your best and all your body tells you is to go back to bed. You have lost the battle.

There’s something in the realm of the spirit called COALS OF FIRE. When prayers ascend into the heavens and those prayers have reached a level called COALS OF FIRE, something dramatic happens.

In the bible, Isaiah said in the year King Uzziah died, he saw God. It was in the realm of prayers. He was on his knees praying when his prayers got to the realm of the coals of fire.

What happens at this realm is not particularly seeing of visions. But this realm is a realm where supernatural experiences that changes one’s life forever occurs. Some see visions, some experience God physically. Like they begin to feel God around in the room. If God touched their shoulder, they would know.

At this point, the power of darkness that holds one captive to sinful habits, inconsistency in the place of intimacy, compromising perpetually and everything that a person struggles with as a Christian is completely destroyed.

Isaiah had a weakness. He had a bad mouth. He could speak unclean words so much that as a prophet, it remained his weakness. But that day, a supernatural surgery in the realm of the spirit happened.

Just a touch from the coals of fire on his lips, his addiction died a natural death. His weakness was gone forever. His struggling with his Spiritual life ended completely.

But you don’t understand this. That’s what we Christians miss. We don’t understand we’re about to break into a supernatural realm through our consistency. We think it’s weakness. We think it our bodies, but it’s more spiritual than physical.

It’s war! The spirit an the flesh have drawn their swords and gone into battle with each other and do you know who is winning?”

“The flesh!” Harmony answered.

“No! The spirit!” I answered.

They looked at me with shock written on their faces.

“So, how can we get into this realm?”

“I’ll teach you?”

To be continued…….

Hmmm! I kept asking, why the struggles? Why the inconsistency? Why the difficulty?

And God showed up with the answer

I’m tired of struggling. Today, I’m strong, tomorrow I’m skipping quiet time. Today I’ll pray very well, tomorrow, I’ll be struggling with sleep.

If that’s your experience, don’t miss the next episode.

Get your pen and jotter tomorrow

The lecture continues…..

Episode 42

“How to access the spiritual realm? That’s not truly the issue. In the spirit realm there’s what we call PRINCIPLES. What are they. They are the laws that controls and govern the spiritual and physical realm. Principles are so powerful that you don’t need God to activate them. You only need to be spiritual or obey them, to activate them.

For example, as a student. You need to study your books in order to pass exams and come out in flying colours. It’s not a matter of I’m born again or not. If a born again is not wise enough to obey this Principle of diligence. Even a sinner would live a more wealthy and successful life than the man that claims he has Jesus. It’s not a curse, it’s the principle that controls the earth.

Proverbs 22:29. Seest thou a man diligent in his business? he shall stand before kings; he shall not stand before mean men.

It didn’t say, seest thou a Christian diligent in his business. It said a man and a person without Jesus in his life, is also a man. So, if it’s the sinner that is diligent between the two of them, in sorry to inform you. He’s going to be a he one this scripture will work for.

So you can have Jesus in your life and be as poor as poverty. Painfully, Jesus would watch you die a poor man. It’s not a curse. Abraham and Lazarus both made heaven. But there was a difference between the two men. Abraham was wealthy while he was on earth, but Lazarus was a sick beggar.

It’s about the principles. If a sinner who doesn’t have Jesus in his or her life is wise enough to align with these principles. He’ll be successful and wealthy than the man that claims he knows the word of God. That’s why sometimes, it looks as if herbalists and witch doctors, womanizers and godless men are doing well than Christians.

A witch doctor will be awake by twelve midnight everyday. He never misses it. A Christian would be busy snoring, while the witch doctor prepares an accident in the night for his mother. He wakes up and prays for 5 minutes, reads one verse in the bible and start preparing for work. The witch doctor spend two hours negotiating the life of his mother. You want to counter it with 5 minutes prayer.

The laziness of Christians in this generation is so alarming. Darkness seems to be more powerful and dominating. It’s because we are no longer watchers. No wonder Prophet Isaiah said in, Isaiah 56:10 His watchmen are blind: they are all ignorant, they are all dumb dogs, they cannot bark; sleeping, lying down, loving to slumber.

We like sleep so much. We like comfort so much. We don’t realize we are in a battlefield. We are too careless with our spiritual life. A witch doctor who would never miss his appointment with Lucifer and a Christian who is so unserious with God, who would carry power?

These are the principles. I’m not saying a herbalist is stronger than a Christian. I’m saying that in principles, whoever aligns with the laws, gets the results, whether it came from God or the devil. So if the witch doctor is the only one obeying the principles of spiritual power, I’m so sorry to announce, he’ll get the power, while you continue snoring on your bed.

He’ll be shaking your territory and winning souls to hell, while you a Christian is still there. The question is how do you access a realm in the spirit? It’s simple. Through discipline.

Discipline is the key to accessing spiritual realms. Everything about spirituality starts with discipline. Remember Cornelius in the bible. He was always praying everyday and giving alms consistently. He wasn’t a child of Abraham. But he was consistent in the place of prayers till he knelt down to pray one day and his consistency opened a door in the realm of the spirit called SPIRITUAL NETWORKING”.

The ladies looked at me like I had gone crazy. I was also shocked at myself by what I was saying. Was I truly the one speaking? I don’t think so anymore. Someone else was doing the talking because the normal me had no idea of what I was saying. I never knew these things before. I just saw them coming out of my mouth.

“Yes, he accessed the realm of spiritual networking because the angel gave him accurate geographical location. The angel gave him Peter’s name, the town he presently resided in, the name of the man hosting him, the occupation of the man as well. That’s spiritual networking. Gathering information about someone else through the instrumentality of intimacy.

Discipline is the key. First when you are trying to build your prayer life, you face alot of struggle. It normal because the body is not used to stuffs like that. So you’re bound to face difficulty in that area. But as you persist, something happens in the spiritual realm, it’s called THE LAW OF SPIRITUAL ASCENSION. You begin to soar like the eagle just as the scriptures said in Isaiah 40:31. But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

It’s by waiting upon the Lord perpetually, consistently and faithfully. Unknown to you, your spiritual wings are growing gradually. You begin to see yourself out of this world. You begin to see the things of this world no longer matter to you anymore. You don’t struggle to get things anymore. You just see yourself desiring God more and more.

But you’ll never get into any realm in the spirit without discipline. Even the first class student today has a track record of consistent studying. Am I correct?”

“Yes ma!” They answered in unison.

“The first class student reads everyday. Reads before the semester begins. Reads at night. Reads during the day, reads consistently. Why can’t we just understand and do this? Why can’t we be as mad as the Devil himself and be consistent? Why are we easily decieved by the feelings from our physical bodies?

Have you forgotten the law of controversy between the flesh and the spirit of man? The flesh is the antagonist, while the spirit is the protagonist. The flesh always fights against what the spirit wants and the best way he achieves it is through fear and deception.

He ensures you are afraid and decieved by how you feel. He does this to keep you under his domain and control.

Now I said something about the spiritual realm of prayer called the coals of fire. One thing I need to tell you about the flesh is that the flesh also understands better than your spirit man. The reason why I said that is because, the devil feeds it with information”.

I could see shock on their faces.

“Cris what are you saying? Please stop na!” I said within me.

What am I turning into? I don’t understand how I got here.

“Listen let me explain properly. Why is it that the day you are so tired to pray and you forced yourself to pray. You said I must pray whether my body likes it or not, that’s the day something unforgettable happens to you?”

“Wow!” Harmony exclaimed.

“It’s because the enemy has seen it and your flesh being a partner with the Satan, wants to stop you. As I said earlier, the day you’re praying and you feel so tired to pray, that’s the day you need alot of prayers.

Because as I said earlier, when you’re approaching realms in the spirit, through consistency, the flesh feels threatened. He knows he’s losing power and control over you. So the only way it can reactivate his power in you is by tapping into that dimension of morality in the soul of a man called UNGODLY SYMPATHY.

“Jesus! Cris!”

“Calm down! I’ll explain what ungodly sympathy is”, I replied.

“Cris small small, your head dey hot ooo!” I said within me.

“WHO OWNS YOUR HEAD? CONTINUE JARE!” Came the gentle whisper.

“Have your boyfriend ever asked you to give him your body before and as a Christian, you refused. But later, he started begging you, pleading and doing alot to make you comfortable. Soon you felt like you were wicked to deny him your body and allowed him. Has that ever happened to you before?” I asked Harmony.

“Yes!”

“That’s ungodly sympathy. Sometimes it happens to students. Cheating in school to help a friend who didn’t prepare well for his or her exams. They beg you to help them. They plead with you to allow them copy from you and you felt like you would be wicked to deny them. That’s ungodly sympathy. Sometimes, everyone planned to tell a lie to get out of trouble in your place of work. You didn’t want to join them as a Christian to lie, but they start begging you to cooperate. Those friends who you respect so dearly. Those people you cannot say no to, start begging you. And you start feeling you would be a wicked person to say no to their demand. That’s ungodly sympathy. It’s only morality.

Now the flesh uses this to weaken discipline in your life and destroy your consistency. He starts making you feel you’re not taking good care of the body. You’re only concerned with Spirituality, at least sleep a little.

As you’re praying, it will keep telling you you’re tired and as long as you believe you are, you start feeling tired. So while the prayers is going on, you’re struggling with the thought of whether you should go back to bed or continue the prayers. And the flesh is usually loud at this point.

So while the prayers is going on, you’re struggling. You’re feeling pains all over your body. You start praying and you find yourself dozing. Your spirit will tell you stand up and stop sitting down to avoid the sleep. But the flesh would quickly tell you that you can handle it. Just by shaking your leg consistently as you pray. But it’s deception. Soon, you doze off again and when you somehow wake up, flesh continues. Instead of getting up to pray, why not rest tonight ? Can’t you see you’re so tired? Skip today and go to bed. Don’t worry, you’ll wake up later to continue.

That’s how you skip it and miss that door you ought to access.

“Oh my God!” Cynthia said.

“And do you know what?” I asked.

“No ma!” She replied.

“It’s very frustrating to keep praying and praying and yet, no result. So such a person starts using comments like this. ‘I’m tired! I’ve tried and tried, yet, nothing is working’. Nothing would work, because even the bible says in James 1:6. But let him ask in faith, not wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed.

Verse 7. For let not that man think that he shall receive any thing of the Lord.

Verse 8. A double minded man is unstable in all his ways.

The bible says that the inconsistent Christian should never think he will receive anything from God. What a frustrated man. What wickedness from the pit of hell. One month of consistency and you back out for just one day is enough to start afresh”.

“Jesus!” Harmony shouted and went on her knees pouring out her heart to God.

Cynthia was already speaking in aggressive tongues.

I looked around and went down on my knees to pray.

To be continued……

Is anyone praying already or are you just reading this for reading sake?

Go ahead and pray aggressively.

Lord help me to discipline my flesh consistently. Do not allow me to miss the day of my visitation. At the point where my prayers is about to yield a positive result, may that day not be the day I’m backing out to sleep.

Proverbs 6:9. How long wilt thou sleep, O sluggard? when wilt thou arise out of thy sleep?

Verse 10. Yet a little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands to sleep:

Verse 11. So shall thy poverty come as one that travelleth, and thy want as an armed man.

That’s how Satan penetrates, just a little. A little! Not much! Rest a little bit! Close your eyes a little! Stretch your back small.

Please brethren pray!

Episode 43

“On your mark, set, go!” I shouted.

We all took off. Tina, Joseph and I ran. I had invited my mentor and her kids for a hang out. We were all at the playground in my estate having a picnic under the trees.

We had eaten and chatted for a while, when Joseph suggested a race. It was just between him and Tina, but I decided to participate.

“Aunty Rhema! You can’t run!” He said and they all laughed at me.

I worked out twice in a week when I wasn’t born again. I hardly had time to work out these days. I read in my Bible that bodily exercise had little profit. Although there’s nothing bad with exercise, but I had not given it much attention like I did before.

They didn’t know I was capable. I’m going to shock them today.

I took off my slippers and went on the grass bare footed. Soon we were all set to run. My mentor kept laughing uncontrollably and that was why she couldn’t call the numbers. I had to do it myself.

We ran as fast as we could. Joseph and I left Tina way behind. I got to admit, the teenager was pretty strong, but my training had given me an advantage over him. Putting a little more of my strength into the race, I was a step ahead of him.

Soon I was giving him a little gap. By the time the race was over, I was declared the winner.

Tina took my victory so personal. It was as though she was the winner. She kept declaring that the girls were the winners.

“You guys keep saying boys are better than girls. Look! A girl beat you in a race”, she said.

“It’s not a boys versus girls competition. It’s just a race”, Joseph tried to tell his sister, but she wasn’t buying it.

“You boys lost the competition. Ladies are always capable of anything. You think we are limited but we’re not. We are so capable and full of surprises!” she argued.

“Calm down!” I said catching my breath.

“Cris is seriously a strong woman”, my mentor said.

“Yes ooo! I want to be like her!” Tina said.

“Don’t say that ooo! Can you work out every week?” I asked.

She looked at me with those huge eye balls that showed she was surprised.

“My days of consistently working on my body is what paid me off today. These exercises build strength and stamina. That’s what made my performance today wonderful. You can’t compare someone who gave his body attention to someone who slept throughout the week or sat down to watch television”.

Everyone laughed.

“But I really can’t remember the last time I watched television ooo!”

I looked at him with shock written on my face.

“You must be joking!”

“No I’m serious! I haven’t sat down on front of a TV for months now”.

“Wow! That’s unbelievable! What do you do with most of your time?” I asked.

He exhaled and let out a smile.

“Na prayers we dey chop ooo. Prayers and the word of God. I mum sat us down and told us about her secondary school days. I want mine to be the same”.

I turned to take a glance at my mentor. She smiled and looked away. We both understood what that meant. She had stories to tell me by the time we were through with the kids.

We were still discussing when the gate of my estate opened and three cars drove in. I had completely forgotten my appointment with Harmony and Cynthia.

After that day in my office, we decided to meet everyday for bible study and prayers. It was a special time for us. We talked about our spiritual lives and the progress we had made so far. We counseled and prayed together.

This had continued for two weeks. Soon, we became five in number. Harmony suggested we come to my place during the weekend for a Bible study and I agreed. That’s why they’re here right now. I forgot all about it and now, it’s clashing with my get together with my mentor.

But wait a second, I invited Harmony and Cynthia. Why were there 3 cars?

Harmony, Cynthia and two other girls came out of one of the cars. All the people who came out of the remaining cars were complete strangers. Now we had twelve persons attending bible study. I had to pull Harmony aside and ask how where the extra persons came from.

“I’m sorry ma! I just couldn’t eat this bread alone. I had to invite them. I’m not a stringy person by nature. I always love sharing what I have with others I see passing through the same challenge. I’m sorry I just couldn’t keep quiet. I told them about Aunty Rhema and all God had been teaching me through her. They were so amazed by the revelations I shared with them, I mean the ones you taught us and decided to come with me.

Please, we are all here to eat of the bread God has placed in your hands for this generation. Don’t send us away because we’re much in number. Give us the bread. You cannot have it and chose to watch all these ladies starve”.

Why was Harmony always calling this stuff the bread? If she had a clue to my dreams, she wouldn’t continue using that word. It was as if she was there in my dreams. She kept saying almost everything that was spoken in that dream. Was this intentional or was daddy pressing buttons somewhere?

I was thinking about what to do with the crowd, when a scripture dropped in my spirit.

John 6:37. All that the Father giveth me shall come to me; and him that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out.

I understood the message clearly and smiled.

My mentor called my attention as the girls joined us on the blanket we had spread on the grass. I had signalled Evelyn to get us more blankets.

“Cris! You told me it was only five of your staffs at your place of work. Where did the crowd spring out from?” She asked.

“I’m amazed myself. They were all invited”, I answered.

“Wow! My baby girl don turn Lady Apostle ooo! So you’re going to teach all these people the word of God, right?”

“Actually ma, I was thinking as you are here and as a reputable woman of God……”

“Hold it!” She interrupted.

“Don’t even go there!” She said and turned to take her leave.

“You are going to feed that crowd and nothing would change that”, she said and left.

I exhaled and smiled to myself.

“It’s up to you Dad! The hour has come!” I said within me.

“GO AND FEED THOSE HUNGRY SOULS!” Came the gentle whisper.

I smiled and called their attention. I started with an opening prayer and began to speak to them.

It was an awesome time in God’s presence. The meeting was so powerful. I didn’t know where those words I spoke sprang up from.

In the evening when everyone had left, my mentor called me and told me to sit down.

“Cris! I’m amazed by everything I saw. I can’t believe my baby girl had grown so fast”.

“Na chop chop dey make pikin dey grow na!” I said in laughter.

“That’s wonderful! Anyway, I have something in mind and I’ve been praying to God on how it should be carried out. God laid something in my heart, but I’ve not been able to carry it out effectively because of the lack of capable hands helping me”.

With the kind of expression on her face, I was curious to get to the end of it. What was she saying? In what way can I be of help to my mentor?

“Cris! I have been planning a singles meeting. A meeting meant for only sisters. I have been asking God for someone to help me look after these single sisters. My schedule has been so full. My itinerary is well loaded. I won’t have time to take care of these young ones.

I have been asking God to help me carry out this assignment. And I sought his face prayerfully. My heart grieves alot whenever I counsel young people who are struggling with the wrong relationship. Alot of future mothers without a praying altar. A lot of young ladies who don’t know what is quiet time. They don’t know how to seek God’s face in choosing a life partner.

Many young people in the body of Christ are not taught the principles of the kingdom. No quiet time, no personal bible study, no fervent and consistent relationship with God. Tomorrow, this prayerless Christian girl or this girl struggling with her prayer life will become a mother of 2 kids. And through her prayerlessness, Satan will hijack their destinies. Turn one of her children into a masturbator and turn the other to a hypocritical Christian.

All these sisters asking God for martial settlement without Spiritual settlement. Sisters who want a godly home, but don’t have a prayer altar. That’s why alot of Christian families produce godless children today.

I want the next generation to be taught. I want them to be introduced into the principles of the kingdom. The ignorance of Christian ladies in this generation is too much. We cannot allow Satan to continue taking advantage of this ignorance in the body of Christ.

Many of them are just confused. Some don’t know their calling or destiny and they’re about to get married. So many things that the body of Christ need to know concerning destiny and marriage. So many things to teach them,

Cris, all I could do is to prepare for the chosen one. God had told me that he only placed the burden in my heart so I could prayerfully pave the way for the person with that assignment.

Recently, he told me he was going to show me who he has chosen for this special assignment. The moment I heard you preaching, he gave me the signal”.

She placed her hand on my shoulder. I looked sternly into her eyes.

She smiled and gave a nod.

“You’re the one he has chosen for this task”.

I looked at her and chuckled.

“Mummy, don’t be carried away by all these Aunty Rhema stuff. I’m not qualified for anything”, I said.

“If Moses was qualified for the work even as a stammerer, then who are you?”

“Mummy! It’s not qualification I’m talking about. I’m talking about all the mess I’ve made with my life. I mean, I’ve done so many horrible things. My life was such a mess!”

“Yes, because it’s your mess that helps you counsel the next age to come. That’s why we call it message. You cannot have a message for the next age, if your life was not once upon a time, a mess. Every great man today once suffered and struggled in this life. It was from their mess that we get a message”.

I looked at my mentor with shock written on my face.

“I have arranged everything. Our first meeting would hold on the 15th of next month. That’s two weeks from now and, you’re going to minister at the meeting.

I couldn’t close my mouth anymore.

“Mummy! You’re rushing me ooooo. Please stop all these! I don’t think I’m ready to anchor all these responsibilities you are pushing towards me”.

She smiled and tapped my shoulder.

“Then ask your Dad. Let me know what he tells you”, she replied.

“Okay ma!” I replied.

I believe God wouldn’t want me to enter into something that serious. This was kingdom business. I’m not matured enough to run errands for Daddy.

“Daddy! Don’t allow mummy rush me ooo! I’m still young in the faith. I’m not ready for something that important”, I said within me.

“Jeremiah 1:6. Then said I, Ah, Lord GOD! behold, I cannot speak: for I am a child.

Verse 7. But the LORD said unto me, Say not, I am a child: for thou shalt go to all that I shall send thee, and whatsoever I command thee thou shalt speak”.

That was the scripture daddy replied with.

To be continued…….

Have you discovered your purpose?

What are you created to do?
Has God showed you or spoken through the mouth of people around you, what you are born to become?

What are you doing towards achieving it?

Episode 44

“Give us the bread! Give us the bread! Give us the bread! How can you have the bread with you and watch us starve?”

I opened my eyes and discovered I had slept off while awaiting my mentor to call me out.

The day was finally here. It was time for singles meeting. The meeting was tagged, ‘Daughters with flaming altars’.

We had done alot in preparation for the day. Rounds of intercessory prayers and fasting. Harmony, Cynthia and I had taken it upon ourselves to invite people. Getting people to attend was not an issue. As an influencial person, I got alot of people, mostly top class ladies.

My mentor got all her church singles sisters to attend. I also informed pastor Kunle and he gave me the opportunity to announce it on his pulpit. So lots of single sisters were in attendance.

My mentor really believed in me and I wasn’t ready to disappoint her. To be honest, I had that first timers stage fright.

First, I was still a growing Christian. What would ever make God find me capable for his kingdom business? That’s one

Secondly, my past had alot of stories I’ll never be proud to tell. Yes, God chosed me despite my horrible past. But does that mean I’ll have to share my story with everyone?

The truth is I knew the answer to the question before I asked. So I decided to keep them aside and focus on the prayers I was praying in the office.

I was still on the chair, waiting to be called in, when a woman in her early forties entered.

“Good evening ma!” I greeted.

“Evening my daughter!” She replied.

I looked at her with inquisitive eyes.

“It’s time!” She said.

My heart almost flew into my mouth. I exhaled and calmed myself.

“Daddy, be with me! Speak through me!” I whispered as I followed the lady to the auditorium.

The crowd had already been receiving an intro on who the speaker was, so I as came out, they began to applaud.

My mentor hugged me and handed the mic to me.

“Remember how I told you I was going to be there to see you feed your generation with the bread of life? The day has finally arrived”.

My eyes popped wide in surprise.

She smiled and patted me on the shoulder.

“Go feed that crowd!” She said and walked away to resume her seat.

I stood at the pulpit and looked at the crowd in the hall. I almost lost my composure.

“Can we all rise up and worship God?” I asked.

The entire congregation rose up and the worship team, led by Harmony, began a song.

As soon as the worship got intense, I began the word.

“There’s a prayer we usually pray in Africa, or should I say, it’s a popular adage.

What I don’t know, will not know me. May I never suffer from what I know nothing about.

I used to love that prayer point alot. But that was then. The bible says in Hosea 4:6.My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge: because thou hast rejected knowledge, I will also reject thee, that thou shalt be no priest to me: seeing thou hast forgotten the law of thy God, I will also forget thy children”

I’m sorry to announce, it’s that thing you don’t know that is killing you. When a Young Christian lady who has no praying altar goes into marriage. I’m sorry to announce, that marriage will suffer from lack of spiritual watchman”.

With my hands, I beckoned on them to sit down.

“Please ma! Don’t take these words for granted. No knowledge is not needed. Some may hear it right now and it makes no sense. But soon, they would start looking for you.

Can I tell you something?” I asked the crowd.

“Yes!” They chorused.

“Some months back, I was reading the Bible and I found a scripture that confronted me.
It was in Isaiah 21:11 The burden of Dumah. He calleth to me out of Seir, Watchman, what of the night? Watchman, what of the night?

I was asking God, what happened to the night? Why was God asking about the night? Then God told me something that I would never forget.

He said that women are watchmen. But so many of them are sleeping away. The bible made us to understand that while men slept! Oh my God! Sister! It didn’t say while men committed sin. It didn’t say while men were masturbating or living in immorality. Just, while men slept, the enemy came and sowed evil seeds and went his way.

So when you rise up in the morning, you carried something. But your eyes are too heavy to understand. That was where many problems started today. Sleep! Mothers who could not wake up and watch over their children in the night have lost them into the hands of the devil.

Because, if you sleep, things would slip out of your hands”.

I could see the shock in their eyes.

“Sisters, so many of you have been trusting God to intervene in your marriage and you came here. But can I tell you something?”

“Yes ma!” They all chorused.

“I’m sorry to disappoint you, we’re not here to discuss marriage. We’re here to discuss Intimacy and destiny.

“Wow!” Many exclaimed.

“Because a woman that has not known her God before going into marriage, is in for serious marital crisis.

So many ladies have majored on the minor and minored on the major. The first thing God created you for, was for himself. You were created to know God and fulfill purpose.

Do you know God? Sister, God called us to the place of intimacy, but you ran away. You ran away to chase after boyfriends. I wish you good luck! Sister! Christiana, wishes you good luck.

Many of you know very well that that guy you’re dating is not born again, but you are hiding it. Chai! You see the message clearly, the red flags and the signals, but you ignored. Sista! You dey find husband? They used to say, husband no dey market again! Rubbish!

That’s a lady that doesn’t know her God! Chai! No wonder the bible says, they that know their God shall be strong and shall do exploits. While your mates are busy doing exploits, you’re busy listening to the devil telling you I love you and sending you MTN recharge card! Good luck to you!”

Many of you that want to marry don’t have prayer life. You think you can survive without God abi? God is calling you to the secret place and you’re abandoning him for that boy. You’re chatting with him till 2am the next day and you don’t have time to chat with the ancient of days for one hour.

All you give God is five minutes. Five minutes prayer, then you start preparing for work. Bible is only in church you open it. Some of you don’t have bible. It’s phone you’re using and while sermon is going on. You stroll into Whatsapp and you’re gone. No wonder your life is like this.

“Lord show me mercy!” A lady cried and went one her knees.

Soon, most of them were found on the floor weeping.

“God said something in the book of Song of Solomon 3:1 By night on my bed I sought him whom my soul loveth: I sought him, but I found him not.

Sister, God is looking for you! Where are you? Where are you?

It was time for Intimacy. Your quiet time alarm rang. God started looking for you. He started tapping you out of your sleep. Sister it is time to worship me. Daughter, it is time for the heavens to hear that sweet voice we love so dearly. Daughter, it is time for communion with the sweet Holy Spirit. But you slept off.

Where are you in the place of prayer? Where are you in the place of Bible study? Where are you? Many of you have ran off. You’re looking for man to marry you. Men are scarce in the market these days.

When the bible says, seek ye first the kingdom of God and it’s righteousness. Everything you ever need, including husband shall be added unto you. You’re busy wasting away, giving him your body to tie him down, so other girls who are ready to give it to him would not snatch him away. Good luck to you!

Ask that lady, ‘what’s your assignment here on Earth? She would tell you she doesn’t know yet, but she’s asking God to give her husband.

Ask her about her relationship with God. She cannot fast. She’s still struggling with 30 minutes prayer everyday, if at all not once in a week. She never opens her bible to read it except when she goes to church on Sunday. And she’s asking God for a husband.

How many of you know Fanny Jane Crossby?” I asked.

A few raised up their hands.

“I know many of you would not know her. She’s a blind woman. But what’s so special about her. She’s one of the most greatest hymn writer in history. She composed over one thousand hymns and most of her hymns are the popular hymns we sing today in churches.

She’s the writer of, ‘To God be the glory, great things he hath done’, ‘Loving savior hear my cry’, Draw me nearer, nearer blessed Lord’. She’s the writer of, ‘Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine’. Thou my everlasting portion more than friend or life to me’. She’s the writer of, ‘Jesus keep me near the cross’. Yes, that song.

In the cross!
In the cross,
Be my glory ever,
Till my raptured soul shall find
Rest beyond the river”

I already had tears in my eyes as I sang this songs. The screams in the hall grew louder. So many were laying prostrate on the floor weeping.

“Sisters! This is a blind woman! A blind woman who fulfilled her purpose! She was born with eyes, but 6 weeks after her birth, she became blind. Satan saw a glorious destiny and struck early.

She became one of the greatest song writer in the world. A blind woman!

One day, a pastor called her and told her, ‘Fanny! You’re so talented. It’s so painful to find out that God gave you a beautiful gift, but denied you your eyes!’

Do you know what she told the pastor?

She said, ‘Pastor, if I could pray when I was six weeks old. I would have told God myself to take away my eyes. So that when I open my eyes in eternity, the first face I would see would be the face of my blessed saviour’.

Chai! Intimacy!”

The screams filled the hall. Many were blasting in tongues and rolling themselves on the floor.

“This God is too sweet! Who told you boyfriend is sweeter than God? He’s the best fiancee in the world.

Song of Solomon 3:1 By night on my bed I sought him whom my soul loveth: I sought him, but I found him not.

But in verse 2, God said, I will rise now, and go about the city in the streets, and in the broad ways I will seek him whom my soul loveth: I sought him, but I found him not.

Ayayayaaaaaa! God is looking for you oooo! He saying, where is Chioma? Where is she! I’m looking for my beloved daughter! For the past one week, she has not showed up for her quiet time. Where is she?

But in verse 4, It was but a little that I passed from them, but I found her whom my soul loveth: I held her, and would not let her go, until I had brought her into my mother’s house, and into the chamber of her that conceived me.

God wants to hold you again. It’s time. He has found you. Run to the altar now. Come and rededicate your life to Jesus today. If you know you want to surrender your life to Jesus, be the first person at the altar”.

Ladies came out in their numbers, crying. Some were crawling on their knees to the altar.

To be continued…….

You are in this Place
Calling us for More
You are in this Place Beckoning on Us
In a Time like this,
You’re Calling out our Names
Spirit Draw, draw, draw
Draw us Closer to you
Spirit Draw, draw, draw
Draw us more to Intimacy
Draw, draw, draw, my Beloved

[Pre – Chorus]
It’s been Long I Met you Jesus
It seems like I just Met you Today
There’s a Longing In my Spirit,
That is Calling me for More
There’s a Drawing In my Spirit,
That is Drawing me for More

[Chorus]
To Pray O, to Pray
That is what my Spirit Longs for
To Pray O, to Pray
That is what my Spirit Yearns for
To Pray O, to Pray, my Beloved

Go ahead and answer the call of the spirit.

God is calling you to the place of intimacy. Stop running away from him. Answer the call of the spirit.

Episode 45

It’s been 7 months after our first meeting. I have to say, those were the most interesting months of my life. I never imagined God had such big plans for me.

The girls were doing great. My little group of spiritual hungry girls. In the past 7 months, we met twice in each months. I have to admit, the hall was becoming too small for us. We were having overflow. We had to stop using my mentor’s church and rent a more bigger hall.

Harmony and Cynthia were growing to become mighty instruments in the Lord’s hands. Each time I looked at them, I was amazed by how God transformed them into what they are right now.

At my company. More souls were won for Jesus. More ladies and men, were eager to hear God’s word. So I set a day aside, where all the staffs could meet and fellowship together. I made sure to invite Maggie. She was one of my collegues in the university and a staff in my company. She was one of my target. I was always praying to see the day she would step out for an altar call and surrender to Jesus.

But it seemed that day was taking so long to approach. Anyway, I was not going to give up, untill all my old friends become Christians.

Recently, I discovered invitations were coming. Invitations to minister at different places. Was I turning into a woman of God already?


This morning, I had finished my quiet time and came downstairs for devotion with Evelyn and my gateman. I have good news for you all. My gateman was now a saved man. Yes I invited him and we started talking. God was present in that little discussion to grant conviction. He surrendered his heart to Jesus during that meeting.

I was so happy today was Saturday. I had so much sleeping and resting to do. We started our devotion with worship songs and soon, we listened to the word. After I was done talking. Evelyn put up her hand to ask a question.

“Please go ahead!”

“Ma!”

“Cris!” I corrected.

“I can’t call you that way. You’re a woman of God. Allow me to give honour to this vessel of honour”, she replied.

“I insist you call me Cris!”

“Okay ma!”

“Cris!”

“Okay Cris!”

“Good! Now continue”.

“Yes! A friend of mine chatted me on Whatsapp yesterday and asked me a question. It’s about her quiet time. She told me she was struggling to stay awake during her quiet time. She said anytime she woke up to observe it, she always fell asleep. Whether she’s reading the Bible or praying. She always fall asleep. Please ma! What’s the way forward?”

I exhaled and gave a nod.

“Have she prayed about it?”

“Many times, but it looks as if God is not hearing her prayers. Everytime she wants to pray, sleep over powers her and God allows it that way. She said she had prayed and prayed, yet nothing happened”.

I was confused. I had never seen a situation like this before. At least, God is supposed to answer her prayers. What kind of answer do I give her?

“Daddy! I don’t know what to say ooo! If not prayers, what else can deliver this lady from that demonic sleep?”

“CRIS! WHENEVER A MAN PRAYS AND THERE’S NO RESULT, THE FIRST THING TO DO IS TO CHECK YOURSELF. WHERE AM I MISSING IT?”

“Hmmm! So is that the answer?”

“THE ANSWER TO WHAT?”

“The question!”

“OF COURSE! BUT I WANT YOU TO DO SOMETHING”.

“Yes sweet Daddy!”

“CALL THE LADY RIGHT NOW!”

“Evelyn, do you have her phone number?” I asked.

“Yes I do!”

“Please go upstairs, get my phone and yours as well”, I said.

She stood up immediately and left to do as instructed.

In few a seconds, she arrived with our phones.

She unlocked her phone and searched for her friend’s phone number. She handed the phone to me and sat beside me.

I typed out the number and called. It was as though she was expecting the call. Immediately it rang, she answered it.

“Hello!” She said.

I handed the phone to Evelyn and told her in a whisper to tell her friend I would love to speak with her.

“Dora!” It’s me Evelyn…. No this is not my number…. No it’s not a strange number, it’s Aunty Rhema’s number…. Exactly make sure you save it ooooo! You don get Aunty Rhema’s number be that!” She chuckled.

I looked at her with a funny face. She smiled and punched me lightly on the arm.

“Na anointed woman of God phone number you carry so! Anyway, she wants to talk to you. I’m handing over the phone to her”, she said and stretched it towards me.

I collected it and pinched her on the waist. She giggled in response.

“Hello Dora!” I said.

“Aunty Rhema! It’s a privilege to have the CEO of the Kolapo production company, talking to me. I’m so….”

I had to cut in immediately.

“Dora! That’s alright. The reason for this call is more important than my personality. So can we please put that aside?”

“Okay ma!”

“Call me Cris!”

“Yes ma!”

“I said call me Cris!”

“Okay madam Cris!”

“Dora!”

“I’m sorry ma!”

I sighed in frustration and decided to wave it off.

“Okay, Evelyn said you asked a question about your quiet time and the challenges you’re having keeping it. Can I hear from you what the challenge was?”

“Okay ma!”

“Cris!”

“What?”

“I said call me Cris!”

“Okay ma!”

“Just say Cris!”

“Okay ma!”

“Say Cris!”

“Yes ma!”

“CRIS! FOCUS! THAT’S NOT IMPORTANT!” My Dad came to the rescue.

“Please go on”, I said and exhaled.

“I struggle with tiredness everytime I try to pray and study my bible. I can be chatting on Facebook for two hours and even twelve midnight, my eyes are wide awake. Not a single doze, but the moment I open my eyes to look at the bible, the demons of slumber start fanning me.

I would be so weak and tired. I would struggle to keep my eyes open. Sometimes I even wash my face so I can be awake to read my Bible, no way. The sleep takes me unaware. Before I realized myself, my Bible is already my pillow and a torn page from my Bible is my blanket.

Is it prayers I have not prayed? Is it fasting I have not fast? I have asked God several times to help me, but this challenge continued. Please help me cast out the spirit of spiritual slumber. Maybe someone with a higher anointing will be able to chase that demon away from me”.

“Daddy! What do I tell her?” I asked within me.

“YOU KNOW THE PASSWORD. OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND I WILL FILL IT!”

I smiled and spoke out. My gateman and Evelyn were both staring at me. The call was on loud speaker.

“Dora, we have five praying posture or should I say, praying position. We have the laying down position, the kneeling position, the sitting position, the standing position and the walking around position. These are the 5 position of prayer. Now can I ask you a question?”

“Yes ma”.

“What position do you usually take when praying in the night?”

“Actually ma! Most of the time, I lie down to pray. Sometimes, when I’m not feeling weak, I sit down to pray”.

Oh my goodness! No wonder! This one no be demon at all. Na you do yourself! Can you imagine?

“Wait! Do you lie down on the floor to worship God or how do you lie down?” I asked.

“No! I lie down on my bed”.

“Okay! And you put a pillow under your head, right?”

“Yes ma!”

“And also cover yourself with a soft blanket, right?”

“Yes ma”.

“Then you turn on the ceiling fan and put it on jar five, right?

“I don’t have ceiling fan! I mean, my ceiling fan is bad”.

“Madam! I feel like laying you on the floor and flogging you 39 strokes of the cane on your bum bum! Only you use your hand tell sleep I’m available and you’re complaining he’s disturbing you.

You’re like a girl on bum shorts, parading yourself before men. They start touching you anyhow and calling you all sort of dirty names. Then you start complaining they should all leave you alone. You’re the one to leave them alone. You’re seducing them.

But in this case, you’re the one seducing the spirit of slumber. You assume a position of slumber and lie to yourself that you want to pray. You deceive yourself. If you really want to pray in the night especially for starters. For people who are starting their quiet time, don’t sit down to pray. Don’t lie down to pray and certainly, don’t kneel down to pray. Use the walking around and standing position to pray. That’s the best position for those trying to build their prayer life.

They used to say that you can only shape the mud when it is soft. The moment it’s hard and strong, there’s nothing you can do about it. Your spiritual life is still very tender. You just started observing quiet time. If Satan wants to stop you, now is the best time to start. He can’t stop you when prayer has mastered you. It would be too late by then. So you’re a bigger prey now than in the future.

Have you ever heard the word catch them young?”

“Yes ma”, She answered.

“That’s exactly what the devil is trying to achieve”.

“Ma! I try to get up from my bed, but I don’t know why it’s so hard. I just feel so tired to get up. I know I want to get up and pray, but they way my body will be doing me Ehn!”

“Madam! If you had a job interview by 3am. A job where you would be paid 1.5 million naira per month. Come for interview by 3am. When your alarm rings, would your body be doing you anyhow?”

“No ma”, she answered.

“Very good! You have answered correctly. Your problem is your priorities. If your destiny and relationship with God is the number one important thing in your life, you would throw that bed away. If the destinies that are looking up to you and the God in heaven who is counting on you. If they are so important to you, then we won’t have this discussion in the first place.

Dora! People give their money, time, energy and tears to what is very important to them. So if chatting with friends late at night is more important than your spiritual life, I wish you good luck.

Sister, there was a time in my life I had to pray standing. I mean sitting down, I would sleep. Kneeling down I would sleep. I decided I cannot sleep while standing, so I told myself that standing, would be my praying position. There was a time I had to stand reading the Bible. I would carry my Bible in my hands and do bible study on my feet, to avoid sleep.

You must discipline yourself. God will not do that for you. If your spiritual life is truly important to you, then you would give it everything you’ve got. You won’t accept the drama the flesh is presenting to you.

Dora, go back and discipline that body of yours. Your flesh is too comfortable. You’re over pampering your flesh. Discipline it by denying yourself”.

After the call ended, I prayed and dismissed everyone.

I stood up and told Evelyn to prepare something for breakfast.

“MY PRETTY EBONY! I’M SO PROUD OF YOU! YOU’RE PUTTING SMILES ON MY FACE!”

“Daddy! Please stop that. I’m nothing but an unprofitable servant”, I replied.

I could hear him laughing.

“SO AS A SERVANT, YOU HAVE NO WILL, RIGHT?”

“Yes! The servant can do nothing except what the master wants!” I replied smiling.

“SO CAN YOU DO ANYTHING FOR ME?”

“Sure! Why not?”

“ARE YOU SURE? CAN I TRUST YOU AND BOAST ABOUT YOU IN THE PRESENCE OF LUCIFER LIKE I DID ABOUT JOB?”

I waited for a while. Why all these questions. Honestly, I never knew God was warning me about the biggest challenge of my life.

Something was about to happen that would change my life forever. Something I never planned for.

To be continued…….

Brethren, give your all to building your relationship with God. Stop allowing the flesh trample on you.

Rise up and discipline yourself.

Discipline is the key to Spirituality. Nobody is going to do it for you.

I’m scared for Cris oooo

What’s going to happen to her?

Episode 46

I walked into the shop and stood at the entrance. The place looked so local to me. The floor was all made of earth and dusty. But everything in that shop spelt it all. It was a potter’s shop.

What was I doing in a potter’s shop? How did I get here?

I looked around and saw clay pots of different shapes and sizes. Though they were all made of clay, they were so beautifully designed. I marveled at the handiwork of the potter.

Soon I heard the potter’s wheel rotating and turned to find a man working on a clay pot. I stood and watched this man skillfully shape the pot.

“Hello! Cris!” He greeted me, still working on the wheel.

“Hi sir!” I smiled.

“I’m making a pot for you!”

“Really? That’s so sweet of you!” I said and saw it’s effect as his lips curved in a smile.

“So how are you going to make it look like? I like big pots you know. Also, I like pots that are wide and big. Not just big and tall, but big and wide. Wide enough to contain alot of stuff”.

I discovered he wasn’t listening to what I was saying. His head was bowed, fully concentrated on his work. What he was working on was do big. I smiled as I watched him do his work.

Soon, he plucked out a large chunk of clay and threw it in a bowl beside him. That was the bowl where all the unused clay were placed. Cutting off that piece of clay, made my pot smaller. But I decided to ignore, hoping, he had something beautiful to do with the pot.

I was still trying to overlook the fact that my pot was going to be a small pot, when he plucked off another large piece of clay. This made my pot so small.

I couldn’t keep quiet any longer. I had to tell him I wasn’t happy. He was ruining everything. I can’t allow that. I want a big pot, not this small one he’s making.

“What’s the meaning of that? Didn’t I tell you the kind of pot I wanted?” I yelled in anger.

He acted as if he didn’t hear me.

This got me infuriated and I did something I never should have done.

I walked up to him and drew him out of the potter’s seat. He didn’t struggle with me. He was so gentle. It was as if as I pulled him, he stood up and vacated his seat.

I sat and began to work on the pot all by myself.

I woke up. Lo and behold, it was all a dream.

“Jesus! Jesus! Jesus!” I gasped.

“What a strange dream! What kind of dream is that? This is not a good dream!” I said and stood up to pray.

But instead of feeling a burden to pray. I felt strongly in my spirit to read my Bible.

I opened my mouth to pray, but I felt the restraint in my spirit. The words were not coming out.

“Daddy! What have I done?”

‘CARRY YOUR BIBLE!” Came the gentle whisper.

I quickly went for my Bible and opened it.

“Where are we reading Dad?”

“OPEN TO 1 SAMUEL 8. START THE READING FROM VERSE ONE!”

I opened to the passage and began to read.

“1 Samuel 8:1. And it came to pass, when Samuel was old, that he made his sons judges over Israel.

Verse 2. Now the name of his firstborn was Joel; and the name of his second, Abiah: they were judges in Beersheba.

Verse 3. And his sons walked not in his ways, but turned aside after lucre, and took bribes, and perverted judgment.

Verse 4. Then all the elders of Israel gathered themselves together, and came to Samuel unto Ramah.

Verse 5. And said unto him, Behold, thou art old, and thy sons walk not in thy ways: now make us a king to judge us like all the nations.

Verse 6. But the thing displeased Samuel, when they said, Give us a king to judge us. And Samuel prayed unto the LORD.

Verse 7. And the LORD said unto Samuel, Hearken unto the voice of the people in all that they say unto thee: for they have not rejected thee, but they have rejected me, that I should not reign over them.

Verse 8. According to all the works which they have done since the day that I brought them up out of Egypt even unto this day, wherewith they have forsaken me, and served other gods, so do they also unto thee.

Verse 9. Now therefore hearken unto their voice: howbeit yet protest solemnly unto them, and shew them the manner of the king that shall reign over them”.

Immediately, the dream I had appeared in a flash.

“Jesus! What is happening to me?”

I could feel the Holy Spirit within me weeping.

“Daddy! Please tell me where I have missed it. Please tell me!” I said, my eyes were moist with tears.

Now I understood what the dream meant. God was the potter. He was making a pot for me. But I didn’t like the pot, so I dragged him off the potter’s seat and took over. Jesus! I dethroned God! How could I dethrone God in a dream?

And the gentle Holy Spirit permitted me to have my way. That’s how he operates, he doesn’t struggle with man. He gives us absolute freedom to chose whatever we want.

God was the leader of the nation of Israel. But they rejected him and asked for a King. Why did they ask for a King? They wanted to look like the other nations around them. They rejected God’s plans for them and God permitted them to do as they wanted.

If I could dethrone God in the spiritual realm, what would I do physically? The spiritual realm controls the physical. If in the spiritual realm, I could do such a thing to God. What would happen physically?

I started crying. I threw myself on the floor and began to weep bitterly.

“Daddy please! Don’t allow me go back to my vomit. I vomited 8 months ago. It’s stinking, it’s gotten worms in it and smells so bad. I can’t put such a thing in my mouth and claim I am eating a meal.

Daddy! I know dreams are a revelation of what’s about to happen. If it’s positive, we pray it into reality. But if it’s negative, we cancel it through our prayers.

Daddy please! Don’t allow the kingdom of darkness to laugh at you because of me. On my own, I’m a failure. With my human strength, I’ll continue to fail. But with you, I’m indomitable. With you, I can withstand anything.

Please strengthen my inner man! Don’t allow me fall in defeat. Many lives are looking up to me. They’re expecting so much from me. Don’t allow my downfall, be their downfall.

Lord what would be your gain if I fall? What pleasure do you derive from Satan mocking you. Since you know I cannot stand on my own, come and give me the power I need to stand!”

I began to pray in tongues aggressively. I prayed sweating heavily. I just can’t eat vomit anymore. I don’t know what made me see my past life as vomit. It was so irritating and terrible to me. The life where I struggled with God for months.

They were months of crying. They were months of unending sorrows. But the months where I surrendered to God is a huge difference. I have never enjoyed life the way I had. Having Jesus as my lover was the best thing that happened in my life. I won’t trade him or our relationship for anything in the world.

I kept praying and praying till I felt a little peace. I still felt unrest in my spirit and wanted to pray more. The peace I felt was so little.

I remembered what my mentor taught me about the inner peace. It means I had to pray more about it or the trouble would only be lessened but not completely adverted.

I looked at the clock on the wall. It was 7:05. I jumped up and started packing all my stuffs. I was getting late for work. I had also missed my prayers with Evelyn and my gateman. I could hear them praying downstairs.

I quickly took my bath. I was still feeling uneasy in my spirit. What should I do? I’m out of time. God should understand why I can’t continue the prayers now.

“For the salvation of their soul is precious!” Came a scripture I had once read.

“But I have prayed na! Should I kill myself over a scary dream. I have committed it to God. I know he has heard me. I can’t kill myself over this dream. I know I will never betray God. Why would I be so stupid? What would make me see what God is doing in my life and drive him away?”

I remembered the day I told God I was ready to skip work, just to continue reading my Bible. I quickly waved it aside

I took my bag, laptop and everything I needed and rushed out of the room. As a routine, Evelyn always made sure I had something to take with me to work.

So she brought a cooler and all I needed for a sumptuous meal at work. She followed me to the garage and helped me put my stuffs in the backseat of the car.

I thanked her and drove out. As I drove, the uneasiness continued, but I ignored it. I focused on getting to my company building.

I arrived at the gate and Oga Silas opened it immediately. As I drove in I smiled and waved at him, but he threw his face the other way. He was looking so sad.

“Daddy! What is going on? Even Oga Silas has picked the signal in the realm of the spirit that something terrible is about happening to me.

“Oga Silas!” I beeped and called his attention.

“Good morning Cris”, he replied with a sad face.

“Is anything the matter?” I asked.

He looked at me and didn’t say a word.

“Please talk to me! What did God show you about me when you were praying for me?”

“Sister, I’ll see you this afternoon in your office. It’s not something we can discuss at the gate. What God showed me is not something you want to hear”, he said and walked away.

I sighed.

“Jesus please show me mercy!” I whispered.

My heart was heavy. I wasn’t myself at work that day. I was stylishly waiting for Oga Silas to show up with what God had revealed to him about me.

When my receptionist told me Oga Silas was here with a man to see me, I quickly told her to let them in.

The door opened and pastor Kunle and Oga Silas, entered.

“Ha! Pastor Kunle too! This must be a serious matter. God please don’t allow my enemies rejoice over me. What’s happening? Why is everyone having a terrible news for me?
What is the devil planning?”

“Good morning sister Christiana”, he greeted.

“Good morning sir”, I replied, bending my knees slightly in greeting.

“Can we please sit down?” He asked.

“Please do?” I said.

My heart was pumping so fast as I awaited what they were about to say.

“I would go straight to the point. Because I’m giving you some prayer points to pray after this meeting”, he said.

Whoa! More prayers to pray!

“God revealed something about you to bro Silas. And the amazing thing was that, he also revealed the same thing to me. So we decided to come and tell you ourselves”.

“Please say it! Don’t keep me waiting!” I said with all eagerness to listen.

To be continued………

Cris you’re scaring me ooo!

This one you fought with God in the dream and it’s already manifesting physically, hmmmmm nawa ooo!

The burden to pray was still there, but Satan made her job look so important than her salvation.

God wanted her to pray till the burden was lifted, but she ignored.

The journey has only begun.

Episode 47

“Some weeks ago, I called bro Silas into my office for a serious conversation. And at the end of the conversation, I sent him away with prayer points. Soon he came back with the answer.

But I told him to go back and continue the prayers. The answer remained the same. I told him I was going to pray personally about it. I sought the face of God and got the same answer”.

Where’s he heading to? What’s this answer they’re referring to? Hope it’s not what I’m thinking?

“Sir! What’s the answer?” I asked.

“You are the wife of Bro Silas Akande!”

Should I say my ears had battery problems? Or probably they needed fixing. This was the biggest hallucination of the century.

I laughed. Yeah! That’s a good joke. But would pastor Kunle leave his busy schedule to come and tell me jokes in my office? Recognition set in.

The pastor and Oga Silas looked at me with surprise on their faces.

“I’m sorry pastor! Can you please come again let me hear you clearly?” I asked.

“Christiana Kolapo! God wants me to tell you that you are the wife of Bro Silas Akande”.

I laughed mockingly.

“I know it’s hard for you to believe. That’s why I told you I would give you some prayer points to take with you. We have prayed and gotten confirmations. You also need to pray and get your confirmations too”.

Wait oooo! Do this people know who they’re talking to? This is Cristina Kolapo. The CEO of the Kolapo production company. First daughter of late Chief Bright Kolapo. You expect me to marry a pauper? A gateman? Oh! Is it because I’m a Christian that you want to make a fool out of me? How many times have journalist asked who I was dating? Do I announce to the world I was getting married to a gateman?

“Pastor! You lie!” I said bluntly.

He smiled.

“Easy Cris! It’s a hard pill for you to swallow, but……”

“It’s not my pill ooo! I’m not sick ! What do I need pill for? Please, I think the two of you need to swallow that pill and get healed, cause you’re both crazy!”

“Sister!” The pastor called in shock.

“Don’t sister me! I’m a friendly person. So you think you can enter my office and say rubbish. Does this place look like a comedy house? Am I stupid? Oh! I should marry my gateman? My gateman for that matter? Not even my manager or something, it’s gateman God say I should marry.

Thank you so much for your revelations. I thought you both had something important to say. I guess you’re both done here. So please, make good use of the door”.

The pastor smiled and stood up. All these while, Oga Silas bowed his face and made sure our eyes didn’t meet. He also stood up with the pastor and turned his face the other way.

“Christiana! I know it’s hard for you to believe it. It was also hard for us too. Do you know how many casting and binding we did, thinking it was a demon? But God got angry with us and told us we were delaying his plans. We had to take the bold step to meet with you.

Anyway! I won’t force you to believe us. I’ll hand you over to God! He’ll take it from here. You once lives a life of rebellion towards God! Let’s see if you can handle living that kind of life again.

I banged my table and stood up.

“Are you stupid?” I said on top of my voice.

I saw the shock in his face but I didn’t care.

“Are you sure you’re not insane? Are you sure your brain is still functioning? So because you are a man of God you expect me to buy that trash you call revelation!”

“Christiana! Don’t speak when you’re angry! That’s not a good time to speak. Never take decisions when you’re angry. Anger is a very powerful emotion in the soul of man. I know on a normal day, you wouldn’t spill all these words you’re spilling now. So I’ll act like I never heard them!” He said and smiled at me.

“I don’t care! Act like a fool if you like! But make sure you and my gateman leave my office this minute!

And you Oga Silas!” I called and pointed at him.

“I believe I was too familiar with you. That’s what made you sleep in the night and started having demonic visions about me. Go and meet that spirit that told you I’m your wife. Tell the spirit to give you another wife! Nonsense!” I hissed.

“Get out!” I yelled.

They turned and left my office.

“Rubbish!” I said and sat down.

“Just imagine! My gateman? Ewo! So of all the men God could give to me, it was gateman? If it was the gateman of another company it would have been even better! But it’s now the gateman of my own company.

Chai! This is the comedy of the century. The CEO of the Kolapo production company marries gateman! Love is blind! Abi?

Wonders shall never end! My friends are already telling me that this Christianity had made me crazy. This is the greatest height of insanity. That’s exactly what the news would carry. Young CEO Weds company gateman. Ha! Who in his right senses would do that?”

I opened my laptop to continue what I was doing. I closed it back as I just couldn’t concentrate. I tried to get the thought off my head. But it wasn’t working. So I decided to visit a restaurant and eat a sumptuous meal. That should do. I had forgotten that Evelyn prepared something for me.

I called my driver and told him to meet me at the garage. I took the elevator and got to the garage as quickly as possible.

My driver was yet to join me.

“Where is this stupid !” I yelled.

He started running towards me.

“I’m sorry ma!” He apologized.

“Sorry for your idiotic head! Next time I call you and you keep me waiting! I’ll deduct 20 percent from your salary! Idiot!”

He looked at me as if he was seeing a different person. He was shocked by the latest development.

“Would you stop looking at me and open this car?”

“Sorry ma!” He said and brought out the keys.

I sat down at the owner’s corner and exhaled.

Soon we got to the gate. Oga Silas quickly opened it. He made sure not to allow any eye contact between us.

The driver was almost driving out when I told him to wait. I quickly moved the glass down.

“Oga Silas!” I called.

He stood still and didn’t move.

“Don’t worry! I’ll come and marry you in your dreams! Idiot!” I said and spat through my car window.

He kept his face bowed, ensuring he didn’t look at me.

“Drive this car my friend!” I told the driver.

As we left, I kept looking back to see if he would look at me. But he only shut the gates. He didn’t look at me. I hissed and turned around. A pang of remorse sprang up within me, but I quickly waved it off.
fast in my chest. I can’t explain how I was feeling.
“Sometimes, you need to remind the gateman that he is a gateman!” I said within me.

We left the company building. My heart was pumping so

We arrived at the restaurant in no time. I quickly got in and ordered for something to drink. Chilled sprite would do. After a few sips, I felt a little bit calm.

I breathe in deeply and relaxed my back on the chair.

So the only one God saw was a gateman? Not just a gateman, it’s my gateman. Wait so how are we going to live as husband and wife? As we’ll drive into the company, he’ll step down and open the gate for me. So all these while that God was telling me he was going to give me the best husband in the world. It was my gateman he was referring to. Abomination!

The humiliation is too much! I’ll not do such a stupid thing. Who does that? There are so many men to chose from. What about Harry Balogun? God skipped the gorgeous man and found a gateman.

Harry was such a handsome man. A successful man. One with a beautiful reputation in the the society. At least his father is not a gateman. Everyone knows his dad. Their ministry is such a popular ministry. Everyone knows his dad to be a firey preacher.

Here’s a good man. This guy is better than the rubbish God gave me.

Wait what am I even saying sef? I don’t understand myself anymore. I have spoken so many hurtful words to the people I love.

What’s wrong with me? I can’t believe I insulted that man of God I respected so much. Even Oga Silas. What had they done to deserve all the insults I unleashed on them?

Wait! Pastor tried to warn me against taking decisions when I was angry. This is too much for me to bear. Where do I go from here? I had eaten my vomit. I had fallen back to the life of cursing and rebellion.

And wait a minute! Why did I over react? All I should have done was to tell them I would pray about it. What were the insults for? Jesus! How did I land here? I can’t believe I insulted a man of God. And Oga Silas! I have humiliated him so much. Oh no! Cris what is wrong with you?

The dream I had in the morning came back in a flash. I remembered how I ignored the burden to pray. I was so concerned about my work and ignored the salvation of my soul. What’s wrong with me? How did I get here in such a jiffy?

And as quickly as possible, I realized I hadn’t heard a single word from my Sweet Daddy. I’ve been on my own all these while. Oh no! I can’t be eating vomit! No! What do I do?

I bowed my head to hide my face. I felt so ashamed of myself. I can’t believe I had just insulted a great man of God. I needed to call him and apologize to him. And Oga Silas, hmmmmm! What do I do about him?

First, I need to understand something. All the pastor needed me to do was to pray and get confirmation from God if Bro Silas was my husband. Why did I over react? My emotions got the better side of me.

“Daddy! I’m so sorry! I failed you!” I began to cry as I whispered prayers to God.

“I’m so sorry! I insulted the man of God and your son, who thinks he is your will for my life!”

“CRIS! HEAR ME AND HEAR ME CLEARLY! I HAVE GIVEN YOU THE BEST HUSBAND IN THE WORLD! IT’S UP TO YOU TO REJECT HIM OR ACCEPT HIM!”

I froze. My lips stopped moving.

“Aah! I’m finished ooo! Was God telling me that my gateman was my husband? Ha! God please don’t do this to me! I will repent of any sin I have committed. Please don’t humiliate me before men. Journalist and radio stations would announce it. TV stations would spread the news. I would become an object of riddicle.

Please take this cup away from me! Take the cup! I can’t drink it! Please take it!”

“COMPLETE THE PRAYER!”

I paused.

“Complete what?”

“TAKE THIS CUP AWAY FROM ME, NEVERTHELESS! CAN YOU RECITE THE REMAINING PART OF THAT VERSE?”

I opened my mouth, but I couldn’t complete the prayers. I wasn’t ready to drink any cup. I needed a man with a wonderful reputation. Not the gateman.

“CRIS! I HAVE GIVEN YOU THE BEST HUSBAND IN THE WORLD. IT’S LEFT FOR YOU TO ACCEPT HIM OR REJECT HIM”.


I looked up and wiped my tears. I was still wiping them off when my eyes saw someone I knew.

He saw me and recognized me immediately.

Am I dreaming or what?” He asked.

I looked at him and smiled. It was Harry Balogun.

“Wow! I can’t believe it! I almost thought I was dreaming!” He said and sat with me.

“Wait a minute! Was this the best husband in the world God was referring to? Oh my goodness! I had been a fool. God was only testing me with Oga Silas and I failed!”

To be continued…..

Brethren, I’m confused ooo!

Who is Christiana’s husband?

By the way, tell her to apologize to pastor Kunle oooo!

I can’t believe she could open her mouth and say something against the Lord’s anointed.

The story is getting tougher!

Watch out what happens to Christiana in the next episode

Episode 48

“From the looks on your face, I can tell you’ve been crying. Cris! Please talk to me! What’s going on?”

Harry had not stopped pressing. This was the third time he was asking. I tried my best to smoke and act as if all was well, but he wasn’t buying it. He was such a sensitive and detective man. Exactly the kind of man I wanted. He was everything I wanted in a man.

But how can I share with him all that happened? Especially when it’s about marriage. Would I somehow make it a plea, so he can do quick and marry me? How do I share such a confidential information about myself with him?

“Cris!” He called.

I looked up at him.

“Trust me! It stays between the two of us”, he said.


I exhaled and began my story. I began from how I surrendered my life to God after struggling with giving up my relationship with Chris. Then I went on to narrate my exploits for God and the souls I had drawn out of darkness and into the kingdom.

“Harry! I spend my money, my time! All my resources for God. Only for him to humiliate me. He handed a gateman to me as a husband. Can you imagine God would do this to me?” I asked.

It was as if I was painting God to be the devil and I was painting myself to be the righteous one.

He nodded and looked at me.

“You are right!” Harry said.

Oh finally! Someone who understood me. I can’t believe he understood me perfectly.

“I have always been looking for the right opportunity to make my intentions known to you”, he said.

I was shocked by those words. I think Harry is moving too fast. I was only trying to explain what happened to me and he was already moving on to propose to me. Isn’t that too early?

“Cris! I’ve always loved you since the day I met you!”

The hairs on my skin stood up. This was a dream come true. I can’t believe this is happening in reality.

“You’re the only woman for me. The perfect woman. You’re all I needed in a woman!”

I felt the ground should open and swallow me. What I was expecting was already happening so fast.

“When I first saw you, I knew I had found the lady I would spend the rest of my life loving”.

I smiled, I was almost telling him thank you when I heard the most shocking news of my life.

“But I cannot marry you!”

I was sure that was a mistake. Yeah! I’ve not been myself of recent, so my ears were playing tricks on me. I guess I was just thinking too much.

“Sir! What did you say?” I asked, just to be sure.

“Yeah! I’ll never be able to marry you”.

Now my nightmare was confirmed. What was I supposed to do? I thought God said he was giving Harry to me as the best husband in the world. What was happening to me?

“God! I feel like dying! Is this how you enjoy frustrating me? This was exactly what you did with Chris. Now, you’re doing the same thing with Harry”, I said within me. There was no response.

“Cris! I had always thought you were the one for me. A CEO, a lady Apostle! A firey preacher and a great mentor. But God told me that you’re not my purpose partner. My journey and the things God wants me to do on earth cannot be assisted through you.

I have every right to disobey God and propose to you. But I fear him so much. Not just fear, I love him. I can’t betray him at such a time as this. He had already promised me the best woman in the world. And I trust him! He’ll never disappoint me”.

I chuckled. He looked at me with a raised eye brow.

“Bro! I laugh you. When God will give you gate woman to marry, then you’ll understand what I’m going through”, I said sarcastically.

He doesn’t understand. How the news would spread. How people would come to meet me for interview. They would ask me what I saw in a gateman that made me chose to marry him. They would ask what kind of religion was Christianity that subjected a CEO into marrying her gateman? He won’t be there to help me answer these questions.

“Will a man judge God? Can the clay shout at the potter saying, why do you make me like this?”

Hearing him mention the word potter gave me goose bumps. My dream came back in a flash. But I wasn’t ready to stoop so low to marry a gateman.

“Cris! It’s not about what God gave you as a husband. It’s about your heart. Your heart not completely surrendered to Jesus. If your heart was completely surrendered. Even if God doesn’t give you a husband, you would still love him.

Cris! I want you to understand that God never makes mistakes. God is wiser than you and he’s too wise to need you correcting him”.

Oh! Harry who was supposed to marry me has now become a preacher. Wonders shall never end. Wait! This was how my father-in-law also played an important role in stopping me from getting married to my ex boyfriend. Hmmm! So God was not ready to stop this drama abi?

“Then hear me and hear me clearly! I’ll never stoop so low to marry a gateman! Do you hear me God! Come and force me to marry gateman! Let me see how you will force me to marry my gateman!” I said within me.

I felt I was going too far. How could I do this or say this to the God who made life heaven on earth for me. The God who loved me and forgave me all my sins. I felt guilty, but at the same time, I wasn’t ready to admit I was sorry.

“Cris! I understand how you feel. But perhaps God only wanted to break you into a more worthy vessel. You’re still undergoing spiritual discipleship. There are lots more to learn from your mentor. And of course, God wants to break the spirit of pride in you. All you need to do is to submit,”.

“Please don’t say that!” I said bluntly.

“Say what?”

“That I should be humiliated! Mocked! Laughed at and insulted. I can’t believe God would subject me to such a life”.

“Cris! The man Job was mocked. People called him a sinner. Some said he got his wealth through dubious means and that nemesis caught up with him. What did people not say? They said all manner of things. But Job said something. He said, even if he slay me, yet I’ll trust him.

He believed God till the last minute. He was never baptized in the Holy Ghost like you are right now. He never read the bible like you did. Yet he stood firmly. Cris! God has a bigger plan for you. He wants to accomplish so much through you.

Don’t allow Satan to destroy your future. A wrong marriage is enough to swallow your ministry and calling in life. Forget it Cris! Once you fall into the hands of the wrong guy in marriage, your destiny is gone. I mean dead! Only the mercy of God can bring it back.

You’re claiming it’s a gateman God gave you, but you don’t know the qualities he had placed in this man you’re looking down on. If you accept him and polish him with the resources God has placed in your hands, I’m telling you, you will thank God for this gateman. I think God wants to use you for him so he can successfully help you complete your assignment here on earth.

God has blessed you alot and perhaps wants you to assist him. This gateman is a great man. That his beginning is small doesn’t mean he will remain a gateman throughout his life. Don’t judge him based on his current state! Please allow the God who sees the present and the future lead you!”

I looked at him sternly. He was still talking, but I wasn’t sure if I was listening. I was watching his lips move, but my thoughts had drifted off.

“God! Please don’t do this to me!”

“Cristina!”

“Harry!” I said and stood up.

“Please obey God!” He said softly.

“Thanks for your time! I really appreciate this discussion. But I will never marry my gateman! Thank you!” I said and walked out.

He exhaled and remained in his seat. I left him at the restaurant and got into my car.

I knew I was doing something wrong, but I just don’t want to marry that gateman. And this desire took over all my actions like a possessed person.

That day was completely hell for me. I couldn’t concentrate on anything I did. I was so sad and completely lost in thoughts.

I don’t know how I managed to sleep that night. When my alarm rang, I put it off and covered myself with the duvet. I slept off and surprisingly, there was no disturbance. I skipped my quiet time and nothing tried to remind me.

Usually, I wouldn’t be able to continue sleeping when it was time. But today was different. I slept like there was never an appointment with God. I wanted to pray, but it was as if all my abilities to do spiritual exercises left me. I lay on the bed staring into the space.

My phone began to ring beside me. I picked it up and checked the caller’s ID. It was my mentor.

Hmmm! I guess God have gone to report me to her.

“Weldone! You gave me a gateman and because I rejected him, you went and report me to my mentor. I hope you also told her what you did? I hope you told her that you were marrying me to a gateman?” I muttered.

Wait! Was it God I was talking to this way?

I picked up the phone and swiped the green bar.

“Hello Cris!”

“Hi ma!” I said in a cheerful voice.

“How’s your quiet time today?”

“Awesome! I learnt alot ma!” I answered.

She didn’t say anything for a while.

“Mummy are you there?” I asked.

“Cris! I was studying my Bible when suddenly, God opened my eyes. I saw you vomiting in a trance. You vomited an irritating greenish substance. I was only watching. Soon, you bent over and began to scoop what you had vomited and swallow it again!”

To be honest, I felt like vomiting as I heard it. What kind of revelation was that?

“Cris! What are you eating?” She asked.

“Nothing ma!”

“You should understand what I mean when I asked what are you eating”, she replied.

“Yes I do, but I’m not eating my past life!” I replied with no iota of remorse.

To be continued…….

The next episode would be narrated by Cris mentor. She’ll be the one to tell the story henceforth.

I weep for this girl oooo!

This is the danger of not surrendering completely to God. You’ll get to a point where you’ll become a rebel.

Rebellion is like a seed. Little, little deliberate disobedience. It would keep growing and growing, without your knowledge. Sin is a virus and one thing we all know about virus is that it spreads and takes over the body.

So you deliberately disobeyed God and you think it’s wisdom. That’s why as a Christian, if you notice any weakness in you, don’t overlook it. God is telling you to pray and you resist him and disobey. It would soon grow to God telling you not to watch that erotic movie and because you are used to telling him no. You would also say no to him and disobey. That’s how rebellion grows.

Your willful disobedience will push you to dare God more. Willful disobedience is the biggest spiritual suicide.

If you cannot obey what God asks of you right now. Kneel down and tell him to empower you with the grace to do it and make up your mind to do what he wants.

Philippians 2:13 For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.

Allowing your flesh push you into willful disobedience is called SPIRITUAL SUICIDE.

Episode 49

MRS JULIET THOMPSON POV

I remained on my study chair. What’s happening? I have never seen something as horrible as this. I saw Cris roaming the streets as a mad woman. She was putting on dirty rags. She also ate from every dunghill in sight.

I had finished speaking with her a few minutes ago and she told me she was doing okay. But I knew something was wrong. I can’t explain how, but I know the Holy Spirit too well. This uneasiness I was feeling about her is a confirmation. Cris was lying to me. I guess that was God’s way to telling me someone was lying.

My husband once told me it’s a spiritual abilities. He taught me in one of his Apostolic classes in the house. I playfully titled the sermon ABILITIES OF THE SPIRITUAL MAN. He actually called that ability THE LIE DETECTOR.

I could tell someone was lying without the Holy Spirit revealing anything to me and the person would be shocked. Hmmmmm! My Apostle Paul had seriously groomed me in Spiritual matters. And it’s so funny to find out I discipled my husband when he got converted.

A knock landed on my door. I frozed. On a normal day, once I entered my study room, no one comes in. So hearing someone knocking on the door spoke more about the uneasiness I was feeling.

“Who’s that?” I asked.

“Sorry mum! But I just can’t keep quiet! I’m getting restless every minute!” Tina answered.

That’s it. I knew it wasn’t ordinary. God had revealed something to her.

“Please come in!”

The door opened and she came in, still in her night gown. Her eyes looked blurred with tears. I guess she had been crying for a while.

I quickly stood up and approached her.

“What happened to you?”

“It’s Aunty Rhema! She’s in trouble!” She said.

My heart started pounding heavily. What’s going on? Cris! What have you done?

“What happened? What did God show you?” I asked.

“I was on my knees praying, when suddenly my eyes opened and I saw Aunty Rhema. She was dragging a potter from his seat claiming he didn’t know how to make pots anymore. She was complaining the pot he was making was too small and it wasn’t the type she liked. The potter allowed her and she took over the potter’s seat”.

I looked at my daughter with shock written all over my face.

“That’s what I saw!”

“Is that why you said she’s in trouble?”

“Not really! It was the second thing I saw that was really scary”, she said.

“What did you see?”

I saw her walking on the streets in dirty rags. She was a mad woman in that revelation. She ate whatever she could from the garbage”.

I was shocked to the bones. The same revelation.

“That’s what I saw too”, a male voice said from the entrance.

We both turned to see who it was and saw Joseph.

Wow! This one both my kids and I were seeing the same thing, that means it was truly serious.

“Mummy! Please tell us, what’s going on?” Joseph asked.

I exhaled and took their hands in mine.

“Do you know that Cristina was once a mad woman before?” I asked.

I could see the shock reflecting on their faces.

“Kids, she needs our prayers!”

I understood what was happening now. The potter was God shaping Christiana’s future, but she didn’t like the kind of pot God was making for her. Hmmmmm! What’s that thing Cris doesn’t like God doing for her?”

“MARRIAGE!” Came the gentle whisper.

“Oh! She doesn’t love the person you have chosen as her husband. So she rebels against God. Now the enemy who knows how dangerous she is to their plans, have set a trap for her.

Right now, the enemy wants to make her go mad again so she can’t fulfil her purpose. They know if they leave her like this she would repent and come back to God. So striking her with madness at this vulnerable state of backsliding is going to render her completely useless for life. This is all to stop her from fulfilling her purpose.

Wow! Satan is such a battle strategist! I can’t believe this is his plan. Truth be told, Cris was in a dangerous state. She’s at Satan’s mercy. But more importantly, she’s definitely going to repent. But Satan wants to make good use of this period of her backsliding to useless her destiny by turning her into a mad woman.

Imagine if the world saw her roaming the streets as a mad woman. After preaching to crowds of people on TV. That’s going to be a disgrace she would live with for the rest of her life. It would affect the ministry and her reputation as a minister.

“Ha ha ha ha ha ha! Satan you’re a liar! It’s not my baby girl you’ll use to do experiment!” I said and rushed to pick up my Bible.

“Children; we’re going to pray. There is a battle going on right now in the realm of the spirit. We are going into the spiritual realm right now to scatter the plans of the enemy.

The bible says in Isaiah 62:1 For Zion’s sake will I not hold my peace, and for Jerusalem’s sake I will not rest, until the righteousness thereof go forth as brightness, and the salvation thereof as a lamp that burneth.

We’re going to change that scripture. Where there’s Zion put Cristina’s name there.

For Christina’s sake will I not hold my peace, and for Aunty Rhema’s sake I will not rest, until her righteousness thereof go forth as brightness, and her salvation thereof as a lamp that burneth.

Open your mouth and pray!”

As soon as I finished yelling out those words, NEPA took light. The room was completely dark. We couldn’t see ourselves.

“Ha ha ha ha ha! Rakatetabayalisa! Katebranse! Ayayayaaaaaa!” Tina screamed.

“Satan! Why are you wasting your time? Release my baby girl if you don’t want trouble this morning!” I whispered smiling.

We began the prayers right inside the darkness. My kids were kabashing with energy. We were groaning, sweating heavily. It was blasting of tongues all through.

I was vibrating in prayers, when the door opened and a tall man walked in.

The room suddenly became so bright. It was more bright than when there was NEPA power.

“COME WITH ME!” Daddy said.

I came out of my body and stood. I looked at my former self, I was still praying in tongues. But the other me was standing, watching the other me and my kids praying.

“LET’S GO!” He said and turned to leave.

As soon as I followed, the speed at which we moved was out of this world. Soon I we found ourselves at the front of a screen. A scene was already on play. It was Cris in a conversation with pastor Kunle and a young man.

I was still watching it when suddenly Cris stood up and began to insult pastor Kunle and the young man. I was shocked. Does she know the spiritual implication of what she was doing? Insulting an anointed man of God?

Soon, the scene faded and I saw Cris in her car, talking to a man standing. She told the man she was going to marry him and spat on the ground a few feet away from him.

I was shocked. This can’t be my Cris.

Next, I saw her lying on the bed. Her quiet time alarm rang, but she quickly put it off and continued sleeping. I kept watching and soon I noticed the video was been forwarded like we do on DVD. Motions were faster than usual.

All that happened was Cris on the bed, changing her sleeping position. That meant one thing. She had been sleeping all this while.

“Jesus Christ!” I gasped.

My uneasiness had just been confirmed.

“Soon, the video started playing normally and I could hear her phone ringing. She was having a call. The screen divided into two like we see in movies, showing the caller at the other end. I saw myself on one part of the screen.

It was a repeat of the phone call I gave Cris this morning. I watched her as she lied to me about observing her quiet time and sighed.

This girl doesn’t realize the gravity of what she’s doing. She has bitten more than she can chew. It was no longer the Devil that wanted to destroy her, but the Almighty God.

“JULIET!” He called.

“Sir!” I replied.

I could sense the anger in his voice.

“LEAVE ME ALONE! DON’T TELL ME TO SPARE HER. LEAVE ME ALONE LET ME DEAL WITH HER!

I went down on my knees in tears.

“Lord! Please!” I pleaded.

He looked at me and said.

“ISAIAH 5:1. NOW WILL I SING TO MY WELL BELOVED A SONG OF MY BELOVED TOUCHING HIS VINEYARD. MY WELL BELOVED HATH A VINEYARD IN A VERY FRUITFUL HILL:

VERSE 2. AND HE FENCED IT, AND YOU GATHERED OUT THE STONES THEREOF, AND PLANTED it WITH THE CHOICEST VINE, AND BUILT A TOWER INSHOULD THE MIDST OF IT, AND ALSO MADE A WINEPRESS THEREIN: AND HE LOOKED THAT IT BRING FORTH GRAPES, AND IT BROUGHT FORTH WILD GRAPES.

VERSE 3. AND NOW, O INHABITANTS OF JERUSALEM, AND MEN OF JUDAH, JUDGE, I PRAY YOU, BETWIXT ME AND MY VINEYARD.

VERSE 4. WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN DONE MORE TO MY VINEYARD, THAT I HAVE NOT DONE IN IT? WHEREFORE, WHEN I LOOKED THAT IT SHOULD BRING FORTH GRAPES, BROUGHT IT FORTH WILD GRAPES?

VERSE 5. AND NOW GO TO; I WILL TELL YOU WHAT I WILL DO TO MY VINEYARD: I WILL TAKE AWAY THE HEDGE THEREOF, AND IT SHALL BE EATEN EATEN UP; AND BREAK DOWN THE WALL THEREOF, AND IT SHALL BE TRODDEN DOWN:

VERSE 6. AND I WILL LAY IT WASTE: IT SHALL NOT BE PRUNED, NOR DIGGED; BUT THERE SHALL COME UP BRIERS AND THORNS: I WILL ALSO COMMAND THE CLOUDS THAT THEY RAIN NO RAIN UPON IT.

VERSE 7. FOR THE VINEYARD OF THE LORD OF HOSTS IS THE HOUSE OF ISRAEL AND THE MEN OF JUDAH HIS PLEASANT PLANT: AND HE LOOKED FOR JUDGMENT, BUT BEHOLD OPPRESSION; FOR RIGHTEOUSNESS, BUT BEHOLD A CRY”. He said.

I grabbed him by the garment and went down on my knees.

“For the Lord is merciful and kind. His mercies never come to an end. He forgives all kinds of sin and iniquity.

Daddy please show mercy! I know you have invested so much on that girl. But what would you gain if all your investment turn to waste? For you have no pleasure in the death of a sinner. But that sinners should repent and be saved.

How would you be happy to watch this soul that you’ve invested so much, waste in hell?

Jeremiah 10:23 O LORD, I know that the way of man is not in himself: it is not in man that walketh to direct his steps.

Verse 24. O LORD, correct me, but with judgment; not in thine anger, lest thou bring me to nothing.

Daddy correct her, but with judgment; not in thine anger, lest you destroy her completely. Please Lord! A lot of souls are waiting for her to manifest. Please remember mercy. She’s nothing but dust and ashes!”

He turned to me and pulled me to my feet.

“I HAVE GRANTED YOUR REQUEST! I WILL CORRECT HER!” He said and in a flash, I found myself in the room with my kids.

To be continued…….

Christiana would take up the story from here.

Ezekiel 22:30 And I sought for a man among them, that should make up the hedge, and stand in the gap before me for the land, that I should not destroy it: but I found none.

Brethren, many of us are complaining about Nigeria, about the president, about the political leaders. Some even complain about the church of God, about the General overseers, about the ministers of God, about the church leaders.

But can I ask you a question?

How many of you that complain take time to pray for these people?

My brother has a weird attitude. I don’t like the way he behaves. He doesn’t listen to me when I talk. He looks down on anything I say. I’ve talked and talked and I’m tired. He’s too stubborn. It’s as if he’s possessed.

My parents are somehow. All they do is boss me around. They don’t care about my feelings. All they want is tht I do what they want. I don’t like staying in that house. I which I could gain admission and leave for good.

Do you pray for these people with attitude?
Do you stand in the gap for them?

Some of you would say yes. I have prayed and prayed and I’m tired of praying.

Galatians 6:9. So let’s not allow ourselves to get tired in doing good. At the right time we will harvest a good crop if we don’t give up, or quit.

This message is for someone.

Episode 50

CHRISTIANA’S POV

I was hungry and feeling so tired. So I decided to go downstairs for breakfast. Today was work, but I wasn’t feeling like going to work today.

I sat down and leaned my back on the sofa. I had been thinking about alot lately. I don’t know what was wrong with me, but my head ached badly. I had showered and taken pain killers to lessen the pain. I was hungry and needed to eat.

“Evelyn!” I called my housemaid.

“Yes ma!” She replied.

I was waiting for her to come and join me in the sitting room, when I saw the unimaginable. I couldn’t believe my eyes when a snake entered my sitting room.

What was a snake doing in my house? How did it get here?

I was still trying to comprehend when it crawled towards me. I jumped to my feet and climbed the sofa.

“Jesus!” I screamed.

It crawled faster towards me. I ran away and collided with Evelyn. We both landed on the floor.

“Ouch I yelled.

“I’m sorry ma!”

“Get up! Don’t let it get you!” I screamed in fright as I got up and pulled her up immediately.

“What’s chasing you?” She asked.

“The snake!” I answered, pointing at the creature.

She looked at my direction and then at me.

“A snake?” She asked, giving that funny look.

I looked at her like she had gone crazy and turned to look at the snake. It wasn’t there anymore. I looked around to be sure. I bent down and checked under the sofa. It completely disappeared.

“Wow! How did it do that?” I asked.

“Do what?” She asked.

“How did the creature disappear just like that?”

“”What creature?”

“The snake! Didn’t you see the snake?”

“What snake?”

I decided to end the conversation there. It was obvious I was the only one that saw it. I wasn’t liking the fact that I was turning into a fool.

“Forget about it!” I said and waved my hand.

“What’s for breakfast?”

“I prepared rice this morning, I was hoping you would take it with you to work, but it looks like you wouldn’t be going to work today. Right?”

“Yes!”

“Maybe I should make you some tea. Something lighter. Or not what do you prefer?

“Are those pancakes from yesterday still left?”

“Yes they are”.

“Microwave them and bring them to me”.

“Okay dear!” She said and left for the kitchen.

A few minutes later, she came with the pancakes in her hands.

“Should I make you tea?”

“No just juice would do”, I replied.

She smiled and left for the kitchen.

I picked one of the pancakes and was about to eat the snake appeared, crawling to meet me on the sofa. I threw the pancake in my hand at it, only to find out I threw at Evelyn who was coming to me with a tray of juice in her hands.

Luckily for her, she was putting on her kitchen apron, so the stain wasn’t a big deal.

She looked at the pancake on the floor and then at me.

Instead of telling her about the snake. I only apologized.

She dropped the juice and the stool beside me and stood watching.

I stretched my hand to pick up another pancake, when I knew I had gone mad.

The pancake sprout out eyes, nose and a mouth, just like those cartoons I used to watch when I was a kid. Where the orange had mouth and could talk and Mr Apple was sliced as breakfast.

I looked at it again to be sure I wasn’t crazy. It spoke to me.

“Daughter, do my will”.

I stood up. What’s the meaning of this?

“Do my will!” It repeated.

I took the plate of pancakes and smashed it on the floor.

“Jesus!” Evelyn screamed and looked at me, shocked.

I looked at her and was about to tell her what happened when the door opened.

I turned to see who entered and found out it was Chris!

I was shocked. What was my ex doing in my house? As I saw him memories flashed. I remembered all the good times we had together. Those times we danced at parties to all kind of immoral songs.

He smiled at me and spread his arms for a hug.

“Oh my handsome Chris!” I said and smiled. I started walking to meet him, but Evelyn pulled me back.

“That’s not Chris! That’s the gateman”, she said.

I flung my hand out of her grip.

“No! That’s Chris! Come here darling! I’ve missed you so much!” I said and made to meet him.

Evelyn pulled me back. I turned and slapped her.

“Stop pulling me back! What is wrong with you?” I asked.

She moved back, placing her hand over her aching cheek.

The door closed and my Chris was gone. What happened? My love where are you going? I’ve missed you so much darling!”

“The gateman has left! He’s confused by your drama”, Evelyn replied.

“Stop calling my baby husband a gateman. Is something wrong with you?” I said angrily and turned to face her.

She looked at me completely shocked.

“Yes Cris!”

“How dare you address me by my name, don’t you know I’m your boss? Call me madam”.

“Yes madam!” She replied picking up her phone.

“Ha ha ha ha ha ha! I’m the boss!” I said laughing.

“She’s so scared of me”. I said aloud to her hearing. She shook her head sorrowfully and began to cry.

“Jesus please!” Don’t allow this happen to her! Please! Show us mercy! What would the unbelievers say when they see this? They have always called her a crazy woman for serving you. Please don’t allow them mock your name!” I heard Evelyn praying.

“Don’t worry dear! I’m not a crazy woman. I’m a crazy babe!” I said in excitement.

The door opened again and two of my friends walked in. But in reality, the door never opened.

“Hey babies!” I said.

They smiled at me. We were dancing partners at night parties when I wasn’t born again. I was so excited to see them.

One of them started singing a rap song. The song sounded so appealing to my ears. I began to dance with all my strength.

“Evelyn! Stop looking at me and join us!” I said, all smiles.

She looked at me with tears in her eyes and put the phone close to her ears.

“Hello! Mummy!” She started crying, while I continued dancing. I was seriously having fun.

“Mummy please come quickly! Cris has gone mad!” She said.

“Mad? Me? No I’m not? I’m only chilling out with a few friends. I don’t like seeing those tears. You crying as if someone was killed in a car crash!” I told her still dancing.

She only looked at me without any audible reply. I laughed at her and continued dancing. What was her problem? I was having so much fun and she didn’t want me to.

Soon those hunger pangs came back stronger. I looked around and saw the pancakes on the floor.

“My God is a great provider”, I said and rushed to fill up my empty stomach. I bent down and began to eat from the mess on the floor.

“Cris! No! Please stop that!” She yelled and rushed towards me. She pulled me away from my newly found breakfast.

“Have you forgotten who you are? How dare you grab me like this?” I yelled at her.

“Cris stop this!” She said admist tears.

“Why was she crying?” I asked within me and laughed.

Soon the door opened and a man in white lab coat, my mentor, Tina and my sister Sharon entered.

Immediately I saw the man, I couldn’t explain what happened but I knew I was back into reality. I knew I became normal automatically.

I looked around and found Evelyn crying.

“Mummy? What happened to me?” I asked my mentor.

She smiled and nodded at the doctor. He signalled two hefty looking men and they charged towards me.

“Wait!” I shouted.

“Somebody please tell me what’s happening?” I asked.

I looked around, no one was giving me an answer.

“Mummy! Evelyn! Tina! Sharon! Somebody please talk to me! What’s going on?”

Soon, I saw the doctor bringing out an injection. I remembered when last I saw that kind of stuff and when hefty men were all I had to deal with.

“No! This can’t be happening?”

“Mummy! I think she’s back!” Sharon said to my mentor.

“I don’t think so. Sometimes insane patients can trick everyone just to avoid getting medication”, she replied.

Wait a second! What did she call me? Insane? I’m not insane! I can’t believe you called me insane.

The hefty looking men charge and grabbed me as if I was no longer a weak lady. They grabbed me in full force and pinned me to the ground.

“Jesus!” I screamed in fright.

“Mummy! Help me!” I called to my mentor.

“I’m not crazy! I swear! It was a snake that entered my sitting room and my food that was talking to me. Then I saw Chris and started missing him. Next, some of my old friends came visiting then we danced together. That’s all that happened!” I explained admist tears.

“It’s alright baby girl! These guys are only here to help you feel better”, she said with a warm smile.

“The doctor came towards me on the floor. I became frightened by the sight of that painful tool he was holding.

I started struggling with the men, but their hands were too strong for me.

“Mummy please!” I cried like a little child, scared of an injection.

“Cris, I said calm down!” She replied calmly.

“Mummy please pray for me! I know if you pray for me, I’ll be well! Please don’t allow these men take me away!” I begged.

Tina was already crying. It looked as if my mentor wasn’t moved at all. Her eyes held no iota of pity for me. She had this look that was a smile and wasn’t a sad face either. It looked as if she had the entire situation under control but only needed me to go with these men.

“Cris! You cannot use God. You cannot go after him because he has alot of healing. When your reason for calling on my God is more better than your desperation for a miracle, my God will heal you without me praying for you.

So your deliverance this time around is not me ministering to you. It’s in your hands. It’s either you give God a tangible reason why you want him to heal you. Cause if you dare approach him again to use hm for what he can give, so you can use the sanity he gives you to insult his priest, I’ll make sure I tell him not to answer your prayers!” She said with blazing eyes.

I was shocked. Was that my gentle mummy or someone else.

I was feeling pains, as those gentlemen refused to hold me like gentlemen. I looked at my mentor and started crying.

“Cris! Stop using my God! Stop turning him into a sugar daddy. Only going to him when a need arises. But when he needs you, you deny him.

I want you to engage him in a serious conversation and tell him one good reason why he has to heal you. Because, you cannot continue serving God for what he can give.

She turned to the doctor and gave a nod. He approached and in no time I was sedated.

I woke up and found myself tied up with ropes to the hospital bed. My tears flowed like I had a dam in my eyes.

To be continued…….

Sometimes when something terrible happens to a child of God. We begin to ask God why?

Hmmm! We don’t know the background to the story, yet, we jump into conclusion. Why would God allow this to happen to his children?

But you won’t ask, what his children did?

Man has a nature in him. He likes doing good things in the public. But when his sinful nature or should I say, adamic nature wants to express himself. He does it in secret.

Man never loves exposing the evil they do. They always love hiding it and appear good and innocent.

Brethren, who is God to you? The children of Israel saw God as someone who solved their problems when a need arises. They never had an intimate relationship with him. They only went to him when there was a need through their mummurs and complaints

Is that how you relate with the Almighty?

Episode 51

“Please my hands are hurting me!” I yelled.

The nurse was not ready to listen to whatever I had to say. I had been tied to the bed like a lunatic. I’m not mad for crying out loud. I only saw what others didn’t see. Why are they keeping me here?

My confinement in that hospital was driving me crazy. I had tricked the nurse with my tears and gotten myself loosed. Soon I wanted to escape at all costs. I was angry I was back into the psychiatric hospital. I just wanted to get out.

So, I stood up and told the nurse I was leaving. I guess everything in that place was arranged. As I opened the door and came out, I regretted it.

The hands that grabbed me Ehn! Oh my goodness! I almost shouted, “Please I’m a lady!”

They almost broke me into pieces with their firm grip. I screamed and told them I was okay.

“Don’t handle me like a rogue! Handle me with care! I’m the CEO of Kolapo production company!” I yelled.

“We know!” They answered.

“How come you know and you’re treating me like this?”

“Almost every mad person here is a CEO”, one of the men said and dragged me roughly to the bed.

To make matters worse, the way I was tied at first was heavenly, compared to the way I was tied now.

I remembered when I first had this mental health challenge. I had super human strength. It took ten men to hold me down. These guys were insulting me. The old me would have dealt with them mercilessly. The only thing I didn’t like about my new condition was I didn’t have that super human strength like before.

“Back then, no one could withstand me. I was a champion, a fighter and a terror. You needed chains to bind me. Not these ropes. These ropes and these men are insults to my mad personality”, I said within me and smiled.

“Hmmm! I think her madness is getting worse!” One of the men said, observing I was smiling.

“Wait! What was I thinking? I can’t believe it! Was I bragging about how mad I was years ago? Cris, who did this to you? How did you get here?” I said as tears flowed down my cheeks.

“Nurse! Please! My wrists are killing me!” I called out to her admist tears.

“You knew you were not strong. You went ahead to fight someone stronger than you”, she said.

I looked at her with shocking written on my face. Does she know about me? That statement she made meant more to me that it was supposed to. Truth be told, I fought against someone I wasn’t powerful enough to defeat.

“Ma! Why did you say that?” I asked.

She paused and looked at me.

“Don’t ask me that question ask Mr Jonah!” She said and pointed to the other patient in the room with me.

My eyes widened in surprise. Mr Jonah! The man who told God no to his face and suffered for daring the Almighty.

I sighed. I felt like I was in hell. My wrists were hurting so bad. Who would help me now?

Soon, some of the words I had spoken came afresh in my heart.

“Aah! I’m finished ooo! Was God telling me that my gateman was my husband? Ha! God please don’t do this to me! I will repent of any sin I have committed. Please don’t humiliate me before men. Journalist and radio stations would announce it. TV stations would spread the news. I would become an object of riddicle.

So the only one God saw was a gateman? Not just a gateman, it’s my gateman. Wait so how are we going to live as husband and wife? As we’ll drive into the company, he’ll step down and open the gate for me. So all these while that God was telling me he was going to give me the best husband in the world. It was my gateman he was referring to. Abomination!

Weldone! You gave me a gateman and because I rejected him, you went and report me to my mentor. I hope you also told her what you did? I hope you told her that you were marrying me to a gateman?”

I began to cry. I remembered that night I sat on the bed in my mentor’s house and gave God a pet name.

I called him Sweet Daddy! He teased me and we laughed together. He called me his pretty Ebony! While he taught me the word, he called me a smart girl. He said I was his angel! He said I was his baby girl!”

I sniffed and shook my head in regret.

“How did I get here? I was in the best relationship in the whole world. I was daddy’s pride. I was the one who put smiles on his face. Now look at what has become of me.

I opened my mouth and wanted to call him daddy.

“Who is your daddy? You’re such an unworthy soul. How many times would you keep breaking his heart? You have broken his heart countless times.

Everytime, God I’m sorry! God I’m sorry! God I’m sorry! When are you going to stop being sorry!” Came a voice inside my head.

“Will God ever forgive someone like me? I have taken his grace for granted. I have spat on his face! I have betrayed my lover with a kiss!”

“Yes and you have also sold him for 30 pieces of silver. You traded Jesus for Harry! Now harry had failed.

Cris! You don’t deserve God anymore. All this I’m sorry! I’m sorry is too much. He’ll not listen to any rubbish you have to say.

Did he warn you through a dream?” Asked this strange arrogant voice.

“Yes”, I answered.

“Did he use your mentor to warn you?”

“Yes he did”, I replied.

“Did you repent?”

“No”, I answered.

“See yourself? Your own don finish”.

I started crying afresh. I wept because God was so righteous. He loved me despite me filthiness. He forgave me countless times, when all u did was to fall and rise. He loved me enough to send so many anointed women of God, including Mummy Susan. Pastor Kunle, my mentor, my sister Sharon, my father-in-law and even my unregenerate uncle. They all spoke the mind of God to me.

What was my problem? Why can’t I just obey God for once? Why? What’s my problem? Why was I so stubborn? What did God not do for me?

I was a mentally retarded lady. He healed me. I gave my life to him and all I could keep doing was to hurt him. Why? Who does that?

“Daddy is there any hope for me?”

“There is no hope for a traitor like you!” Came that arrogant voice.

“You dared God! You opened your mouth and insulted a man of God. An anointed man of God for that matter. Your own has finished. Go and set your bed in order. Your life is over! You have pushed God to the wall, now pick one. Should you fall on him and be broken into pieces? Or should he fall on you and ground you into powder?”

I wept and wept.

“Daddy I’m sor….”

“Don’t say that!” The voice yelled at me.

“He has disowned you! You rejected him and now, he has rejected you.

I struggled to break free from the ropes. I was in pains. But the pains in my heart was more aching than the ones I felt on my hands.

“God please don’t abandon me!” I cried in frustration.

“MY PRETTY EBONY!” Came that gentle whisper I was so familiar with.

Just a word from him felt like all my pains disappeared. What happened? Did he just speak to me? What would make him speak to me?

“Shut up! God cannot speak to you. He has no business with a sinner like you. A stubborn and arrogant unrepentant soul like you. That was not God, it’s your mind decieving you. You’re talking to yourself and you think it’s God”.

Immediately, I remembered what Susan taught me about voices. No voice or thought is from me. I’m not a thinker but a listener. Whatever I think is a whisper from a spirit. And there are only two spirits that communicates with man. Either the spirit of God or an unclean spirit.

I was puzzled. Wait a minute! Does that mean God can still talk to me? Does that mean all hope is not lost?

“All hope is lost! Let’s face the reality Cris. You keep rising and falling all the time. Everytime you rise, you fall again. You rise again, you fall back. You eat vomit too much. You eat vomit everyday. Aren’t you tired? You cannot serve God anymore. Any little thing you fall.

Aren’t you tired? Just leave God alone, since all you do is to give him heart break. All the good you have to offer him is to backslide and fall. Just leave God alone. You cannot serve this God. He’s too demanding. He’s too heavy for you. Just allow him to stop making your life a mess. Stop him decieving yourself, you cannot serve this God”.

I remembered that bible study I had about grace. I remembered how it’s impossible to keep the law except God gave the grace.

“With God all things are possible!” Came the scripture.

“Cris that’s with God. Let’s face reality. We both know very well that the only thing you are good at, is rising and falling”, came that arrogant voice.

“Jude 1:24. Now unto him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy,

Verse 25. To the only wise God our Saviour, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and ever. Amen”.

That was the scripture that came to my mind.

“Cris! If God could keep you from falling? Why did he allow you to fall?” The voice asked.

“I fell because I allowed myself to fall. God warned me in a dream, but I didn’t pay attention. That was exactly how Jesus warned Peter.

The Bible says, pray that you do not fall into temptation. That’s the key to overcoming temptation. I was supposed to pray that day, but I rushed out of the house.

That was how Peter was supposed to pray that night, but he was sleeping. That’s why I have been rising and falling.

“Cris! Even if you go back to God. What guarantee do you have that you would not fall again?”

I was confused. I didn’t know what else to say.

“Daddy please help me!” I called out.

“DO YOU THINK YOU CAN BEAT SATAN IN A CONVERSATION?” Came the gentle whisper.

I paused and waited for him to continue.

“HE’S TOO SMART FOR YOU. THE WISDOM OF THE DEVIL CANNOT BE DEFEATED BY CONVERSATION. EVE STARTED A CONVERSATION WITH THE DEVIL AND LOST THE BATTLE. WHEN SATAN CAME FOR JESUS, WHAT DID JESUS USE TO OVERCOME HIM?”

“The word of God!” I answered.

“THEN USE IT!”

To be continued…….

Brethren, you guys should pray for Cris oooo

Satan is seriously fighting here.
He doesn’t want to lose

Please share with me what you learnt in this episode.

I’m begging some of you who have chosen to be a ghost reader

Please don’t keep silent na🙏
Even if you don’t have anything to say. Just type a word of prayer for me.

God bless you or more inspiration,

That’s something. I need your prayers oooo.

Since this story started I know Satan has been fighting.

Now my phone which I’m using to type this story is developing fault. Please you guys should pray for me!

More grace

Episode 52

“Cris, you need to understand that experience is the best teacher. Do you even think your mentor and her children are perfect Christians? Don’t you think there’s something they’re hiding from you? You need to realize that everytime you rise, you fall. That’s the way it has always been and that’s the way it would always be”.

“But I don’t want to stop trying!” I tried to argue.

“CRIS STOP TRYING! USE THE WORD OF GOD! HOW MUCH OF THE WORD OF GOD DO YOU KNOW?” Came that gentle voice.

I remembered how my mentor gave me cramming of scriptures as an assignment. She would send me ten scriptures in a week and at the end of the week, ask me to recite them. I never knew she was preparing me for this battle. I never knew a day like this would come.

“The word of God says in Job 14 verse 7. For there is hope of a tree, if it be cut down, that it will sprout again, and that the tender branch thereof will not cease.

Verse 8. Though the root thereof wax old in the earth, and the stock thereof die in the ground;

Verse 9. Yet through the scent of water it will bud, and bring forth boughs like a plant”.

So I don’t need to know if all hope is lost. As long as the word of god says a tree that has been cut down is not hopeless, I am not hopeless”, I replied.

“BEAUTIFUL!” Daddy said within me.

“Who’s talking about hope here. I’m talking about your perpetual rising and falling. You know very well that even if you rise again, you’ll definitely fall. What if you fall and you don’t rise again?

“The bible says in Micah 7:8 Rejoice not against me, O mine enemy: when I fall, I shall arise; when I sit in darkness, the LORD shall be a light unto me.

So don’t think I will not arise. The word of God has already assured me that in the book of Proverbs 24:16 For a righteous man falleth seven times, and riseth up again”, I replied.

“Look at you? Righteous! You of all people? How can you call yourself a righteous person. Are you righteous?”

“Yes!” I replied.

“How?”

“It is written in the book of Romans 3:20. Therefore by the deeds of the law there shall no flesh be justified in his sight: for by the law is the knowledge of sin.

Verse 21. But now the righteousness of God without the law is manifested, being witnessed by the law and the prophets;

Verse 22. Even the righteousness of God which is by faith of Jesus Christ unto all and upon all them that believe: for there is no difference:

Verse 23. For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;

Verse 24. Being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus:

I am not righteous because of my works of keeping the law. I am righteous through faith. Faith is the assurance of the things I hope for. I am assured because, the God who promised me righteousness, is not a man that he should tell lies.

I don’t live by facts, I live by faith. Cause the bible says the righteous shall live by faith. So, as long as I have the faith in God that it’s not my works that makes me righteous, but God’s grace through my faith. Then I am righteous, even when I’m the worst of sinner’s.

Because the bible made me to understand that it is not by power nor by might but by the Holy Spirit, the spirit of Grace. That doesn’t mean I should deliberately sin, but it means that I am righteous as long as I believe I am. I don’t need to check my report card to know if I’m righteous.

Did I tell a lie today? Did I lust after someone today? Did I steal? I don’t need that report card. All I need to believe is the report card of heaven which is the word of God. And it says that my righteousness is a product of faith. You may laugh at me because, physically I look like I’m lying.

That’s exactly how everyone laughed at Abraham when God called him a father of many nations and he didn’t have a single child. One year passed, two years passed, three, four, ten, fifteen, twenty and twenty-five. Yet the bible says he staggered not in faith. He believed God completely. Because God is never a liar. So I don’t wait for results. I believe the results because the man marking it has already ticked me 100%.

So I don’t need to look at how well I wrote the exam. I only have to believe the lecturer who promised he’ll score me high. Because Jesus has already paid for the scores. But that doesn’t mean I wouldn’t study hard for the exams by keeping the law. But it’s not the law that made me pass. It was Jesus, who paid for my grades.

So I am righteous, through faith. I don’t need to verify by looking at my life. The bible says I should look unto Jesus, the author and finisher of my faith”.

I could feel unusual strength, surging through my body. The voice went mute for a while.

“But what if you fall again?”

“I don’t think so!”

“Why! Because the bible says, pray that ye do not fall into temptation. I have discovered the antidote. I will pray till I die praying. And even if I fall, I will arise again. That’s what the bible says

So I will pray and stand firmly. But I still won’t forget that it’s not my keeping the law of praying always that would keep me from falling. But it’s the grace of God through faith in him, that he is able to keep me from falling.

I couldn’t hear that accusing voice anymore. I waited, but the guy wasn’t saying anything.

“STOP WAITING FOR HIM. DO THE NEEDFUL”.

I was confused.

“What’s the needful?”

“WHAT WAS THE LAST THING JESUS TOLD SATAN AFTER THE 3 TEMPTATIONS?”

“He told him to get lost!”

“CRIS THAT’S TOO HARSH!” I could hear him laughing within me.

I was shocked. Why would he be laughing with me at such a critical time like this?

“DISMISS HIM JARE”, he replied.

“Be gone Satan. I rebuke you”, I said and I felt like something left.

I felt light in my spirit. I felt my depression gone. There was this aura I couldn’t explain, engulfing me. I could feel excitement bulging within me.

“Lord Jesus! I’m so sorry for everything I did! I’m such a disappointment!”

“NO YOU’RE NOT! YOU’RE MY PRETTY EBONY! DARK AND BEAUTIFUL!” He said, interrupting me.

I was surprised. It was the first time he was using that new name. I was almost asking if that was a new name he got for me, when I paused. I remembered we have not been in good terms for a long time. I have done so many hurtful things to him. I didn’t deserve to smile around him. So I decided to maintain a straight face and make a well calculated confession of all my sins.

“WHO ARE YOU TRYING TO IMPRESS? THAT QUESTION YOU WANTED TO ASK, SAY IT”. He said.

“No sir! I can’t do that. I have an apology to make!”

“OKAY! GO ON!”

“I’m sorry I disappointed you. I’m sorry for everything I have done. Please forgive me!”

“DO YOU KNOW WHY CONFESSION IS IMPORTANT?”

“No”, I answered.

“FOR CONSCIENCE SAKE! TO EASE THE CONSCIENCE. DO YOU REMEMBER THAT THE FATHER WAS ALREADY HUGGING AND KISSING THE PRODIGAL SON BEFORE HE STARTED APOLOGIZING. JUST SEEING THE SON AFAR OFF, WAS ENOUGH TO CAUSE THE FATHER TO RUN AND EMBRACE HIS SON.

SO I RAN TODAY! WHEW! CRIS GET ME HAND FAN AND COME AND FAN ME!”

I wanted to laugh, but I resisted it.

“WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO ACT SPIRITUAL? WHEN DID FROWNING OR RESISTING THE JOY OF THE HOLY GHOST BECOME A WAY OF PROVING YOUR ARE SPIRITUAL?

YOU’RE IN THE PRESENCE OF YOUR DAD FOR THAT MATTER AND YOU’RE BEHAVING AS IF SMILING OR LAUGHING IN MY PRESENCE SHOWS UNSERIOUSNESS? WHO IS GIVING YOU ALL THESE IDEAS?

MANY CHRISTIANS TODAY RESIST THIS ASPECT OF GOD THINKING THEY’RE TRYING TO ACT SPIRITUAL. WHO IS GOD TO YOU? YOUR BOSS OR YOUR BEST FRIEND! AT LEAST, EVEN IF YOUR FRIEND IS DANGOTE, THE RICHEST MAN IN AFRICA. YOU LAUGH TOGETHER WHEN YOU’RE IN A CONVERSATION.

WHO PICTURED GOD TO YOU AS ONE OVER SERIOUS PERSON. IF YOU LAUGH YOU’RE A SINNER. IF YOU SMILE DURING QUIET TIME, YOU’RE NOT SPIRITUAL. WHO TOLD YOU GOD DOESN’T PLAY?

WHAT IS LOVE OR A RELATIONSHIP IF THERE ARE NO JOKES AND LAUGHTER? CRIS, THIS IS A RELATIONSHIP, NOT A BUSINESS CONTRACT. WE ARE NOT HERE FOR A BUSINESS TRANSACTION. WE’RE HERE TO HANG OUT AND SPEND TIME WITH EACH OTHER.

STOP BEING MORE SPIRITUAL THAN ME! DON’T RESIST THE JOY OF THE HOLY GHOST. JOY IS ALSO PART OF MY EXPRESSION”.

“I’m sorry sir! I wasn’t expecting you to say anything nice to me because of how I had treated you”.

“CRIS! I DON’T WANT TO HEAR A WORD ABOUT YOUR SINS. I I FORGIVEN EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM!”

Hearing him say that caused excitement to rumble within me.

“Daddy! I’m so sorry for everything!”

“CRIS! I HAVE FORGIVEN YOU! YOU’RE MY BABY GIRL AND YOU’LL ALWAYS BE MY BABY GIRL! I MISSED YOU SO MUCH! WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I HEARD YOUR CUTE VOICE PRAYING TO ME?”

I burst into laughter. It was happening so fast. I had forgotten my hands were aching me badly. I was lost in the euphoria of Abba’s love.

“Daddy! How could you have forgiven me so easily? At least when you forgive someone, it takes a while to start relating with them like you did before they betrayed you”.

“HOW LONG DID IT TAKE ME TO START RELATING WITH PETER? EVEN BEFORE HE APOLOGIZED TO ME FOR GOING BACK TO HIS FISHING BUSINESS, I GAVE HIM SO MANY FISH. I DIDN’T ONLY PERFORM A MIRACLE AT THE SEA. I COOKED FOR PETER. CRIS YOU WERE NOT THERE. YOU REALLY MISSED.

ALL OF YOU THOUGHT THE ONLY THING JESUS COULD DO WHILE HE WAS ON EARTH WAS TO PREACH. CHAI! YOU PEOPLE DON’T KNOW THAT ANYTIME I ENTER THE KITCHEN, MY DISCIPLES START SALIVATING”.

I laughed so hard that tears flowed down my cheeks.

“Daddy! Do you mean it?” I asked.

“LOOK AT YOU! I COOKED FISH THAT DAY AND GAVE PETER TO EAT. TO CONCLUDE IT CRIS! I CAN’T HOLD GRUDGES. ITS NOT IN MY NATURE.

CRIS! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I JUST CAN’T LET GO OF YOU”.

To be continued……

I know a God, who’s merciful and kind
Faithful and gracious
I’m the apple of his eyes
The thought that fills his heart
Every Morning, noon and night
He loved me when I didn’t care
And was patient till I came
Running back into his arms
Look how he turned my life around
Made me a shining star
His glory to reveal

I will worship Him forever
Love Him forever because
This God is too good oh

The part of this song that touches me so much is when the singer said,

“He loved me when I didn’t care
And was patient till I came
Running back into his arms”

I feel like crying! Someone, get me a handkerchief 🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭😭

Welcome home sister!
Merciful and loving Jesus!”

Is there any of you out there that has risen and fallen so much that you think coming home is a waste of time.

He’s too loving to leave you in the tormenting arms of the devil. He’s too loving not to forgive you, even though your sins are many.

Come back home!

Episode 53

I sat down on the bed. My eyes never left my Bible. I didn’t know who told Evelyn to bring my Bible to the hospital. I guess she was sure I would need it.

I had spoken to the nurse to untie me. She noticed how calm I was and concluded I was sincere. She untied me and stood watching.

I took my Bible and began to read. She kept watching me, expecting me to start one of my mad lady drama. All I did was chuckle at intervals as I read.

She kept watching me with interest and sat on the bed beside me. I turned to look at her and smiled.

“Do you mind joining me?” I asked.

“Join you to do what?”

“Read the scriptures”, I answered.

She smiled and looked at me.

“Don’t worry! Go ahead. I’ve had my own share of all this”, she replied.

I was surprised, or should I say confused was the right word. I looked at her with that face that spoke I needed explanation.

“I mean, me and God understand ourselves”, she said and gave a sad smile.

I gave her a look of curiosity. What could be the meaning of what she was saying?

“Daddy, what do I tell her?” I asked.

“SARAH!” Came the gentle whisper.

“Sarah? I don’t understand”, I replied.

“JUST MENTION THE NAME SARAH”.

“Is that her name?”

“JUST SAY IT”,

“Why do need to say it?”

“CRIS, YOU ASK TOO MUCH QUESTION. JUST MENTION THE NAME”.

“I’m sorry sir!” I replied and turned to look at the Nurse. She was already leaving.

“Ha! Jesus forgive me!” I cried within me and called as she opened the door and was almost stepping out.

“Sarah wait!” I shouted.

She froze and turned to look at me. Her eyes revealed to me that she was shocked.

“Sarah, can you please tell me what happened?” I asked.

“How did you know my name?” She asked.

I smiled and patted the spot beside the bed.

“How on earth did you know my name? She asked with curiosity.

“He told me”, I replied.

That was it. The next thing that happened was that Sarah was on the floor crying.

I don’t understand what was going on. Why would she be crying because I mentioned her name?

“Daddy, what should I do? I’m confused”, I asked.

“TELL HER THAT I STILL LOVE HER”. He answered.

Sarah was still on the floor weeping. She was seriously crying herself out.

“Sarah! He said I should tell you that he still loves you”, I said to her.

“TELL HER THAT MY ARMS ARE WIDE OPEN TO EMBRACE HER”.

“He said I should tell you that his arms are wide open to embrace you!”

She wept more. It looked like for every word I said, she cried the more.

I got up and knelt beside her. I took her hand and caressed it gently.

“Sarah! I’m not the best of Christians. I have so much to confess to you. I have offended God so many times that in anger, God should have crushed me immediately. But he showed me mercy. He loved me, despite my stubbornness and wrongs.

I’m here to share that love with you. I’m here to tell you that he hasn’t stopped loving you. He’s here to save you. Hmmmmm! Now I know why he struck me with madness. He sent me here because of you. God always has a good reason for everything he allows to happen to his children. He struck me with madness so he can bring his message across to you.

Sarah, don’t reject his love. Don’t think you’re too filthy to be cleansed. Accept God’s offer of mercy. Run to Jesus and let him wash you”.

“Cris! You don’t understand! I don’t believe God would strike you with madness to bring you here. You came here because of your sins. God was punishing you for something horrible that you did. That was all that brought you here!” She said admist tears.

I was shocked. I didn’t know what else to say again. I knew God brought me here because of her, but the major part of what brought me here was my sins.

“CRIS, STOP WALKING BY FACTS. WALK BY FAITH. AS LONG AS YOU BELIEVE I SENT YOU TO THIS PLACE, DON’T WAVER IN WHAT YOU BELIEVE. A MAN WHO WAVERS WILL NEVER GET ANYTHING FROM ME!”

“Daddy her case looks too difficult. Her heart is so depressed and broken. She has lost faith in the word of God. Her case is beyond me. It’s too difficult”.

“CRIS, WAIT A SECOND! HER CASE IS TOO DIFFICULT FOR WHO? ME OR YOU?”

“Sorry sir! For me!” I apologized.

“WAIT LET ME GET THIS STRAIGHT. HAVE YOU BEEN THE SOUL WINNER ALL THESE WHILE?”

“No sir! I’m sorry!” I said, my eyes were getting blurred with tears.

“CRIS! I BROUGHT YOU HERE FOR THIS PURPOSE. YOU’RE THE ONE HOLDING THE BREAD FOR YOUR HUNGRY GENERATION. YOU’RE HOLDING THE BREAD SHE NEEDS. SO I AM GOING TO USE YOU IN A DIMENSION I HAVE NEVER DONE BEFORE”, he replied.

I was surprised. What would God still want to use me? I was such a mess. I had done so much hurtful things in the past. Why would he use me?

“CRIS! I NEVER ASKED FOR GOLDEN VESSELS. NOR DID I ASK FOR SILVER VESSELS. I ONLY NEED A YIELDED VESSEL. THAT’S ALL I NEED. A VESSEL THAT MAKES HIMSELF AVAILABLE AND IS WILLING TO DO MY WORK.

I DON’T NEED YOUR REPORT CARD. ALL I NEED IS YOUR YIELDEDNESS. AS LONG AS YOU’RE YIELDED, I WILL DO MIGHTY THINGS THROUGH YOU”.

“Oh Daddy! This is too much!” I said within me in awe. I just couldn’t comprehend the depth of God’s love. He was still ready to use me, despite my faults.

I smiled and rose to my feet. Sarah was watching me, but I was carried away with our little discussion.

“So what do I tell her?”

“DON’T SAY ANYTHING! JUST BEGIN TO PRAY IN TONGUES”.

I began pacing the room and speaking in tongues. She looked at me and got curious. I was speaking in whispers to God. This went on for over 5 minutes.

“OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND I WILL FILL IT”, Came the gentle whisper.

I turned to her looked straight in the eye. Our eyes met and I can’t explain what happened to me as our eyes met. I began to feel goose bumps on my skin. I felt my body vibrating under a kind of spiritual energy.

I opened my mouth and spoke. I had never experienced what I experienced that day.

“Sarah! It is me! Don’t mind this earthen vessel hosting me. I have decided to speak through her to you. Sarah I remembered how you love me back then. You were on fire for me. But when Kelvin fell sick, you had nowhere to go.

I was using that situation to build you for something greater, but you didn’t understand. I was only preparing you for what lied ahead of you. But you fell into sin and lost it all. It was only a test of your faith and you failed.

You couldn’t forgive yourself for failing the test. You wanted to save your brother from dying. You fell for the suggestion from tour prostitute friends. You went with them to the club and they hooked you up with a guy.

You gave him your body and went with the money for your brother’s treatment. On getting home, Kelvin was already dead. Sarah! It was heart breaking. But that was the same day Eunice came asking you if Jesus could change her life.

You have been preaching to Eunice for 3 months. You even fasted and prayed for her. She was a well known prostitute. You had laboured spiritually on her. That day was the day your prayers were supposed to be answered.

She had been dumped by the man who promised to marry her. She hid her profession from the man. She even stopped her prostitution work to become a school teacher when she knew he loved her. But as soon as the man found out she was once a prostitute, he ended the relationship.

She pleaded and pleaded with him to forgive her, but he didn’t bulge. She wept for days. I was able to finally convince her to meet you and be introduced to Jesus. After much deliberation, she decided to see if Jesus could change her life. That was how she ended up meeting you that day. She was asking you if I could change her life?

But you never saw the opportunity. You were so swallowed by the grief of everything that happened to you and sent her away without giving her the gospel. All her attempt to hear about Jesus that day from your lips was futile.

The next thing that followed was the news of Eunice’s sucide. She hanged herself in her room with a note in her hand. It read,

‘I thought there was still hope for me. Even Jesus could not save me’.

You knew you were the cause of her untimely death. You wept and wept till there were no tears in your eyes anymore. And there, you made a vow that you would never meet me for reconciliation. Because you thought I would never forgive you for what you did. You thought there was no hope for you in Jesus.

You concluded you had disappointed me so badly and sent a soul to hell. You believe I would be so mad at you and never forgive you for what you did”.

“Jesus!” Sarah gasped and lay prostrate on the floor.

“Sarah! It’s me Jesus! Forget about the human being I’m speaking through. She has no idea of what I’m speaking through her right now. I switched spirits. As a confirmation, after this conversation. She’ll be the one asking you to tell her what happened?

Sarah, is my hand too short that it cannot save? Is there anything too hard for me to do? Answer me!”

She wept the more.

“Lord, why the extreme mile, just because of me? Why strike Cris with madness, just to being her here? Why would you do all these for a failure like me?” She asked admist tears.

“Daughter! I love you! I’m the shepherd that leaves the 99 behind just to look for one missing sheep. Sounds to extreme. I already have 99, why would I leave them to go after just one?

It’s because I have one driving force. Even David said in the scriptures, ‘ What is man? That thou art thoughtful of him? What is the son of man, that thou visiteth him?’

Sarah, I love you! I’ll never stop loving you. I have missed you so much. I can’t leave you in the tormenting arms of the devil. He keeps telling you there’s no hope for you.

But I’m here to tell you that there is hope for the tree that has been cut down. Sarah, are you ready to take my hand and journey with this loving Jesus?

“Lord! I’m so sorry! Forgive me for failing you!” That was what I heard her saying, when I woke up.

I found myself on the floor and Sarah, kneeling beside me, pouring her heart to God.

“What am I doing on the floor? What happened to me?”

I remembered I was talking to Sarah about Jesus. But what happened to me along the way?

It was after the prayers that Sarah told me everything that happened. How Jesus possessed my human body to speak to her.

I cried when she told me. I couldn’t believe Daddy would go such length to save a soul. Secondly, I couldn’t believe he would use me to that extent.

To be continued…….

Who told you you’re too sinful to be saved?

Who told you you have disappointed God so much that there’s no hope for you in Christ?

Jesus you love me too much oooo

Too much oooo

Too much oooo excess love ooo

Indeed, his love for us is too much. Accept his offer of intimacy and let him spoil you love.

Episode 54

“Knock knock! Can I come in? My mentor asked, knocking on my bedroom door.

I was surprised. Normally, Evelyn would come to announce to me that I had a visitor. Then I would go downstairs to meet the person. But here she was at my bedroom door which was widely open.

She smiled and entered.

“Actually, I told Evelyn not to bother informing you I was around”, she said and sat down on the bed.

“Mummy! I’m so happy to see you!” I said smiling as I stood up and knelt down to greet her.

“Yeah me too”, she said and spread her arms for a hug.

I left my study table and went into her arms.

We rocked back and forth for a while and never wanted to let go.

“Mummy! Thank you so much for being there for me. Thank you for fighting on your knees for me!” I said still clinging tight to her.

“Cris! That’s what mothers do. When the devil touches their children, they fight back. How would I stand by and watch Satan destroy the fruit of my labour? You had barely started to fulfill your purpose, then one Satan come and tries to destroy you. He’ll have to pass through me ooo! The mistake he made was to leave the shepherd and attack the sheep.


That’s why the bible says, strike the shepherd and the sheep would be scattered. That’s why it’s a good thing to always pray for your spiritual parents. Imagine if I had fallen when Satan was attacking you. There would be no mother to arise and defend you in the realm of the spirit.

That’s why you must always pray for your spiritual parents. They’re a covering over you. A defense in the spiritual realm. Lot’s spiritual father which was Abraham, was the reason why his family was spared. Abraham stood in the gap to interceed for Lot.

So always remember me in your prayers”, she said and we loosed ourselves from the mother and daughter hug.

“I remembered that period when you called me a crazy woman on the phone. I got angry and began to nurse bitterness towards you. When God started telling me to pray for you, I struggled to obey. He used my husband to teach me the mystery behind bitterness and hatred. My eyes were opened.I knew I needed to stand in the gap for you.

What the devil tried to do was to strike the shepherd. He tried to strike me with bitterness and seal my mouth from pray for you. He pushed you to insult me so that I would get angry with you, when I should be angry with him for what he did to you. When I understood you were not the enemy, but Satan. I decided to spend 30 minutes everyday, praying for you. There were times I added fasting to it. There were time I prayed from twelve midnight, till dawn.

It was a battle and I was so glad I understood spiritual warfare. The first thing about spiritual warfare is, don’t fight in the physical. Allow God fight that one for you. All you have to do is fight in the spirit realm through prayers. Avoid anything physical combat.

That’s what Satan tried to do. He tried to bring me down, so that he can deal with you and I’ll not be there to defend you. But God helped me to stand and overcome the spirit of bitterness. That’s how your relationship with Chris got destroyed completely.

Now he came for you again. And like I said earlier, strike the shepherd and the sheep would be scattered. As long as he couldn’t bring me down. He couldn’t touch my sheep. And it so easy for the mentor to stretch her hand and pull up a fallen child. The children are still growing. They don’t have the strength to carry their mum when she falls down.

So one of the best prayers you can ever pray is that God should preserve your spiritual parents. Keep them standing. When someone at the top falls, it’s easy to hit those climbing up behind him. So one person falls from the top and knocks down those who are trying to get to the top”.

I smiled and gave her a hug.

“Thank you so much for being there for me!” I said and gave a sad smile.

“So did you pray for me this morning?” She asked as I pulled back from the embrace.

“Ahhh! Mummy! I’m about to….. I was supposed to…..to….to..”

“You’re about to? You’re supposed to. Just admit you prayed for only yourself and forgot your mummy”.

“No ooo! How will I forget my sweet mother!” I said and made to kiss her cheeks.

“Aunty Rhema calm down! Did you pray for me? Yes or no!” She said, blocking me with her hands.

“Mummy, how will I forget?” I said.

“So that means you did, right?”

“Emmmm! Mummy, mummy!” I said forcing my way to her cheeks.

“Just admit it! You didn’t pray for me”, she said and stood up.

“Mummy! Where are you going?” I asked.

“You broke my heart!” She said and made playful sobs.

I chuckled and quickly stopped when she shot me a stern look.

“I’m sorry ma”, I apologized.

“You think this is a joke?” She asked.

“No ma”.

“Use the next 15 minutes to pray for me. Don’t pray for anything else, except me. Oya go down on your knees and start”, she said with a tone of finality.

“Mummy”.

“Don’t mummy me. Start”, she said authoritatively and pushed me out of the bed to my feet.

I knew she was not joking. I quickly went on my knees and began to pray.

“Daddy! I commit my sweet Mother into your hands. Let her Robertic Roberto kill her with love in Jesus name!”

“Haba! Cris! Dem no dey use love kill person na”, she complained.

“And when did you name my Apostle Paul, Robertic Roberto? You better go and marry your husband and stop pet naming other people’s husbands”.

I burst into uncontrollable laughter. She was also laughing, but was doing her best to hide it.

“And by the way. Thanks for the pet name though. I’ve got a new pet name to look for his trouble this evening”, she said smiling.

I watched her smiling and knew to her, marriage was a bed of roses. I was wondering how she and her husband met. Did she meet him as a well known man of God on fire for the Lord. Was he as rich as he is today back then? What did she see in him that made her fall in love with him? Is it possible for God to pick someone you don’t love and hand they person over to you as your life partner?

“Cris! I said pray! You have wasted two minutes. Two extra minutes have been added. Waste more time and you’ll remain on your knees throughout today”.

“Ha! Mummy! I’m sorry ma! I will not do it again”, I pleaded and made those puppy eyes for her.

“Close your eyes and pray!” She said and turned the other way.

“Daddy! I commit my sweet Mother’s Apostle Paul!”

“Cris! Pray fervently, but silently. I want to see your actions that you’re actually praying and at the same time not hear your voice. Pray under your breath”.

I close my eyes and began to pray. Just as she instructed me, I prayed silently and fervently. If you were asleep in the room, my prayers would not disturb you. That was something my mentor had taught me. To pray without anyone being disturbed by my prayers and yet pray fervently.

“Time up”, my mentor said when fifteen minutes were completed.

To be honest, I was begging in my heart for her to round up the prayers. I was already feeling exhausted. I could pray for hours before. I don’t know why prayers was becoming a struggle for me these days. It wasn’t like this before. I had been asking God to strengthen me to pray. But I don’t know what was taking him so long to do so.

“Cris, I can see you were struggling”, my mentor said smiling.

I stood up and staggered a little. She quickly caught me and carried me in her back.

“Jesus! Mummy! Stop! Please stop! I shouted admist laughter.

“Would you keep quiet and allow me carry you to the bathroom to go and bath you”.

“Mummy please stop!” I pleaded.

“Keep quiet jare! Allow me carry my baby girl”, she said and carried me to the bed, before dropping me.

I jumped off her back and sat on the bed.

“Mummy! Why would you do that?” I asked.

“Aren’t you my baby girl?”

“No! I’m a 33 year old lady. I’m a full grown adult. Why use so much energy on someone like me?”

“That’s a good question. But you know the answer already. It’s just word. I love you”.

She said and sat down. I quickly sat beside her and wove my fingers into hers. She looked at me and smiled.

“Mummy!”

“Yes dear!”

“Something has been on my mind lately. I noticed that I have not been praying like I used to pray before. I mean before I fell that day of the proposal. Mummy what could be the cause?”

“The fall of course!”

“How?”

“Cris”, my mentor called and stood in my bed. She can be dramatic sometimes.

“If I fall from this bed, would I get up?

“Yes”, I answered.

“Good, what if I fell from the roof of my house? Would I get up?”

“You would but, you would be injured”, I answered.

“What if a fell from a satellite?”

“Ha! You’ll find yourself in the grave.

“Cris! Spiritual life is a height. Your spirit man has a body. It’s not the fall that’s really the issue, it’s your spiritual height that is the problem. Where are you falling from?

Some Christians sometimes willingly fall into sin. They tell themselves, after they have committed the sin they would repent. When you fall from the roof of this house you’ll definitely get up right?”

“Yes ma!”

“But would your body or should I say your spiritual body function the way it was functioning before you fell?”

“No!”

“That’s it! Cris your legs would take time to heal. Your bones would need to heal in time. That’s exactly how it is spiritually. And when your legs aret functioning as they used to before you fell, can you run a race like you used to before the fall?”

“No ma”, I answered.

“Now in order to recover, what do you do?”

“Take medication”, I answered.

“Exactly, the bible says in Proverbs 3:1 My son, forget not my law; but let thine heart keep my commandments:

Verse 2. For length of days, and long life, and peace, shall they add to thee.

Verse 3. Let not mercy and truth forsake thee: bind them about thy neck; write them upon the table of thine heart:

And in verse 8. It shall be health to thy navel, and marrow to thy bones.

This is the word of God. Keep reading the Bible. Your spirit man would start recovering faster.

Proverbs 4:20 My son, attend to my words; incline thine ear unto my sayings.

Verse 21. Let them not depart from thine eyes; keep them in the midst of thine heart.

Verse 22. For they are life unto those that find them, and health to all their flesh.

To be continued…….

Hope you are all praying for me ooo. Please I may not be a mentor to everyone, but as a labourer in the Lord’s vineyard.
Your prayers are so much appreciated.

In your quiet time, in your comments, in your personal fasting and prayer, remember bro Isaac

Tell Cris to go and marry her gateman and stop pet naming other people’s husbands.

I Sha like the name. Robertic Roberto. The name carry power!
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Tomorrow we would be looking at this particular question
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Is it possible for God to pick someone you don’t love, and hand the person over to you as your life partner?

Come with your pen and jotter tomorrow

Episode 55

“Mummy! There’s something that has been on my mind lately”.

“Okay! Go on I’m listening”, she replied.

“Everyone knows how much you love your husband. I mean, you love him so much and it’s clearly seen by all. I want to ask, how did you meet your husband? Did you meet him as a young firey preacher? Did you meet him as a young handsome man on fire for Jesus? Please tell me”.

She smiled.

“Cris, I hope you’re not rejecting our gateman?” She asked grinning.

I quickly looked the other way.

“Ehn! Answer me oh! Lemme start praying another round of deliverance prayers. Every spirit of rebellion in the life of Christiana, die by fire!”

I started laughing.

“It’s not a laughing matter Cris. If you need to be delivered, let me know. Do you still see the spirit of rebellion giving you orientation? Do you still find yourself struggling to submit to God?” She asked.

I sighed and looked down.

“To be honest with you. The only thing that stands in my way is the fear of what would happen if I rebel. I just don’t want the trouble I came out from. Within me, I feel like…..like…..like……”

She placed her hand on my shoulder.

“Mummy! Please help me. My heart is used to rebellion. I don’t know what is wrong with me. I know what would happen to me if I rebel. Yet, I see myself struggling with rebellion. I don’t want to fall into my vomit again. I want to submit myself to God, but the struggle seems unending”.

“Shhhhh…..! It’s alright Cris. I understand how you’re feeling. You want to obey god because of the harm not obeying him would bring!” She exhaled and shut her eyes.

I gave her that apologetic look. I can’t really explain what was wrong with me, but I wasn’t sure if it was submission to God or fear of getting mad again that was pushing me into obedience.

“Mummy! To be honest. One of the reasons why I was always scared of bringing God into my marital life was this. I had this mindset that God would always bring what he likes. The person he likes, contrary to what we like. He wouldn’t care about how we feel about his choice for us in marriage. Whether we love the person or not, is none of his business.

All he wants is just like most Nigerian movies. The prince falls in love with a lady and proposes to her. Unknown to him, his parents have already arranged a lady for him. Even when the prince is not willing to wed her, the parents insist on the marriage. The prince has no choice. Whether he loves the lady or not is none of his parent’s business.

Their will must stand, you don’t dare them. If you do, they’ll frustrate you. If you beg and plead with them, they won’t bulge. This is how it happens in most African love stories. I’m so sorry to say, it’s happening in Christianity.

I was in love with Chris. He was the first man in my life to win my heart. Everything in me loved and clung to him. But God shows up and tells me as my father, he doesn’t want that for me. And all my efforts to try and get him to agree with me were futile.

My frustrations was the worst. All the men that showed interest in marrying me, cannot marry me. Chris is a no go area. Harry, said it cannot happen. The only one that wants to marry me is the one I don’t like. How would God enjoy frustrating me like this? Can’t he give me something or someone I like? How would he look passed my feelings and do whatever he likes?

Mummy, is it possible for God to pick someone you don’t love and hand the person over to you as your life partner?” I asked.

I was amazed she allowed me pour out my heart. Most of what I said were words I ought not to say. But, I don’t know why those were the thoughts going on in my heart. I just had to free myself and say them. I was expecting her to give me a stern look, or try to tell me with body language to stop, but she didn’t. She listened to everything I had to say.

“Now listen to me Cris! You asked a very important question. Can God give you someone you don’t love as a life partner?

The first thing I want you to understand about love is that love is our nature as believers. Unbelievers don’t have what we have. God is love. And as long as we have God in us, we have love in us. That’s a deception from hell. That spirit telling you, that you cannot love the man God is giving to you as a life partner, is a spirit of deception.

God lives in you and you must never forget, love is a choice. And you are commanded to love. Sometimes you’re right darling. God seems to not to care about our feelings.

There was a day I had a feeling. It was a feeling of pain. I was hurt and felt so bad. My daughter called me a crazy woman. I was so angry and bitter. Then God showed up and told me to go on my knees and start praying for her. That was so cruel”.

I looked at her and almost started crying.

“At least, he should promise me he was going to deal with you. Maybe punish you badly. That should satisfy my anger. But he said I should get down on my knees and start praying for you. Who does that?

I wasn’t ready to do it. But God kept insisting and when I obeyed. I discovered I had the most wonderful baby girl in the world”, she said and placed her arm around my shoulder.

She drew me close and pecked me on the forehead.

“I realized I had the best gift ever. I discovered I almost lost the most precious daughter he gave me.

Cris! God’s plan may not look like what you pictured in your head. But let me tell you, no man has ever submitted his all to God and regretted it. No, it’s too impossible. You can’t follow God and tell your generation following God’s will for your life was the biggest mistake I ever made in your life.

Stop it Cris! God is not Africa Magic. That’s their story and movie, not your story. God is the best parent you can ever have. He is the best story teller. He said in his word in Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

That means, God wants to give you an expected end. Do you know what an expected end is? God is actually planning to give you that expectation in your heart. That’s what that scripture mean. But you need to understand that his ways are not our ways. His plans are completely different from what we have. But can I ask you a question? Does God make mistake?”

“No ma!”

“Please tell me he made a serious blunder. Can we go and tell him he made a big mistake? Please, let’s kneel down and tell the Almighty that for the first time in history, he made a mistake. He paired Cris with handsome Silas”.

I chuckled.

“Why are you laughing? God can make mistakes sometimes and needs capable people like you to help correct his mistakes, right?”

“No ma”, I answered smiling.

“Are you sure? Cause it looks like we need to be helping God in decision making now. How can he be pairing a CEO of a company with her gateman? Come, let’s go and correct this God’.

“No ma”.

“Are you sure?”

“Yes ma”.

“Are you sure he knows what’s best for you?”

“Yes he does”.

“Does it seem like what you like?”

“No! But I trust him. He knows what he sees in Oga Silas that made him ordain us for each other. I may not like him at first, but I know he’ll definitely be with me in the boat. Because a boat without Jesus is in for wreckage. That ship sailing without Jesus as a passenger, will soon experience shipwreck.

When Jesus is in that boat, you can easily tap him out of his sleep when the storms of life approaches. He’ll get up and calm the storm in no time.

Mummy, I chose to go with Jesus. He knows what’s best for me. Now I understand. Now I can clearly see, he loves me so much. I may not love Oga Silas, but love is a choice. So as I chose to love him, I will see myself loving him. Love lives inside of me in the person of the Holy Spirit. The number one fruit of the Holy Spirit is love.

So I don’t need to worry about loving my fiancee. It would naturally come as the relationship begins. That’s the most amazing thing I’ve discovered today”, I said smiling.

“That’s the spirit Cris!”

“Thank you so much Mummy!” I said and hugged my mentor.

“You’re welcome darling. You’re always welcome. Cris, my husband was not the anointed man of God you see today when I married him. If I had a choice, I wouldn’t have married him. I discipled my husband when he got born again. I was a very strict lady back then. When he proposed, I assumed it was infatuation and rebuked him sharply.

It was when God confronted me and told me he was the one that reality dawned on me. I realized I was a spiritual proud lady. I was proud of my spiritual height and felt a man that I was higher than spiritually cannot be my head.

I discovered I was proud. It had been growing silently in me. I cried to God in fasting and prayers to kill my spiritual pride. I told him he didn’t need to teach me humility by handing me over to a mentee in marriage. I told him I had learnt my lesson, that he can now cancel the marriage.

He told me he had no business with my request. He said what had been planned before my birth cannot be altered. It was really humility for me Cris. Saying yes sir to someone I once ordered around.

Cris, it was a struggle. But today, I’m the most happiest married woman. I’m not regretting it now. Am I?”

“No ma”.

“So what makes you think you would regret it?” She asked.

I threw my arms around her and hugged her.

“Now I can see clearly. It’s the Devil that has been clouding my vision”, I said, still holding her tightly.

“Cris! I believe I have had the kind of experience you’re having now. Marrying someone you thought you’re better than. But at the end, you’ll be grateful to God. Cris, it’s a journey of humility. A journey of submission. But never a journey you’ll regret. Are you ready to journey with Jesus on your boat?”

“Mummy! I’m ready for this journey. I’m ready to marry my gateman”, I said smiling.

If only I knew what those words meant, I wouldn’t have said it in a hurry.

To be continued……….

Brethren, Our God remains the wise and omnipotent one. No wisdom is greater than him. He is the giver of all wisdom.

Has he commanded you to do something and you think it’s foolishness to obey?

No, that’s the trick of the Devil. The bible says that the expectations of the righteous shall not be cut off. Those things you expect in your marital life, he’ll bring it to pass.

But you must learn to trust and obey.

Trust and obey
For there’s no other way
To be happy in Jesus
But to trust and obey.

Episode 56

I drove towards my company building. My heart was pounding heavily within me. It was my first day at work after the incident that landed me at the psychiatric hospital.

I never knew everyone had heard about it until last night. How would they look at me now? I was wondering what would be their reaction towards me.

I was yet to apologize to pastor Kunle and Oga Silas. Sorry, my mentor said she doesn’t like the name Oga Silas. She said I should call him Handsome Silas. I was still struggling with the new name. I needed to apologize to him, but not on phone.

I wanted to apologize to him face to face. As soon as the gates were opened. Our eyes met. He quickly looked away and opened the gate for me.

I put off the ignition and came out of the car. Immediately he noticed I was coming out of the car, he turned and started leaving.

“Silas!” I called.

He paused and didn’t turn to look at me. I never knew what I did was eating him up so badly. Could it be he had nursed bitterness towards me? As a Christian, we’re not supposed to nurse bitterness at one another. But I was the stumbling block. I caused it, now I have to fix it and apologize.

“Oga Silas I’m sorry!” I said.

He still didn’t look at me.

“CRIS, KNEEL DOWN AND APOLOGIZE!” Came the gentle whisper.

I was shocked. Kneel down to beg a gateman? Abomination of the century. How can me, the CEO of Kolapo production company. Kneel down to apologize to a gateman.

“How will the boss kneel down to beg her employee? I’m the boss, I cannot kneel down to beg a mere gateman”, I said within me.

“CAN YOU HEAR YOURSELF? LOOK AT THE PERCENTAGE OF PRIDE IN YOU. JUST HEAR YOURSELF! YOU WANT ME TO USE YOU WITH THIS KIND OF PRIDE? I DON’T THINK SO”.

I felt bursting into tears.

“Daddy I’m sorry!”

“DON’T TELL ME THAT. GO AND DO WHAT I TOLD YOU TO DO. MR SILAS IS NO GATEMAN. HE’S YOUR BOSS AND YOUR HEAD. YOUR HUSBAND. SO HE DESERVES YOU KNEELING TO APOLOGIZE TO HIM. SO YOU’RE TELLING ME THAT YOU CANNOT KNEEL DOWN BEFORE YOUR HUSBAND IN THE FUTURE, RIGHT?”

“No sir!”

“CRIS, LET’S ARRIVE AT AN AGREEMENT. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED OR NOT? IF YOU CHOOSE NEVER TO GET MARRIED, IT’S FINE BY ME. I WANT YOU TO DECIDE. LOOKS LIKE YOU’RE SO CLEVER!”

“Daddy I’m sorry! I’m so sorry. I don’t know what is wrong with me!” I said within me and began to weep.

“GO DOWN ON YOUR KNEES!”

I rushed to meet Silas and knelt down, grabbing his right hand. He turned to look at me with shock written on his face.

“Jesus! Christiana! Please stop this!”

“Stop what? Please forgive me”, I said in a choked up voice.

“You’re my boss. Imagine what people would say if they find you like. Please stop this”, he pleaded.

“What they say does not matter. This is my life and my destiny. My life is shaped by what God says and not what people say. I don’t care what people have to say. All I know is that I’m sorry and I need your forgiveness”.

“I forgive you. Please stand up!” He said hurriedly as he noticed a car coming. My car was blocking the entrance, so anyone who wanted to enter, would be privileged to see the CEO of Kolapo production company, kneeling before the gateman.

“I don’t believe it. You’re saying this in a hurry to get people from seeing your boss kneeling in front of you. You think I care? That wasn’t genuine”, I replied.

“Christiana, try and understand. We can’t do this here. A lot of people would see us and call us names. Please get up!”

Those were the words on his mouth when Maggie met us at the gate.

You need to see the shock in her face. I told Silas I didn’t care what people would say about us. I never knew what I really meant was the kind of people. This was the kind of people that didn’t need to see me and Silas together.

Oh my God! Why did I kneel in the first place?

“YOU’RE REGRETTING WHY YOU OBEYED ME, RIGHT?”

“No sir!” I quickly apologized.

“Cris what’s going on? Why are you embarrassing yourself?” Maggie asked.

She was still talking when Kofo and Nnenna joined her. Trouble in Kolapo production company.
I’m done for! The worst had just happened.

“Oh my gosh! What am I seeing?” Nnenna asked.

“Calm down! Don’t jump into conclusion yet. She just returned from the psychiatric hospital”, Kofo said.

I quickly stood up and wiped the dust off my knees with a handkerchief.

“Cris are you okay?” Maggie asked softly.

“I’m fine!” I said and wiped my face with the back of my hands.

“Something tells me she’s not okay”, Kofo said.

“Cris, don’t be ashamed. I know a good psychiatric doctor. He’s the best in his profession. He’ll cure you in no time”, she said and let out a chuckle.

I gave her a stern look and walked passed her into my car without saying a word to her. I could hear them giggling as I turned on the ignition. I had to ignore them or I would do something I would regret.

I drove into the company and headed for the parking lot. I parked the car and came out. immediately Maggie’s car parked beside me.

They rushed out of the car to meet me. I tried to walk as fast as I could without making it look as if I was running away from them. So I tried to do it smart and quick. Walking fast but not obviously, so it wouldn’t look like I was running away.

“Young CEO! Wait up!” Nnenna called and caught up with me.

“You don’t need to run. Just tell us the goodnews and we’ll help you spread it”, she said and the rest of them chuckled.

“You won’t understand what happened”, I said, looking at her from the corner of my eyes.

“Please help me understand. What would make a CEO kneel down to her gateman when she’s not crazy?” She asked and they all burst into laughter.

“Daddy, you knew they would come and you allowed me kneel in their presence. This is unfair!”

“CRIS! WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT? IF YOU HAD OBEYED ME IMMEDIATELY I GAVE THE INSTRUCTION, NO ONE WOULD HAVE MET THE TWO OF YOU AT THE GATE. THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU DELAY IN OBEYING AN INSTRUCTION GIVEN BY GOD. AND THE WORST PART, YOU’RE TRYING TO BLAME ME FOR YOUR STUBBORNNESS AND PRIDE!”

“I’m so sorry Dad!” I said and started crying again, not minding my friends.

“Whoa! Nnenna look what you’ve done. You’re making our young CEO cry today. That’s terrible!” Kofo said and they all burst into laughter.

I quickly made for the elevator and entered. I punched the numbers to my office floor and wept all through the ride.

I quickly entered my office and shut the door behind me.

I sat down on the floor and wept. I was sure of one thing as I wept. As long as I have known what God wanted. I must do it, despite the pain it would bring. Deliberately disobeying God was the last thing I could do.

“Daddy, please help me! I don’t know what to do!” I said in a choked up voice.

What was wrong with me. Wasn’t experience enough to teach me a big lesson? I have seen the life on the other side. I mean the life without Christ in the boat. I have shipwrecked several times. Why can’t I learn for once that this is the only way?

What is still giving me the orientation that I can still make it by putting a better plan together. What inspires me to keep trying when I know very well that I’m going to fail?

“YOUR FLESH!” Came the gentle whisper.

“My what?”

“YOUR FLESH IS THE ONE INSPIRING YOU TO TRY REBELLION, WHEN YOU KNOW THE CONSEQUENCES ATTACHED TO IT. BUT THE REASON WHY IT SUCCEEDS IN DOING SO, IS BECAUSE YOU ALLOW HIM.

CRIS, YOU ALLOW HIM TO DECIEVE YOU. YOU LISTEN TO HIM WHEN HE BEGS YOU NOT TO OBEY GOD.

CRIS, YOU’RE THAT MAN WHO CARRIES HIS BAG OF SIN AND DROPS IT AT THE CROSS OF JESUS. BUT INSTEAD OF GOING AS A FREE MAN. HE OPENS THE BAG AND SELECTS THE MOST TANGIBLE ITEMS IN THE BAG AND GOES WITH THEM.

CRIS! ENOUGH WITH THE STRUGGLES. AREN’T YOU TIRED? DROP EVERYTHING. DROP THAT BAGGAGE OF PRIDE ON YOUR BACK. DROP THAT BAGGAGE OF REBELLION. YOU CAN NEVER PUSH ME ASIDE AND HAVE A HAPPY LIFE. ITS SO IMPOSSIBLE”.

I knelt down and raised my hands in the air.

“Lord I surrender. I drop everything”, I said.

“Soonest, you will pick it up again. Anytime you surrender the next thing you do is to go back to sin and rebellion Cris. I told you before to leave God alone, but you wanted to quote bible. Can you see nothing has changed?” Came that arrogant voice.

“Alot has changed!”

“Wow! What a liar!”

“I’m not lying”, I replied.

“Name them”.

I began to scan my memories for what to mention. I was almost arriving at a conclusion that the devil was right, when Dad came to my rescue.

“CRIS, STOP TALKING WITH THE DEVIL. JUST TELL HIM WHAT IS WRITTEN IN THE WORD OF GOD”, Came the gentle whisper.

“Thank you so much Dad!” I whispered as I rose up.

“It is written, if any man be in Christ, he is a new creation. Old things are passed away. Behold, all things have become new”.

“Cris! Tell me one thing that became new in your life.

“Romans 8:15 For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father. I have received the Holy Spirit”, I replied.

“Stop wasting your time. You know very well that you cannot serve this God. Your up and down Christianity is enough to make God reject you”.

“Joshua 24:16 And the people answered and said, God forbid that we should forsake the LORD, to serve other gods;

Verse 17. For the LORD our God, he it is that brought us up and our fathers out of the land of Egypt, from the house of bondage, and which did those great signs in our sight, and preserved us in all the way wherein we went, and among all the people through whom we passed:

Verse 18. And the LORD drave out from before us all the people, even the Amorites which dwelt in the land: therefore will we also serve the LORD; for he is our God.” I quoted.

“Cris God is even tired of you….”

“Get ye behind me Satan! I rebuke you in Jesus name. The Lord rebuke you, O Satan!” I snapped.

That was how the voice went off. I exhaled and smiled a victorious smile.

“Thank you so much Daddy!”

“YOU’RE WELCOME! MY PRETTY EBONY. DARK AND BEAUTIFUL!” He replied.

My office phone started ringing. I quickly took it and placed it on my ear.

“Someone’s here to see you!” Came the voice of my receptionist.

“Okay! Let him in”, I replied.

The door opened. Lo and behold. It was pastor Kunle.

I felt like the ground should open and swallow me.

To be continued……..

The journey has begun oooo. Cris you have to fix the mess you created.

What could have brought pastor Kunle to her office? Do you think he was here so she could apologize to him?

I don’t think so. That’s not enough reason to bring him here.

When the Devil tries to force you to listen to his lies. Give him the word of God and walk him out.

Watch out for the next episode

Please share with me one thing you learned from this episode.

Episode 57

“Daddy!” I said and went on my knees.

“I was planning to meet you and tender my apology to you. I’m so sorry for everything that happened. I’m so sorry for the words I spoke that day. I don’t have any excuse for speaking that way. I am sorry. Please find a place in your heart to forgive me. Please don’t punish me for what I have done. Have mercy on me”, I pleaded.

He smiled and stretched out his hand towards me. I took it and rose as he pulled me to my feet.

He gave me a fatherly hug.

“I never stopped praying for you. I knew you were treading a dangerous ground”.

He pulled out of the embrace and looked me straight in the eyes.



“Cris! There are principles in this kingdom. In this kingdom, God said, ‘don’t touch my anointed and don’t harm them. Either with your words, actions, or any means possible. Touch not my anointed and do my Prophet no harm’.

Even if the anointed of the Lord does something wrong. Even when he falls and starts misbehaving, he is still God’s anointed. And God doesn’t want you to touch him”.

I looked at him and one could tell I had questions in those eyes.

He smiled.

“Let’s sit!” He said and as soon as we were seated, he opened his bible.

“Does that mean we should not correct men of God when they go astray? We should all close our mouth and watch him rubbish the name of God, abi?”

“Read”, he said and the bible towards me.
Acts 23:1. And Paul, earnestly beholding the council, said, Men and brethren, I have lived in all good conscience before God until this day.

Verse 2. And the high priest Ananias commanded them that stood by him to smite him on the mouth.

Verse 3. Then said Paul unto him, God shall smite thee, thou whited wall: for sittest thou to judge me after the law, and commandest me to be smitten contrary to the law?

Verse 4. And they that stood by said, Revilest thou God’s high priest?

Verse 5. Then said Paul, I wist not, brethren, that he was the high priest: for it is written, Thou shalt not speak evil of the ruler of thy people”.

“Is that an advice or a command from God?” He asked.

“A command”, I answered.

“Must we obey God or not?”

“We must obey God”, I answered.

“That’s exactly what God wants. Now, I said something about when we get man of God sins against God and lives a compromised life. Many of us who do not understand spiritual principles start talking about him out of proportion.

The bible says in Ephesians 4:15. But speaking the truth in love, may grow up into him in all things, which is the head, even Christ:


Even the truth you want to speak must be spoken in love. Alot of us have good intentions. We have good reasons why we approach those people we love and speak to them
But our manner of speaking that truth no be here. We talk anyhow all because, it’s the truth we’re saying.

Many of us excuse ourselves. ‘That’s how I talk’. No! You make the person feel hated. You talk rashly and pass judgment on the backsliden believer. ‘All these fake men of God Ehn!’ That’s the usual slogan. That’s not how to speak the truth in love. You make the person sound like you hate him.

Cris! This is a mistake alot of believers make. And they’ll say,’I have spoken my own ooo. God knows your blood is not on my head. If you like repent. If you like be proving stubborn. It’s none of my business!’

Ha! Is that how you show a backsliden man how much you care about them?

The bible says, speak the truth in love. But today, we speak the truth in anger. ‘All those evil pastors chopping church money, using fake powers, gathering crowd, flying jet, using people as slaves. If they don’t repent, God will punish them. He’ll fire is waiting for you! Your home is in hell! Haba! When did Jesus teach us to win souls that way?

Most of us who complain about the attitude of fallen pastors, when was the last time we knelt down to pray for them. And we come and pretend we are doing soul winning. When all we did was to lash out judgement and damnation upon them and have the guts to call it evangelism.

No salvation in our message. All we have to offer is condemnation. Even the backsliden man will feel hurt by those words and lash back at us for hurting his ego. No body would keep quiet and watch you talk rashly to them. Even when they know very well that you’re telling the truth, they would still want to prove to you that you cannot talk to them anyhow and expect them to be completely silent.

So the demon of unrepentance quickly grabs them as fast as he can. Because of this attitude believers show. All in the name of, I’m telling him the truth but instead of him to listen, he’s busy proving stubborn. Why won’t he prove stubborn?

You’re like someone who serves a delicious meal on a dirty plate. No matter how delicious that meal is, once the plate is not good, no one would love to eat it.

The bible also went further to say in 1 Timothy 5:1. Rebuke not an elder, but intreat him as a father; and the younger men as brethren;

Another translation says, Don’t be harsh or impatient with an older man. Talk to him as you would your own father, and to the younger men as your brothers.

Verse 2. Reverently honor an older woman as you would your mother, and the younger women as sisters.

And another translation says, do not sharply censure or rebuke an older man, but entreat and plead with him as you would with a father. Treat younger men like brothers.

You don’t talk rashly to them or about them or insult them. A lot of Christians think, because he’s doing something wrong, someone has to call him to order. And the only way to do so is to talk rashly about him.

The bible says, entreat him, plead with him. Let your manner of approach be that of humility and love. Love doesn’t sound mean, ‘I have told you the truth, if you like repent, if you like stay there and be proving stubborn. Your blood is not on my head. What is that? Is that how you show love to a fallen father in the faith?

Some of us would sit in our houses and begin to pass out judgement on them. Some of us even add insult to what we say. What father, would sit down and watch a young man talk rashly to him? That is why it’s as if they are stubborn.

The bible says in Ecclesiastes 10:20 Curse not the king, no not in thy thought; and curse not the rich in thy bedchamber: for a bird of the air shall carry the voice, and that which hath wings shall tell the matter”.

“Wow!” I exclaimed.

“What’s wow?” He asked.

“I can’t imagine that God would be so much explicit as to tell us not to insult people in our thoughts. I’m surprised! So in our thinking, we should not insult people. That’s serious! How many times have I done it. I wouldn’t open my mouth to insult the person, but in my heart, I have called the person different names”, I said.

“If that is something you usually do, then stop it. Your thoughts must be pure and only pure.

Now I said something that even if he does something wrong, don’t insult him. Do you remember David and King Saul? How Saul wanted to kill David by all means and came hunting for him?

And David was able to catch him off guard when he was asleep. Normally one would say, ‘Today is the end for this evil unrepentant man of God. He claims he’s anointed, but sleeps around with anything in skirt. King Saul claims he’s anointed but consults with herbalist and witches. He claims he’s anointed but kills other men of God and nobody is talking. Saul killed the Priests of the most high God. 85 priests or should I say, pastors. He claims he’s anointed but look at how he’s oppressing his fellow anointed man of God, David. He’s such a wicked man. Today, God has decided to finish him.

But David remembered that scripture, Touch not my anointed and do my Prophet no harm. He knew despite all the evil this man of God was doing in the ministry, he was still anointed by God. That’s the example we all should follow. That’s exactly what he said. How can I touch the Lord’s anointed? He went further to say that his day of judgement will come. But he’s not going to stain his hand with the blood of God’s anointed man.

That’s the example we all should follow. He was called by God. Let God be the one to handle him. He was anointed by God, let him answer to the God that called him.

As for you who wants to say something to him, probably pass the message if repentance to him. Please speak the truth in love. Love is not arrogant. Love doesn’t speak rashly. Speak to him with that notion that you care about him.

‘Daddy, we noticed you have not been living what you preach. Daddy, the word of God says this and that. Daddy we love you so much. We can’t watch you perish after all your labour for God and his kingdom’.

That’s the way to do it. Even the bible says, a soft answer turns away wrath. The man will be calm and give you a listening ear. Those words would be able to hunt him anywhere he goes. Not what a lot of people do today, lashing out at them”.

“Wow! Thank you so much Daddy”, I said grinning.

“You’re welcome Cris. Now that was not the reason why I came here. I came here for two things”.

I was eager to find out the reason for his coming. I exhaled and sat upright.

“Number one, has God revealed to you anything concerning Silas?” He asked.

“Oh! Didn’t see that coming”, I said within me.

“Yes sir”, I answered.

“So is he your husband or should we wait for another?” He asked, giving me a funny grin.

“Daddy! You know very well he is”, I said and chuckled.

“Wow! Congratulations!” He said and stretched his hand for a handshake. I took it and smiled.

“Thank you sir!”

“That takes us to number two”.

I listened with rapt attention.

“Silas needs our prayers” he began.

Omo! See the way fear enter my body. What happened? Not my husband to be ooo!

“Ever since that incidence, he has not been himself anymore. I don’t know what you did to him. But he was telling me that you did something to him in the presence of his friends and it was so embarrassing. I tried asking him to talk,but he isn’t talking. He didn’t say it to my hearing and when I tried asking him, he keeps refusing to tell me.

So I have decided to come here and ask you myself. That man has been eaten up by the spirit of bitterness. But it’s so sad that you were the instrument Satan used to achieve that. That’s what happens when you don’t allow God lead you. Automatically, Satan begins to lead you”.

I broke down into tears as a scripture came to my mind.

It is better a millstone is tied to your neck and you’re thrown into the sea, than to make one of these little ones sin against God.

I can’t believe I have pushed Silas into bitterness and unforgiveness through my attitude. Where do I start begging from now? How do I clean up the mess I had made?

To be continued……

Sin is a virus. When the affected person is well treated by those healthy people around them, they become healed.

Don’t ignore those living in sin around you. Start sharing God’s word with them. If not, sin would spread and get you infected too.

When you delay in obeying God, the problem on ground gets bigger and complicating.

All Cris had to do was to accept Silas as her husband. Now she has a bigger issue to solve as a result of her disobedience.

Episode 58

“So what did you do? What happened between the two of you?” Pastor Kunle asked.

I started narrating my story. How I spat in front of Silas in the presence of everyone. How I insulted him and everything.

I was expecting the pastor to say something. Something like, ‘How could you have done such a thing?’ or, ‘Cris, you’re such a horrible person!’

All he did was listen to me. He was completely sorry, from the look on his face. That was part of what I could make out of it.
I looked for some sign of blame casting. Something to show he was disappointed in me, but I saw nothing.

“It’s alright Cris! I guess we have serious work to do. By that I mean prayers”, he said.

“Sir!”

“Yes”, he replied.

“Can I call him to join us here?” I asked.

“Feel free. Though I doubt he will agree. He has been avoiding me at every cost”.

“No! Not Silas. He’s a good man. He can’t do something like that”, I said as I brought out my phone and dialed his number.

As soon as it started ringing, I placed it close to my ears.

“Hello!”

“Hi Mr Silas! I’m so sorry for the way everything went this morning”, I apologized.

“Don’t bring up this issue again. It’s fine by me. I have forgiven you and you are free to move on with your rich life”.

My jaws dropped, leaving my mouth wide open. Was this my Silas or someone else speaking.

“Silas I’m sorry. I just want to make a request. Please!”

“That I meet you in your office, right? My answer is no. You can go ahead and fire me. I really need that now. That would save me alot of embarrassment. One of your friends met me here this morning while driving out and made a fool out of me.

Cris, I saw pastor when he entered. I know what both of you are planning. You can fire me if you want. But be sure of one thing. I’m not coming up there”, he replied.

“Silas! Have you forgotten I’m your boss and you are just a gateman? Who’s giving you morale? Oh! Is it because I want to marry you that you’re now misbehaving for me? I want to come down to your level and marry you and you’re busy doing yanga for me”.

Those were the words I was about to say, when daddy stopped me. No, they were not good at all. I couldn’t use such words on my husband. Every wife must learn to be submissive.

I exhaled and clutched the phone tightly.

“Silas, please forgive me! I’m sorry!”

“Christiana, please! I need you to believe I have forgiven you. You are free to live your life the way you want. What do you need from a gateman like me?”

“I have something very important to tell you, please!”

“There’s no need for that! Goodbye boss”, he said and hung up.

“Jesus, what humiliation? Christiana begging a gateman! Her own gateman. Lord you really know how to humble the proud. Blessed be your name”, I said and made a sad smile.

“Wow!” The pastor smiled.

I bowed my head and whispered a few prayers to God.

“THIS IS THE NEW SILAS YOUR REBELLION HAS CREATED”, Came the gentle whisper.

“God please! Help me! I would never forgive myself if I become the reason this innocent brother falls”, I whispered.

“IF YOU CAN PRAY, I’LL ANSWER! CAN YOU SEE WHAT YOU DID? YOU CREATED A MESS YOU DON’T HAVE THE POWER TO CLEAN. THAT’S ONE THING HUMANS DON’T REALIZE. THEY KEEP CLAIMING IT’S MY LIFE AND I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT WITH IT. BUT THEY DON’T KNOW THAT EVERYTHING WE DO HAS AN EFFECT ON SOMEONE ELSE. WHETHER NEGATIVE OR POSITIVE.

FOR EXAMPLE, A YOUNG LADY IN SECONDARY SCHOOL CAN STAND UP AND SAY, ‘IT’S MY LIFE NOT MY PARENT’S. IM GOING TO USE MY BODY THE WAY I LIKE IT. SHE STARTS GOING AFTER GUYS BECAUSE SHE LIKES IT. SOON, SHE GETS AN UNWANTED PREGNANCY. WHO’S GOING TO CLEAN UP THE MESS?”

“Her parents”.

“WHO WOULD BEAR THE SHAME OF HAVING A PREGNANT TEENAGER?”

“Her parents?”

“DOES HER DECISION TO ENJOY THE PLEASURES OF SIN AFFECT HER PARENTS?”

“Yes”.

“THAT’S IT CRIS! DON’T BE SELF CENTERED IN YOUR DECISIONS. EVERY DECISION YOU MAKE FOR YOURSELF IS NOT MEANT FOR YOU ALONE. SOMEONE IS GOING TO BE AFFECTED. LOVED ONES ARE GOING TO CRY. FAMILY AND FRIENDS ARE GOING TO FEEL THE PAIN. IT’S EITHER GOING TO MAKE THEM PROUD OR BRING SHAME TO YOU. SO WATCH YOUR ACTIONS”.

“Daddy, I’m so sorry for creating this mess”,

“IT’S OKAY MY BABY GIRL! FOR THIS REASON THE SON OF GOD WAS MADE MANIFEST THAT HE MIGHT DESTROY THE WORKS OF THE DEVIL. THAT’S WHAT I CANE TO DO. SHOULD I SAY I ENJOY TEACHING THE DEVIL A LESSON”.

I raised my head and took up a handkerchief to wipe my tears.

“Daddy, can we go and meet him at the gate?” I asked.

“That wouldn’t be necessary. Let’s give him some space. We have talked and it’s not working. Let’s go into the spirit realm to talk. I like talking from the spirit realm. The physical realm have no choice but to bow”, he said smiling.

“Yes sir”, I replied.

“So can we fix a time to meet in the spirit realm?”

“I don’t understand”,I replied, giving him that face that showed I was confused.

“I meant. When can we schedule the prayer? I want us to pick a time. You’ll be praying in your house at that time and I’ll be praying in mine”, he answered.

“Oh! Is that what you call meeting in the spirit realm?”

“Yeah!”

“Daddy, you are one mysterious pastor!” I said grinning.

“See your mouth! You think I have not been watching your online videos. What was that your name again oooo. …. Yes!” He shouted.

“Aunty Rhema!”

I burst into laughter on the spot.

“My head swelled when I heard you mention Fanny Jane Crossby in your ministration. I had never heard of her in my life. I was surprised that all those hymns I loved so much were written by a blind woman. Cris, I was blessed by that ministration.

I saw how souls came out in their numbers to meet with Jesus. Satan was infuriated that day and swore to knock you down. But he’s a failure in Jesus name!”

“Amen!” I replied.

“So what time are we picking?” He asked.

“Twelve midnight”, I answered.

“Hmmmmm! This madam has also understood spiritual wall clock. I envy your grace ooo!”

I laughed so hard that my stomach tightened.

“Daddy, don’t go there. You’re the one owing me impartation”, I replied.

“Calm down jare! John the Baptist told Jesus that he was supposed to be the one coming to Jesus for baptism, yet Jesus was meeting him to be baptized. But at the end of the day, who baptized Jesus?”

I started laughing again.

“Na laugh be the answer? Who baptized Jesus?”

“John, sir”, I said admist laughter.

“Exactly! So come and baptize me ooo! To fulfill all righteousness”,

I couldn’t believe I would find spiritual leaders this interesting. I always thought spiritual men are so strict and serious. I had never seen this side of the man of God.

He left with the promise to call me later in the day. I picked up my phone and explained all that happened to my mentor. It was a one hour discussion on the phone. Hmmm, spiritual parents sacrifice their time alot ooo. At the end of the conversation, she agreed to join pastor and I in the prayers. She even promised to get her husband to join us.

What a mum she is. I was so speechless on the phone.

“Mummy, you’re the best. I can’t believe I was almost dumping you for Susan”.

Now I saw the stupidity in what Susan stopped me from doing. My mentor was not just a spiritual leader but we were connected in the spirit. The love she has for me is more stronger than anyone out there. Because the mother who birthed the child would be more connected to the child than a stranger I just met in two days.

I called Harmony, Cynthia, Sharon, though it was Tunde that picked the call. I also called my new friend from the psychiatric hospital, Sarah. They all agreed to join us for the prayers.

“Satan! We’re coming for you. Meet us for combat at 12 midnight!”

When I drove out of the company, it was our second gateman that opened the gate.

I had to ask what happened to Silas. Normally, this guy opens the gate for the company, but I knew today’s own was deliberate.

“He took a leave from work. He’s gone home”, he answered.

“CRIS FORGET ABOUT THAT! GO HOME. WE’VE GOT SOME SERIOUS BOXING TO GIVE LUCIFER TONIGHT”, Came the gentle whisper.

“Thank you”, I said and drove out.

To tell you the truth, I was only waiting for 12 midnight that day. Everything I was doing was so irrelevant. I found myself looking at the clock at intervals.

To be honest I only slept for 30 minutes that night. I was awake when my 12 midnight alarm rang. I had already called everyone praying along side with me to remind them. They all gave me a positive response.

“Arise oh Lord and let your enemies be scattered!” I said as I began pacing the room, speaking in unknown tongues.

I prayed aggressively like a wounded lion which indeed, I was. Satan had offended me so much. It’s time to pay him back in his own coins. My voice was almost deep. It was so loud that I forgot myself.

As I prayed, I began to hear voices of different people praying in tongues. I was surprised, but kept praying.

“Daddy what’s going on? I asked.

“THOSE ARE THE VOICES OF THE PEOPLE PRAYING ALONG WITH YOU!” Came the gentle whisper.

I smiled as a scripture dropped in my heart.

“1 Timothy 2:8. I will therefore that men pray every where, lifting up holy hands, without wrath and doubting”.

The prayers lasted for 2 hours before I felt peace within me. I still wanted to pray.

“I’m not sure this peace is enough”, I said within and started another round of aggressive prayers.

“MY FRIEND WILL YOU GO AND SLEEP? AUNTY PRAYER WARRIOR!”

“Daddy, one must not repeat the mistake of the past. Let me pray for the next fifteen minutes”,

“IF I CATCH YOU EHN! THIS ROOM WILL NOT CONTAIN THE TWO OF US!”

I burst into laughter.

“Daddy, I’m already in your hands na. Where will I run to that you are not there?”

“I MEANT IF I CATCH YOU PRAYING. GO AND SLEEP LET ME COVER YOU WITH THE BLANKET”.

“Wow! Daddy, that’s so sweet of you”, I said and rushed to the bed.

I laid down and made sure I didn’t spread the duvet over my body.

“Daddy, I’m waiting for you. Come and cover your baby girl!”

“USE YOUR HANDS JARE! SEE YOUR MOUTH!” He replied and I could feel him laughing within me.

“But you said you would cover me with the blanket”, I said and frowned.

“THAT’S ONE THING YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND. ANYTHING I MUST DO ON EARTH MUST BE CARRIED OUT BY A HUMAN BEING. IF I WANT TO BLESS YOU FINANCIALLY, I MEAN, IF I WANT TO GIVE YOU MONEY. I WOULD NEED TO DO IT THROUGH A HUMAN BEING.

SO RIGHT NOW, I NEED YOU TO USE YOUR HANDS BECAUSE THOSE HANDS ARE ACTUALLY MY HANDS!”

“Daddy I score you hundred over hundred in wisdom. You finish me!” I replied laughing.

“WHO CREATED WISDOM IN THE FIRST PLACE?”

“Oh! I forgot!” I replied with a smile.

“ONE MORE THING CRIS!”

“Yes Daddy!”

“MAKE SURE YOU CALL SILAS BY THE BREAKING OF THE DAY. IS THAT OKAY?”

“Yes sir!” I replied.

To be continued…….

Cris has created a mess she doesn’t have the power to clean up. But that’s the wonderful thing about God. He’s just too loving. He would still show up when you need him. He’s always a friend that sticks closer than a brother.

Silas would be the one to tell the story henceforth.

So get ready for the next episode.

I want to thank you all for the prayers you rained on me yesterday. The sickness could not survive such an atmosphere of prayers.

It had no choice but to flee.

Please share with me one thing you learned in this episode.

Don’t read and walk away silently. Please go ahead and share what you learnt with me.

Episode 59

SILAS POV

I sat down unable to get the thought out of my head. I was forced to go on leave that night. I knew her name very well. She was the one who bought a new car recently. Margret Philips. But she was popularly called Maggie.

I was with my fellow security officials when she walked into our midst and slapped me.

Everyone looked at us with shock written on their faces.

“If you love yourself, you better go and undo the charm you used on my friend. I was thinking it was a joke all these while. But you have charmed her to the point of commanding her to marry you. You this riff raff!”

She grabbed my shirt and slapped me again.

“If it’s money you’re looking for, I’ll pay you as much as you want. Leave Cris alone! Go and undo the spell you cast on her. If you don’t comply, you’ll have me to deal with”.

I was still trying to figure out a perfect answer to give her when saliva landed on my face. She spat on me.

What was the meaning of all these? I hated saliva with everything in me. That was what she threw on my face.

I was infuriated. I pushed her in anger and she landed on the floor.

“What?” She shouted.

I quickly tried to apologize but she got up at and was about to fight me like a mad woman. I quickly ran out through the small passage way in the gate and got out of the company.

She came out and threw insults at me as I walked away furiously.

I kept walking and never looked back. I was tired of being an object of riddicle. All my mates have been making jest of me. Christiana gave the news to everyone that day she spat at my feet.

They kept asking me if I went to propose to the CEO.

“Guy! You sure say you dey normal?”

“Wait o! E be like say we go carry this guy go psychiatric hospital oooo. Your Boss na him you go propose to. You no see one girl wey dey hawk groundnut propose give na come be your boss”.

“This guy get mind ooo”.

“No be lie!”

“Trouble in the animal kingdom”.

“No, it’s a mystery. A mystery I no fit understand”.

“How gateman go wake up one morning. No be say he smoke, waka go meet CEO say I wan marry you? Chai! Silas, the prophet wey go deliver you Ehn, Dem never born am”.

“Yes ooo! They need to carry the prophet for belle for 12 months. So that, he go carry the 12 anointing of the 12 Apostles of Jesus Christ.

For 3 years, the pikin no go waka ooo. Because wetin he wan use he leg waka go do, no be here”.

The insults were just too numerous to count.

One sat beside me and asked.
“Abeg show me the Babalawo wey give you the charm. I need to dey catch babes wey get money well well. Abeg, where the baba dey stay?”

These were the words that stormed my mind as I walked. The humiliation and shame was really something I couldn’t bear. I kept walking and wondered what had I done to deserve all the drama that was going on.

To be sincere can someone please explain to me what I did to deserve the shame and humiliation? All I did was ask my heavenly father for a life partner. Only to be handed a package of shame and disgrace. What did I do to deserve this kind of love? Or should I say, hatred.

I believed God and I trusted in his plans for me maritally. Where was all these coming from? At least I prayed and confirmed several times. Why was God treating me as if it wasn’t him that sent me? I don’t understand what all these insults were all about.

I looked like a gold digger. I looked like someone everyone suspected to have selfish intentions. And this was what God wanted me to go through all in the name of marriage. I don’t think I am ready for something like this.

And I also noticed that ever since I decided to treat Christiana like this, God stopped talking to me. I was missing him already, but how to get back to him was my biggest struggle.

I arrived at my house and tried to open the door with the keys. I discovered it had been opened and smiled because that meant my little sister was back from school.

I opened it and met her and one of the ladies from our church, Sister Lizzy. They were eating rice together.

“Brother mi! Ekaasun!” Sade greeted.

“Silas, good afternoon!” Lizzy greeted.

“Afternoon sisters! How are you?”

“Fine sir”, they both chorused and continued with their meal.

I was curious to find them eating rice. I remembered I had no rice in the house. How did they get the rice they were eating?

I concluded it was Sade that brought it with her. I looked around my one room apartment for my sister’s things, but they were no where in sight.

“Sade, where are your things?” I asked as I sat beside the ladies on the bed.

“I’m going back anytime soon”, she answered.

“Ah ah! I thought you guys were supposed to be on holidays na?” I asked.

“Yes oooo. But I found a guy in school who is willing to teach us for free. The courses we have next semester are really tough courses. The rate of failure is so high in those courses. I think about 4 of them.

Our holiday is just two weeks. The guy would be teaching us every afternoon around 4pm. So that means I’ll have to remain there till he’s done with us. Everyday except Sundays and Saturdays. Free of charge. I can’t lose such an opportunity all in the name of holiday. Who holiday help?”

“At least you should tell me all these na. You can’t just plan everything by yourself and expect me to roll with it”, I said and frowned.

“Ah! Ema binu!” She said and was about kneeling down to beg me.

“E joko, ejoko!” I quickly replied, telling her to sit down.

“All these Yoruba people Ehn”, Lizzy said laughing.

“What did Yoruba people do to you?” I asked.

“Nothing ooo! It’s just that you guy have A¹ in greeting and respect. I love Yoruba people for that”, she said smiling.

“Tell God that the next time you are coming to this world, you would love to be a Yoruba girl”, I said and we all burst into laughter.

“Person leave this world make heaven na to come this world again. God forbid bad thing. I go sleep for heaven, I no dey go anywhere”, my sister replied.

“I wonder ooo. Thank God say na only once we dey come this life”, I added and we all laughed.

“Let me get you something to eat”, Sade said and left for the little corner of the room I called my kitchen.

She opened my pot and loaded to the top was rice in its shiny colour. It’s aroma filled the room and woke up the boneless creatures in my tommy.

She came back with a plate and handed it over to me.

“Eshe”, I thanked her and set the food down.

I was about eating when I remembered I had not prayed on the food, but I ignored and started eating.

“Wow! So who cooked the food?” I asked after eating almost half of the plate.

“Sister Lizzy”, she answered.

I almost spat out immediately. Not that anything was wrong ooo, but not eating the food sisters cooked and brought for me was a principle I kept. I never eat what a sister cooked and presented to me.

I had reserved that privilege for the lady I would marry. So apart from my mom and my sister, I don’t eat the food of another woman.

Oh no! I had just broken the principle. But I went on eating. There’s nothing I could do about it. I don chop am I don chop. Make I ku ku ma finish am.

Sade’s phone started ringing.

“Oh my goodness! I’m running late!” She gasped and picked her back pack. She picked her phone and a few books.

“It would take me two hours to get back to school. Oh no! Brother mi, mo ti lo ooo!” She said and dashed out of the house.

I wasn’t able to say a word before she left.

I looked at sister Lizzy who was scrolling through her phone. We were both alone in the room.

My head rang the warning bells immediately. I never allowed sisters into my room. I felt I was breaking so many principles at the same time.

Though I wasn’t the rich guy a lot of ladies would run after, I had the looks of a rich guy. Apart from that, I was exceptionally handsome and drew the attention of sisters so much. I have had so many crushes which Lizzy was part of the list.

She had tried to get close to me, I was too strict with sisters to allow that. I noticed she was becoming friends with my younger sister. I never saw what was actually coming.

Alone with this sister in the house was too uncomfortable for me.

“Take a look at this!” She said and drew close to me on the bed, stretching her phone.

I looked at her and noticed she unbuttoned some of the buttons on her blouse. Her blouse was modest enough to cover her chest. I guess she wanted me to see what I saw.

She gave me her phone and made to get her purse on the bed. I looked and noticed her thighs were staring at me.

Her skirt wasn’t skimpy. But it looked like she adjusted it by the way she sat. It had climbed up her thighs and was a few meters left to reveal her unclothedness.

My blood was getting warm. My heart was pumping faster than usual. I took my eyes off her thighs, but in a few seconds, I was staring at them again.

I took my eyes off her chest, but in a few seconds, I found my eyes going back there.

“God help me to be strong. What was she even showing me on her phone sef?

It was a picture of a girl on a provocative attire.

“Do you know that lady?” She asked.

“Wetin concern me concern that lady? I’m dying here”, I replied within me.

“No”, I answered.

“You mean you don’t know her she said and hit me on the chest, so soft and gentle.

Current flowed through my body and I knew I needed to borrow Joseph’s running shoes.

Ayayayaaaaaa! Holy Ghost help me ooo! Na die I dey so ooo!

“Look at her very well”, she said and placed her arm around my shoulder.

I wanted to resist, but I allowed her and relaxed. I was struggling within me. I didn’t know what to do. I knew what was going on, but lacked the strength to resist.

I couldn’t explain how I was feeling anymore. I wasn’t expecting something like this. What was happening to me. I thought God had shown me the lady he wanted me to marry. Was this a distraction or what?

Soon she turned and looked into my eyes.

“Silas I want you!” She said and placed her two hands at the back of my neck.

I looked at her, unable to say a word.

“By the time we destroy you, Aunty Rhema will never survive a second fall. She would be so depressed and blame herself that your death was all her fault. She would kill herself. We would succeed at the mission.

We cannot allow her manifest her destiny. She’s so much a terror to our kingdom. Look at the souls she has pulled into the kingdom within a few months of her walk with God.if we allow her for a year, for 2 years, 3 or more, the loss would be too much”.

I heard everything she said, but lacked the power to resist her as she laid me on the bed.

To be continued…….

The battle against your destiny is not a child’s play.

Sin opens access doors for the enemy to have power over you.

The bible says he that breaketh the hedge, a serpent shall surely bite.

If Silas had forgiven Cris and not nursed bitterness in his heart towards her, the enemy wouldn’t have had such access to his life.

I have learnt Submissions and obedience, God needs a vessel that is malleable in His hands. A heart that always submit to His will. It is good to submit and obey God without any hesitations., don't question his instructions just obey Him.

OHaddy:
I have learnt Submissions and obedience, God needs a vessel that is malleable in His hands. A heart that always submit to His will. It is good to submit and obey God without any hesitations., don't question his instructions just obey Him.

May God bless you dear sister, humility and obedience to God’s word is divine in seeking His face in every situation of life.